Reach For the Stars [ NARRY FANFIC ]

Chapter 2. Tired of feeling alone

HARRYS POV

"H-Harry wake up" a girly familiar voice said. I opened my eyes to see gemmas big smile. I smiled back and got up.

I rubbed my eyes and looked at my phones time.

~ 9:43 am ~

I woke up early today. I thought. I usually sleep in because I have nothing to do besides do drugs, have sex and drink.

"You okay harry?" Gemma said snapping out of my thoughts. I popped my head up and nodded.

"Yeah um why are you here?" I said being a little rude.

"Well I wanted to check on you but seems like your good so I'll leave" she said walking out the door. I ran over to the door to shut and lock it then I went into the bathroom.

I needed a deep clean shower.

I put the hot water on and got undressed looking at myself in the mirror fully naked. I hated what I saw. I saw a ugly monster. Someone I'm not.

I opened the shower door and put my shivering body under the steamy water. It felt so good.

I grabbed my body wash and scrubbed my body very good but I took time cleaning my willy. It was sure dirty from those girls. Ewe.

I grabbed my shampoo and scrubbed my hair. The smells of the shampoo and body wash made me smile. And feel good.

As soon as I was fully clean I turned the water off and grabbed a towel.

I wrapped it around my bottom half if my body and walked into my room to get boxers.

I then heard a little knock on the door. So before I could get dressed I put the towel back on my bottom half and ran to the door.

I opened it to see a girl about my age brown hair, hazel eyes. Pretty hot.

"Can I help you?" I said with a small smile. She smiled back.

"H-hi I'm Blaire and I'm new here and I need help" she said as she chuckled.

Seems like a easy one to get into her panties.

"Oh right um with what do you need help with?" I asked my towel loosened but it pulled it back up.

"Where's the nearest market?" She asked with a cute little smile.

"About 3 blocks down to the right" I said pointing.

"Thanks em..." She questioned

"Harry, Harry styles" I said with a smile.

"Right thank you harry" she said as she walked off.

She had a bubble butt. To much of a butt for me. that ruined it.

I locked my door and put on my boxers. Damn girls, there all useless.

"Ah fuck!" I yelled as I got a splinter from the door.

I grabbed my phone and dialed one of my friends numbers. Well I think he's my friend.

"Z-Zayn?" I asked as I heard he answered.

"Hey Harry what's up?" Zayn said in his husky deep voice. I sighed.

"Wanna meet me at the pub?" I asked while I bit my nail.

"Erm, yeah sure give me 10" Zayn said.

"Kay" I said as I hung up and put on my purple oversized sweater and my skinny jeans and my matching purple beanie.

I grabbed my phone my flat key and walked out.

I grabbed my bike by my side of the flat and pedaled away.

"They see me rolling they hatin'" played in my head as I thought I was cool riding my bike.

Harry your 19, riding a damn bike you should have a car by now.

"Get out of my head!" I mumbled. I hate that tiny little voice in my head that mocks me. Tell me I'm not good enough. And most of all it .... Controls me. Makes me hate myself.

"Harry?" A voice from behind me said. I turned my head to see that girl from earlier Blaire with a bunch of friends.

I'm on a bike. There in a car. Wtf is this!

"Oh hey" I said in a low yet happy voice.

"Me and my friends are going to the pub wanna join?" She asked her smile slowly failing away.

"Haha really? Thats were I'm headed I'm meeting my friend" I said with a small smirk.

She smiled. The light turned green and she drove off as I pedaled away.


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I opened the door to see Zayn in a corner by himself waiting for me. I smiled as I made my way to him.

"He bro" Zayn said as I sat down in front of him.

"Hi" I said arranging my utensils.

Zayn shook his head.

"Hi what can I get y'all?" A lady said taking our orders.

"Two beers" I said as I ordered for both me and Zayn.

She walked off. Her legs were perfectly tan and she was damn so fit.

"Harry I call dibs" Zayn said nudging my elbow. I laughed.

"Hahaha good luck mate" I said as I laughed. He rolled his eyes.

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After the pub I pedaled home as Zayn scored with that fit chick. I gave him props. He did pretty good. I was shocked!

I unlocked my flat door and sat on the couch. I grabbed my acoustic guitar next to me and began to strum.

I've been working on a song for a while dedicated to him. But I'm just to nervous to sing it to anyone.

"Don't let me....
Don't let me..,
Don't let me goooo
Cause' I'm tired of feeling alone" I sang. I knew I had a pretty good voice, but this song just fitted perfectly with it.

I wish Niall was here beside me so I could sing it to him. I wouldnt care if I sang it to him, I'm sure he'd cry and hug me.

A tear slipped from my eye.

Harry don't

Stop thinking about him

He's long gone

Move on!

I sighed loudly and put my guitar away. Much to tired for that. I needed a drug to get me going.

I looked in the fridge I had to have one left somewhere.

I looked behind my cases of beer and saw one open roll of Molly. Thank goodness.

I unrolled it and sniffled it up.

I wrapped it back up and out it back behind the beers. I went in my bathroom to make sure I didn't have any white on my nose.

I washed my face and went back on the couch.


I got out my phone and Looked through my apps. Nothing.

I went to texts and saw I had a few messages. But non from him.

Some from Zayn, my mum, Gemma, and Liam.

From Liam:
Hey bro! Haven't talked to you in forever! How are youuu? Let's meet up sometime and catch up!

Ugh why does he even try?!

I rubbed my eyes that felt like they were gonna fall off on how tired I was. I may not do much but I get tired easily.

"Cause I'm tired of feeling alone" kept repeating in my head. I am tired, of feeling alone.

I sighed even louder, am I gonna be the one that fucks girls, gets drunk, and gets high all the time and have no life.

"Fuck Harry you've screwed up so badly" I mumbled as I rubbed my tired eyes.

My eyes were watery telling me I was beyond tired. UGHHH..

I shut my eyes and fell asleep.

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"HARRY WAKE UP!" A voice yelled. I opened my eyes to see Gemma.

I rubbed my eyes and looked at her more clearly.

"Why do you wake me up all the time?!" I said being a but grumpy.

"I want to make sure your okay!" She snapped back.

"Well do I look okay?!" I yelled back.

"Yes now I'm leaving cause your being rude!" Gemma said slamming my front door.

She thinks I'm okay? Well I guess I could put on a great impression of me being 'okay'.

I looked at my phone to see the time.

~ 11 pm ~

Your joking. I slept for 20 minutes?!

Screw this I can't do anything anymore with Gemma on my back!

I closed my eyes shut and fell asleep.


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