Reach For the Stars [ NARRY FANFIC ]

chapter 18 . The best of us

niall's pov

why is it so hard trying to forget people? I wish I never met the kid honestly, my life has been complete hell ever since I've met Harry. you'd think having love would be easy and rainbows and stuff but no it's hard, because you love and hate them at the same time.

"Niall?" I fluttered my eyes to see my muma interrupting my thoughts. she had a huge smile plastered onto her face.

"yes?" I spoke quietly almost a whisper tone.

"Harry's on the ph-" I didn't even let her finish her words before I ran out of bed towards the phone. I picked it up fumbling making it fall to the floor, I snatched it back into my hands and waited.

"is uh, Niall there?" Harry said I could feel his anxiety. I smiled.

"you're talking to him" I said calmly and simply. I heard him sigh.

"I just wanted to apologize, I couldn't sleep all night and I felt terrible and awful. and I'm sorry. I'm a joke, and I'm not asking for a second chance but I want you to know I'm sorry" he said rambling on and on.

"you're no joke. you're Harry styles" my humor got the best of me and I could hear Harry chuckle on the other line.

"what are we?" I said sighing again.

"one big mess that's for sure" Harry said, I was smiling at the thought.

"I don't hate you, well I do but I also love you" Harry said confusing me. but I got it, I feel the same way.

"hmmm you're a odd one" I said. he sighed again.

"Harry I feel the same way don't get me wrong. but maybe we need a break?" I said almost upset at myself for saying that. he sighed.

"I get it. and I completely agree." he said.

"as much as I could use a good fucking I just want to see where I'm at in life" He added . I laughed.

"so I guess I'll see you uh..." Harry trailed off unsure.

"I'll call you when I feel better" I said. he sighed before hanging up. I was so unsure. I loved every aspect of him and it made me trying to forget him even harder. He ruined yet made my life so much better.

"Ni, why don't we go to the market later on and you can help me fetch some fresh fruits" my mum said from behind the wall. I looked up trying to push through the thoughts of Harry and smiled at my mum. I gave her a nod before making my way back to my room.

Harry's Pov.

maybe we did need a break, this could be the best for us maybe? fuck why can't I get him off my mind?! stop. what the fuck.

"Harry? you look so pale are you alright?" Gemma said interrupting me, thank goodness.

"I'm fine. just uh thirsty" I lied going into the fridge to find a water. she nodded before walking away. I shut the fridge while chugging the water. Maybe I was crazy? am I crazy? calm down.

Niall. Niall. Niall. I can't get him out of my head, this isn't going to work with me. he needs to be home with me where he belongs. This isn't right I can't get a break he's on my mind 24/7. I'm going crazy mad. I want to fuck his brains out, I miss his soft moans when he reached his climax while tugging loosely onto my hair. Fuck that turned me on. I looked at the time and focused on the old wall in the hallway just thinking. I didn't know how I felt, I couldn't explain it. I don't get it. I can't put what I felt into words so only I knew what I felt. I'm crazy about some blonde haired freak and I honestly don't get it.

I don't want to even stare at another man, I can't and I won't. I'm too deeply and madly in love with Niall I don't dare to look at anyone but him. even if I do I feel guilt and immediately think of Niall. that boy has me wrapped around his fingers. he has my heart in his hands I swear to gosh if he drops it I won't be able to recover. fuck that I know I won't be able to recover. Love is such a shitty thing, it makes you want to rip yourself into pieces, it drives you insane. But something about the feeling of ripping yourself into pieces and going madly insane makes you crave love even more.