Reach For the Stars [ NARRY FANFIC ]

Chapter 9. Fix us

NIALLS POV

A fresh start. A new me. A good day I suppose. I took out my ray bands out of my leather jacket pocket and put them on. Blocking the bright sun shinning in my eyes.

"Much better" I said as I sipped on my beer. I sat there on the porch all morning just to watch this damn sun rise. And yes it was all worth it. I drank more beer to the bottle was more than half way gone.

The sun was rising over the tall hill a few miles away before I got to see it all happen, I noticed a few kids walking on the sidewalk with backpacks on. I forgot school, ah how I hated school.

I rather eat shit then go to school. I did poorly in it. Does that mean I'm stupid? No I'm very smart in things such as: friendship and music. that's basically it. That's all I needed.

I went back inside quietly, and grabbed my guitar. A little music always makes me feel better.

I sat back down in the chair and lightly strummed a tune. A tune only me and a man have ever heard. Of course it was Harry's song. I didn't get to see what it was called or the lyrics. But the tune was so catchy I can never get it out of my head.

If only I knew the lyrics to make it even better. But Harry being the jerk he is barely even let me strum the tune.

I sipped on my last few drinks of beer till the bottle was empty. What am I doing? I grabbed the bottle and threw it on the concrete ground.

"FUCK YOU!" I yelled as I ran back into the house, I noticed I got a few people attention. I slammed the front door. And ran into my room and slammed that door. I jumped onto my bed and sobbed.

Fml I'm nothing.

"Ni" my mums voice spoke quietly. "Niall dear why are you crying?" She finished.

After I though of it I didn't even know why.

"I'm crying and I don't even know why!" I said through tears. She have me a pouty face. And hugged me.

Even if I told my mum what happened between me and Harry. She would freak out she dosent know I'm gay. Why should she know?!

"Honey go make friends" my mum spoke again as she walked out. Make friends? I have friends. Plenty of them.

I took out my phone

57%

I took it off the charger and dialed Barbara's number.

"Oh Niall! Hello!" She said in her cheery voice I can imagine her big smile appear on her face.

"Hey Barbara." I paused "are you busy?" I added.

"Actually it's a good time! I just got out of my shoot" she said. Oh hot damn.

"I was thinking" I paused.

Wait

"Niall? You there?" She asked. Did I wait that long?

"Oh yeah sorry, em.. Want to grab some lunch?" I stuttered.

"Sure! I'm starving! Where at?" She said.

"Nandos, if that's ok with you" I said worried she would want to go somewhere else.

"That sounds lovely. Ill pick you up in 10" she said. That's so sad I have a girl picking me up to go out. That's sad.

I hung up and ran to the restroom to brush my teeth, do my hair, and wash my face. I already had skinny jeans on and my brown leather jacket.

"You look handsome" my mum said sneaking in on me. I blushed. I spiked up my hair with gel and gave my mum a kiss on the cheek, grabbed my wallet and phone, and ran onto the porch and waited.


I saw the black shinny car that the sun rays hit. I put on my ray bands and ran up to the car.

"You look good" she said a little side compliment. I smiled. And she drove off.


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HARRYS POV

"Shut the fuck up! I know what I'm doing!" I yelled as boss tried to change everything I did.

"H-harr-" he said but I cut him off.

"If you give me shit I'll leave you shit" I simply said through my teeth. He walked away.

Bitch. I lifted 30lbs of weight today. I needed to step up my game. After that I went to the treadmill and ran a few miles on that.

I was shaking with how sweaty and tired, and thirsty. I grabbed my water still shaking and chugged it.

"Ahhhhh" I said as I was satisfied after I drank it. The iced cold water running down my dry, rough throat felt great.

"Harry?" Zayn said as he came behind me. I turned around to see him with a big smile on his face.

"What?" I said back. His smile slowly faded.

"Wanna get lunch? On me." He said. I thought about it.

"Nah I gotta get home. I'm going over my mums tonight" I said remembering. He nodded.

"We'll let me drive you home" he said. I nodded. I didn't feel like walking today. Zayn grabbed his gym bag and car keys. As I grabbed my headband and wrapped it around my head to keep my sweaty hair out of my face.

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"Thanks" I said hoping out of Zayns car and walked up to my front door.

"See you later" he said as he rolled his window up and took off. I sighed.

I unlocked my door, to see brining but shit. A shitty flat.

I started the shower, and picked out my clothes to change into. A nice red flannel with some right black sunny jeans and my dark green headbands with glasses on them.

I undressed out of my gym clothes and walked into the shower. The bit steamy water felt great on my back especially because my back was in throbbing pains.

I grabbed my axe shampoo and rubbed it all over my body. The nice men smells filled the shower. Smelt great.

After the shower I dried my dripping wet hair and got my clothes on. I out on my old classy boots and walked out.

I walked down the subway and got on the number 5 bus that would take me to my mums house.

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"Hello?" My mum said in her classy accent not taking her eyes off her shinny nails. She didn't even know it was me.

I cleared my throat to get her attention.

She looked up and her mouth dropped.

"HARRY!" She yelled as she hugged me as tight as my jeans were. She had a huge smile on her beautiful face as a few tears rolled down her cheeks.

She walked me in to see lots of family. I guess this is a random get together.

"Harry glad you made it!" Robin said as he patted my back. I was always sad when my parents split, I rarely see my father which sucked.

"Glad to be here" I said back to him with a smile. Gemma came in the room hand in hand with a boy with curly hair a little like mine.

"HARRY YOUR HERE!" Gemma yelled as she ran and gave me a big hug.

"So I noticed" I said as I put my hands in my pockets. She giggled.

"Oh Ashton this is Harry my younger brother" I looked at the man. His dimples, his smile, much like mine. He nodded and shook my hand.

I noticed Gemma was wearing my purple oversized sweater. And I could help but laugh.

"What's so funny? Eh?" Gemma said slightly shouting.

I shook my head so she would stop and leave if alone.

I walked in the backyard. Big space and a massive trampoline. I loved that trampoline so much.

I reached in my pocket and found a brand new cigarette? What?

I took it out and lit it and smoked it. Not to bad. Now I know why Zayn smokes a lot. Before I blew out the smoke I inhaled someone snatched it from my hand.

"Harry!?" Gemma yelled throwing in on the ground and stomping all over it. I rolled my eyes.

"Smoking dosent make you cool" she said as she got on her tippy toes to reach my level. Gemma pushed me onto the trampoline and we both jumped.

"Harry someone's here to see you!!!" My mum yelled from far away. A short, skinny brunette with a hug smile came jogging towards me and Gemma. Oh fuck.

"Oh my god Harry!" She said as she got into the trampoline and hugged me. Gemma shrugged.

"It's Abigail your ex from middle school" she said to refresh my mind

"Oh hey!" I said with a awkward smile. Gemma giggled, and left. Wow just great.

"So how have you've been? " Abigail said breaking the awkwardness.

"Pretty well.." I said trailing off.

"I know this is weird I just thought about saying a quick 'hello' and see how your doing" she said as she put her hair behind her ear.

"Well i said I'm good so.." I said. I'll admit I was a bit rude.

"I'm really glad. I got to get going, thanks for the chat." She said as she sighed and walked slowly.

"Wai-t" I said. She turned around and smiled.

"Wanna jump?" I asked as I began to jump high. She laughed and ran over to me and jumped with me.

"Haha this is great" she said her smile never leaving her face. I can feel my smile staying on my face too.

"Want to flip?" I asked. She didn't hesitate to nod. We stood still and I put my hand on her mid back and head and she flipped.

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"Wow thanks harry that was fun" Abigail said before she hoped off and walked away.

"Abigail!" I said as I chased after her.

"Yes?" She said as I noticed how close we were.

"I want to do this again sometime" I said not taking a 'no' for a answer.

"Sure" she said as she checked her phone and blushed.

"My boyfriend is waiting in the car I'll catch you later. Thanks again" she said as she gave me a friendly hug and left.

Her body was fit and perfect. I wanted to damage and bend it. She seems like she do great in bed.

Then it hit me even harder than it has before. I was alone again; not a single lover to love on me. Not anyone to fuck. Not anyone to come home to.

I sighed and sat on the rim of the trampoline. Niall. Niall. Niall

Oh how that boy did. How he blushed when I made a move, how his little smile appeared when I was near him, his eyes.

"Fuck this!" I yelled and spit on the ground.

"Hey chap!" Robin paused "I know it's not my problem but I see the look in your eyes.." He said.

I waited for him to continue

Nothing.

"And..." I said back he chuckled.

"Your lovesick my boy" he said with a goofy smile. "Who's the lucky girl?" He said again. If he only knew.

"It's my business" I said.

"Harry I'm trying to be a father to you" he said.

"No. Don't." I said "you'll never ever be my father" I lastly said.

"Harry Edward styles!" Robin shouted. I rolled my eyes.

"You can always try to be a father, don't get me wrong" I said in a smart ass way.

"But you'll just never be mine" I said as I smiled nodded and walked off.

I walked inside to see my mum cooking with two other older women. One was poring beers and wines.

I quietly snuck a beer and walked back in the backyard no sight of anyone. Perfect.

I began to take baby sips of my beer. I like to save.

Why did I even agree to come here? Oh right my mum would stalk me for the rest of my life.

"So" my mum said coming up from behind me I quickly tried to hide the beer but obviously she saw it.

"You underage!" My mum said snatching the bottle of beer away from me. I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms over my chest.

"Mum. I'm 19 I'm okay" I said as I noticed tears slipping down her cheek. I wrapped her in my arms as she hugged me tightly.

"I just really missed you" she said as she let lose and smiled as she wiped her tears. I smiled back. My mum was the reason I was here on this earth.

"I love you" I said. She smiled and kissed my cheek. She wiped her dirty baking hands on her apron and went back inside.

I stayed outside waiting for food to be done so I can leave. I was tired and didn't feel like being here. I rubbed my eyelids and looked up at the sky. A pretty redish orange filled it.

"Pretty isn't it?" A girl about my age said as he sat beside me.

I shrugged. She then sighed and looked back up at the sky,

"Sorry but do I know you?" I said as she looked back at me.

"Oh no. Sorry. I'm Katie" she said offering to shake my hand. To bad I acted like I didn't see it and didn't shake it.

"So who are your parents?" She asked. Why did she care?

"Anne, she's my mum" I simply said still look forward not makin eye co tact.

"And robin is your step dad?" She asked.

"No he's not my dad" I said giving her a glare. She nodded

"And Gemma is your sister?" She asked. I nodded.

"She's lovely" she added.

"Yep" I said again. I could tell Katie was staring at me. Fuck why can't she just leave already?! Does she not get what in trying to say?! Leave!


"Sorry for making things awkward I'll leave" she said as she got up and ran over to the trampoline. She laid her body across it and laid there. I just imagined me thrusting into her.

A bit horny today? As usual.

I smirked. Would she be easy? Would she tell my family?

"Katie" I yelled as I ran over to her. She adjusted her body to face me.

"I was thinking we go upstairs and talk more about eachother" I lied. She blushed.

"Sure!" She said. We ran inside the house try to sneak upstairs. No one saw us thank goodness.

Give me 15 minutes and I'll be done.

I closed the door after we sat down and we looked at eachother.

"So I was thinking.." I said but she stopped me by clearing her throat. That's it. I crushed my lips onto her and we moved in sync. Fighting to remove our clothes and get in the bed.

Protection. Ah fuck! I forgot mine at home. Oh well.

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"Oh my god" Katie said as she finally reached her climax and crawled up to me and laid kisses on my neck.

"Get dressed" I demanded her as she did as I asked, I cleaned myself off with a rag and put my clothes on.

I'll admit she was pretty good a bit tight but easy to work with.

Katie put her hair up in a bun and fixed some lose strands of hair and put them in a clip.

I grabbed my headband and put it around my head to fix my hair.

"Well" she said clearing her throat obviously not knowing what to do next.

"See you later" I said as I smirked and left the room. She sat back down and blushed.

As I walked down the stairs I acted like I was just looking around.

"Oh son come here" my mum said with a platter of little sandwiches.

She had me put them on the counter.

"Hey mum I got to go I have to wake up early and go to work" I said as I nodded. My mums mouth dropped.

"You work?!" She said as she put her hand on her hip. I nodded slowly.

"I'm. So. Proud. Of. You" she said in between giving me kisses. I smiled.

"Okay take some to go, and have a good night. I love you" she said handing me a package, and some food. I have her a kiss goodbye and left.

Wonder what's in the package.

I took the bus home.


As I approached my front door and fiddled in my pocket for my keys and unlocked the door. I put down my plate of foods and walked over to the couch.

I laid down desperately.

"AHHH" I yelled as I had no clue what I was doing with my life.

I'm done. I ripped open the package to see something spotted and white. What the hell?

It came with a little picture of me in a tiny spotted dog costume..

Why did I need this? I took out the tiny costume that I wore when I was like 4 and laughed.

I put it beside me and fell asleep.


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"H-Harry" a voice whispered I slowly opened my eyes to see Zayn beside me.

"Hm?" I said as I rubbed my eyes.

"Were late get dressed" Zayn said as he waited. I ran I to my room and put a neon tanktop on with some grey shorts and my neon Nike shoes.

Zayn walked me out to his car. And he drove off.

"So I was thinking me you and Grimmy go to the pub tonight" Zayn said as he stopped on the red light.

"Nah I'm good" I said as I shook my head. Zayn pressed on the brake to hard causing us to jerk.

"Wtf. Harry you always love going" Zayn said as he started the car back up.

"Not feeling it" I simply said.

"Damn what's wrong with you?" He said as he shook his head,

Zayn parked up front and we walked in with our gym bags.

"Ah my boys" the boss said as we all went to where we'd be working out for the day.

I went over to the treadmill I felt like sweating and getting more stronger in the legs.

"Go up to 20mph" the boss said cranking it up faster.

I stopped it.

"How about I have my own control or I quit" I said as I put it back to where I had it. The boss walked away.

Him and Zayn were whispering in eachothers ear. Fuck them.

I cranked up the speed to 30mph and began to run.

Sweat sweat sweat. All I felt was sweat I grabbed my lilac towel that hung lose over the machine and wiped my forehead.

"Nice job today!" The boss said clapping to us 5 men. I rolled my eyes.

"See you boys tomorrow 8am sharp" he said as he walked back into his office. All the boys were talking to each other. So I sorta just left. I felt like walking home by myself.

"Have a great day!" The girl at the front desk said. I waved her off and existed the building.

I then saw Gemma out front talking to her boyfriend. And they kissed. Please stop now.

I tried to avoid them and walk away trying to not get there attention

"Harry?!" Gemma said running up to me. Ah fuck.

I turned around to see Gemmas smile just like mine.

"Oh hey" I said whisper like. She gave me a big hug.

"What's up with the neon? I mean wow Harry" she said as she chuckled. I smiled. She was so sarcastic and teasing.

"So where's your "work" at?" Gemma said quoting what I said from last night.

"I work here." He simply said. She giggled.

"I'm serious, I workout and train, and then I go out and fight when I'm ready" I said. Her smile faded away. And her mouth dropped.

"What if you get hurt??" She said just like my mum would say.

"I recover and fight again" I said as I clenched the strap of my gym bag.

"Let me give you a ride home" Gemma said as we started to walk over to her old truck. I sat my bag ontop of my lap as Gemma started her truck up. The loud musty noises came out as she backed out.

"So why were you here?" I asked. She smiled.

"Ashton works out here" she said as she turned out of the parking area and into the streets.

I nodded.

"Did you like your gift mum gave you?" Gemma said as she scrunched her nose.

"Actually I did" I said honestly. Gemma nodded.

"Are you hungry or anything?" She asked again.

"A tad but not to mch" I said. She turned into the Starbucks drive thru.


NIALLS POV

"Thanks for lunch" Barbara said as she dropped me off back home. I waved her off and went inside.

Something didn't feel right. Nothing about my life felt normal it all felt fake and not real.

I guess you could say I still love Harry. But i don't know why. How did he still manage to get in my head?!

I grabbed my mums car keys and drove to the market. I needed to buy foods I like.

As I parked up close to the market I got out and made my way to the junky foods. I felt like eating a lot. I went to the candy section and literally got every piece of chocolate there was.

"Niall?" A voice behind me said. A voice I didn't want to hear. A voice I recognize instantly. I didn't want to turn around so I froze up.

I turned around to see Harry standing a foot taller than me. He slightly smiled. His piercing eyes trapping me.

He had beautiful eyes
The kind you could get lost in
And I guess I did.

Harry snapped his fingers to get me out of dozing off. Shit.

"Em. Erm, I." I said stuttering not knowing what to say to this man. He looked a lot better. Clean.

"How are you?" Harry asked as he moved out of other people's ways. He's asking me? How I'm doing? W-what?!

"I'm g-good" I said backing away. He smiled.

"Well I'm glad" he simply said as he nodded and walked away. I felt tears coming down my cheeks and I couldn't help but fall on the floor and cry. Wtf am I doing?! Crying like a baby?!

I cupped my knees and sobbed. Why did I do that to myself? What are the odds seeing him here.

"Oh yeah and nial-" Harry said coming back over to me, to fucking see me crying.

Harry's face looked confused as he knelt on one knee and looked at me.

"Are you alright?" He asked. Why is he being so nice? He hated me.

I slowly nodded twice and Harry helped me up.

"Let's go check out" Harry said walking us over to the check outs. He payed do mine and his groceries and we went outside.

"I. I don't know what to say" I said speechless of everything he was doing.

"Then don't say anything at all" Harry said nicely with a smile. I felt horrible for having him pay so I offered him a ride home.

"Sure that'd be nice" he said hopping into the passengers side with his groceries on his lap.

"I'm not sure why your being nice but whatever the reason is I'm not falling for it" I said. Harry chuckled.

"Then don't fall for me. I dare you" he said. He looked at me and smiled. His smile could cure cancer.

"You look good, like clean" I said awkwardly Harry nodded.

"Well I started working out and yeh I guess you could say I look clean" Harry said

"I haven't had sex in days" he added. I couldn't help but laugh.

"And why is that? I mean your Harry styles you get anyone you want" I said as I turned the corner. Harry shook his head.

"I don't exactly want anyone" Harry said. I nodded.

"Well I'm happy you stopped that stuff" I said. Harry nodded

"I am too" Harry slightly whispered as he looked at me. I could feel him staring and I felt awkward.

"Okay well it was nice to see you" Harry said as he got out and struggled with his groceries.

Niall go help him.

I got out the car and grabbed them out of his hands for him to unlock his door. I set them on the counter and walked out.

"You know Niall" Harry said before I left I turned around and walked back in.

"You were right, I should have went to visited my mum more often. That's why I did yesterday" Harry said. I couldn't believe the words coming out if his mouth.

"You're right I don't know what true love is, but I do know that when I see or I'm with you. I feel it. And I'm not sure how to explain it, but if you don't already notice, you changed me. I got a job. I cleaned myself up, I'm different now. And if you don't see that then, then I don't know what to do next" Harry said as he was getting a bit emotional. I didn't know what to say. As always he left me speechless.

"Go ahead walk away. Just give me time." Harry said waving me off.

"Tell me you don't love me anymore so I can move on" Harry said as a few tears slipped out. I was about to cry hearing and seeing him do this all.

"And you're right too even if you dared me to not fall for you I still would! And that's exactly why I'm not walking away." I said. Harry smiled through tears. I ran over and hugged him. This is the Harry I fell for. This is the Harry I loved. This is the real Harry.

Harry wrapped his arms right around me and I felt so much at home. I've never felt this loved in my life not even by my own parents.

"And I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. For doing what I did to you" Harry said as he looked me straight in the eyes. I knew he was be real with me,