Reach For the Stars [ NARRY FANFIC ]

Chapter 15. The sleepless nights

NIALLS POV

"Can I call a doctor now?" Harry asked getting so inpatient as he saw me so hopeless in bed. I finally gave in and nodded. He went into the other room to ring the doctor. I tried so hard to get out of bed by failed miserably and fell onto the cold wooden floor.

"I can't leave you without you doing something to get hurt" Harry said Ashe picked me up and lightly out me in bed. "I'll be back in a bit, please be safe and don't do anything stupid" he said giving me a kiss on the forehead and leaving.

I haven't moved a inch, my body was weak and I was seeing bones. Not from not eating but from being too weak to eat. I've been like this for days now, I had no emotions just some lonely feeling I've felt deep down in my heart for ages. Harry checked up on me daily, I appreciated that but he never stayed. Was I getting to ugly and skinny for him to be into me?

I felt so ugly and worthless, he dosent love me anymore, I know it. Tears rolled down my cheek and I fluttered my eyes open. My mum came into my room and noticed.

"You alright dear?" She asked as she sat on the edge of the bed. Obviously I wasn't if I haven't gotten out of bed in days and haven't eaten anything. She sighed as she noticed I wasn't. "Please eat this" she said handing me a plate with a cheese toastie. I couldn't even if I tried I'd just choke it up. She sighed.

"Greg is brining theo over!" She said. "I'm sure he'd love to see his favorite uncle" she said as she smiled a bit. I sighed, I'm his only uncle. She's trying so hard to get me out of this bed but when I do I fail and cry. I can't move.

"I'll check up on you soon" she said blowing me a kiss and leaving. I sighed. Alone again. I just needed that one person to come and try to brighten up my day. Harry is all I wanted to see and talk to. Even if we didn't talk, if he was in the same room as me I would be more than happy.

Maybe if I sleep he'll come over quicker. I shut my eyes and slowly shifted my body to the left side facing the wall. My body ached in pain from moving so little. I sighed and fell asleep.

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I awoke with the feeling of eyes watching me, I opened my lazy eyes to see Harry in the chair beside me. His eyes brightened up and his smirk went from ear to ear. I wanted to smile back but I couldn't. "Hi" he said his voice calm and mellow. I liked it.

"Hi" I said back so weak and forceful. He frowned. He saw my pain and felt guilty I know it. He crossed his arms around his chest.

"I'll come over later yeah? I'll be back soon" he said as he approached my door to leave. But you just got here. I wanted to speak but I bit my tongue and let him leave and do what he wanted to do. The pain and hurt I felt at the moment made me soo moody. I wanted to scream but I couldn't.

"Mum" I cried out desperately. I just wanted someone's presence so I didn't feel so lonely like this. I heard running until my mum came into my room our of breath. "Yes honey?" She asked as she caught her breath and sat in the chair Harry sat in.

"he dosent love me" I cried out. Out of nowhere all my tears and emotions bursted out. My mum just sat and watched.

"Honey no" she said so caring as she knelt beside me wiping my tears. Harry should be doing this all not my mother. She gave me a weak smile and parted her lips. "If he didn't love and care for you any longer, he would not still be coming around to see if you're ok" she said so honestly and bold. I nodded. Maybe he didn't like the way I looked? Fucks sakes he probably fucking other men behind my back. All my thoughts made me feel so horrible and useless inside.

"Don't be thinking bad thoughts, he's a good man" she said as she saw me overthinking. She gave me another weak smile and kissed my cheek . "Now be happy you got a man who cares" she said as she got a tiny bit more stern. I weakly smiled and she left me alone. All I wanted was Harry. Harry with me. Harry beside me. Harry breathing the same air as me. Just Harry.