Love has never felt like this

Chapter 5!

I got up, smiling nervously at Cammie as I walked into the kitchen with my Dad. "Shannon who's.. That?"
"That's uh.. My girlfriend?" I replied in an unsure tone.
"Well.. When did she get here? Why didn't you tell me she was coming Shannon!" By this point he was almost shouting.
"Dad please stop shouting at me! I'm sorry I didn't tell you, it's just I was so nervous about her coming"
"SHANNON YOU DON'T GET IT DO YOU?!"
"What dad? What's there to get?"
"YOUR GIRLFRIEND ISN'T WANTED IN THIS HOUSE AND NEITHER ARE YOU IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE WALLOWING IN SIN!"
At this point I broke down, tears were streaming down my face and I hunched over, as though trying to protect myself from a stab wound. Too late. I can't believe my dad just said that.. He hasn't even given Cam a chance. Right then, Cam burst through the door, wrapping her arms tightly around me. "I want you two out of my house, NOW!" I managed to find some strength from this. "Cammie is my girlfriend, if you can't accept that.. Then you lose me."
With that I grab Cammie's hand and we leave. We go to get in the car.

***Cammie's POV***

"Oh hey Shan, I uh forgot something.. I'll be back in a minute okay?"
"Mhm" I kissed her cheek and went back inside.
"Shannon I told you to leave"
"It's not Shannon, Mr Beveridge"
He sighed and turned away from me.
"Listen Mr Beveridge, I don't know you but I can see you do care about her. Just because she's gay, doesn't mean she's a sinner. God made her who she is.. Because God makes everyone a specific way right? Otherwise we'd all be the same. And that's boring. I love Shannon, sir.. I haven't told her that but I do.. She makes me so happy, like no one ever had and ever will. It's so early in our relationship and yet somehow.. I already know I want to stand next to her at the alter. And I know she would love to have her dad standing there next to her, on her side. Walking her down the aisle.. Supporting her not going against her. She loves you sir, you love her too I can see that.. But if you push her away for being gay, she'll never return to you.."
He turns around and looks me in the eye..
"Cammie is it?"
"Uh Camden, but I prefer Cammie yeah.."
"Truthfully? I know Shannon's a good kid, I know she's being true to herself and I believe that's good. All I wanted was for her to be happy and healthy.. I know this isn't making her happy but.. I'm scared for her. This world is hard enough for a straight kid, let alone a gay one. She's gonna be picked on and.. I don't want her to have to go through that alone."
"I understand that Mr Beveridge but.. She'll never have to go through anything alone, I love her and I'll stand by her no matter what. I love her as much as you, if not more.."
"She loves you too you know.. She told me. Just give me some time to think okay.. And thank you, Cammie.. Really."
"You're welcome Mr Beveridge"
He smiled and then I just left. Shan was waiting in the car, we just drove to the nearest hotel, her dad had secretly given me some money to take care of Shan. He's not a bad guy, just afraid. Too big to admit it though. As Shannon and I got up to our room, she got changed and got in the bed, I did the same and she instantly cuddled into me. "I love you baby, it's all gonna be okay" I whisper into her ear. She looks up and gently kisses me "I love you too, Cam." She rested her head on my chest and fell into a deep sleep. I knew her dad was a good man, he just needed to realise Shannon would be okay, also that I would always stay by her side.

***NextMorning//Shannon's POV***

"Hey cam" I nudged cam and as she woke up, I kissed her and handed her the Starbucks I bought. "Morning babe"
"Hey.. I just wanted to say thank you.. For everything.. It means a lot to me.."
"That's okay, princess."
"I'm just gonna go write a letter.. To my dad.. And explain things properly, I can't face him face to face."
"Okay baby.."
I went and sat down at my desk and wrote the letter
"Dad,
You are right, I haven't been talking much lately. It's not because I have nothing to say or because I don't want to talk to you. It's because the one thing I really want to talk to and tell you about is impossible for me to say. I don't know why it's been so hard. I guess because I have kept it a secret so long. I just don't ever want to disappoint you or let you down. I know that you will love me no matter what but whenever the opportunity presents itself and I have the perfect opening to say it, it's like my throat closes up, my brain shuts down, and this wall goes up. I really wanted to tell you to your face with some pride but I'm running out of time and I don't feel like I've gotten any closer to telling you. So I'm writing this instead. There are a lot of characteristics and qualities that make me me, and one of the many is that I'm gay. It's not some phase, I'm not just experimenting. It's the real deal and it isn't going to change as much as I wanted it to for a long time. I tried to be all the things I thought I should be. I tried really hard to be like "everyone else." I refused to accept it, I hated myself for it. I hated God for making me this way. Living like that, with all that hate in my heart and all that pain, was exhausting. I can't pretend anymore. I know my life will be hard, that some people will hate me without even knowing me, that some people won't respect me, that I'll lose a lot of friends. As long as I have mom and Casey and you I think I'll be okay.
Nothing's changed. I'm still me, everything I was before. I hope you know that.
I love you."
I finished the letter and walked over to my house, Cam offered to drive me but I needed the air.. I braced myself and posted the letter.. I ran as fast as I can to the hotel, trying to get away.. Scared of the fear. When I got back, I showered and then checked my phone.. Nothing. Cam and I decided to watch a movie.. Horror of course. I was so scared. It was half way through when I felt my phone buzz.. I looked at the screen, my heart beating.. I had a bad feeling in my gut. "1 new message from: Dad💚." I felt my eyes well up.. No matter how many horror films I had watched, not one of them beat the fear I was feeling right now. I opened the message.. I could feel Cam's eyes burning into me.. Anticipating the message. "Shan, please come home.. We need to talk properly. I read your letter, sweetie.. I love you too okay. I want to know you're safe. Please come back soon.. You and cammie.. X."

-Another chapter! What do you guys want to happen? Also.. That letter was Shannon's real letter to her Dad! So well written I wanted to include it :)
-Mel💜