Love has never felt like this

Chapter 19!

***Shannon'sPoV***
I woke up, my head was pounding from all the drinks I had last night. For half a second I was almost expecting Cammie to be right there beside me, until I remembered everything that happened and how I ended it with her. My words were harsh and I know that, but Cammie needed to hear it like that. I know somethings not right, I know that there's something she isn't telling me, something that's affecting her. But maybe now she's heard how I feel she'll open up more. It's gonna take a lot for me to forgive Cammie but I don't want it to be over completely. I'm so in love with her, and I know she's the girl I want to marry. Even if she was a huge asshole to me yesterday. I got up and hopped in the shower, I was in there at least an hour.. You see the shower is just my thinking place. I can't help it, whenever I'm in there long I usually have something on my mind, needless to say the thing I was worrying over was a very big thing.. Whether or not I would be marrying Camden. I got dried and then started to work on my hair, another 2 hour process. By the time I'm done its 3pm. I check my phone. Still nothing from Cam, only a few messages from my mom. I click on the contact name "Deb-Bev" something I'd changed last night whilst drunk, I called my mom and she picked up on the second time of it ringing.
"Shannon! How are you! How's Hawaii?"
"Umm.. Not so good, I broke up with Cammie last night.. I think.."
"What! Why!"
"Ever since I proposed she's been being an asshole to me! I didn't want to break up with her but it seemed like it knocked some sense into her. Cam and I haven't talked properly in ages maybe now we can finally get back to how we were"
"I can tell you both love each other so much, just make up with Cammie yeah.. Make sure you do cause she's the only one that can make you happy.."
"I know mom, I will when she actually talks to me"
"Okay sweetie, I have to go to work now. We'll speak later, Shan. Love you."
"Love you too mom"
With that I cut off the phone and laid back down on the bed. I gradually felt my eyes getting heavier and heavier and I fell asleep within minutes.

***Cammie'sPoV***

It's 4PM here in Hawaii, after last nights commotion I had only just woke up. I smelt like beer and sick, after Shannon left me last night I threw up so many times at the thought of losing her and not being able to marry her. I hopped in the shower and got dressed, not making an effort. Just putting on a pair of Shannon's blue sweatpants and her maroon jersey, I don't even bother with my makeup. I put my hair into a messy bun and slip on my black converse. I look in the mirror at myself, I haven't looked this rough in ages but without Shannon, I have no one to impress. I have to sort things out and I won't stop until I do. I don't know how I'm going to get Shannon's forgiveness though. I walk out of the room that acted as my bedroom for the next two weeks, and greeted my parents, along with Lee and Amy. I need to find my phone so that I can phone Shannon and find out where she's staying. It's definitely not in my room.
"Hey guys, has anybody seen my phone?" I say, my voice raspy from not speaking in over 13 hours.
"Oh.. It fell out of your pocket last night, it smashed and won't turn on, Cam.." My dad says.
"NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! THIS CANNOT BE HAPPING!" I shout.
"Camden, calm down.." My dad says gently.
"NO DAD! I HAVE TO SPEAK TO SHANNON, SHE SAID THAT IF I DON'T PHONE HER WITHIN THE WEEK THEN SHE KNOWS ITS OVER FOR GOOD. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE SHES STAYING I.. I CANT LET IT BE OVER I'LL SEARCH EVERY HOTEL IN THIS PLACE IF I HAVE TO!"
"Woah Cam's calm down" he hugs me.
"I saw, Shannon last night. She gave me her address because I told her about your phone.. Come on, we'll drop you off outside whilst we go to the beach.. Okay?"
I nod and wipe away my tears, walking outside. My dad leads me to a tall building.. The sign saying the name and that's when I realised Shannon must have been staying here.
"Room 48, Cam.. Floor 1.. Be safe okay, and make up with Shannon and bring her to the beach after okay.." My dads voice breaks me from my thoughts. My mom and dad both kiss my cheek and then walk away to the beach. I rub my hands against my thighs, in an attempt to relieve the clamminess. I push open the door and make my way to the stairs. I look to the left and see the side that Shannon's room should be on, I walk further down and to my right I see the door with the number 48 on. I take some time, standing outside the door taking deep breaths.. I gently tap on the door, no reply.. There's no spy hole so I know she doesn't know it's me. I knock again, louder this time and I hear footsteps. Shannon opens the door and her jaw drops, she clearly wasn't expecting to see me. "Surprise?" I say hesitantly
"Hey.." She whispers back, the awkward silence lingering.
"Can I come in? We need to talk properly.."
"Sure.." She moves from the door, allowing me to enter and she closes it behind me. I sit on the bed, and pat the space next to me, telling her to come and sit. She sits down and puts her head down, barely able to look me in the eye, but I can't blame her.
"Okay.. So.. Just let me talk.. No interruptions okay.."
She nods in response.
"So.. I didn't realise until.. Until I lost you how much of a bitch I was being to you. I knew I was being harsh but I didn't realise what a fucking asshole I had been. I'm so in love with you, Shannon. Honestly, I know there's no excuse for how I treated you and I'm never going to say anything to try and excuse how I behaved. I've been such a mess these past couple of months.. They've been the best because well you proposed.. And now I get to wear this beautiful ring.." I play with the ring on my finger, smiling as I look at it..
"But.. It's also been some of the worst because.. Of all the stress that comes with planning the wedding but also.. B.. Because.." I sniff and see Shannon look up at me, her face softening when she saw the tears spilling down my face. She reaches across and grabs my hand..
"Because what, Cam?" She says gently.
"Because my grandma is dying Shan.. I wanted to tell you for so long but every time I tried to tell you, I couldn't find the words.. I couldn't believe it was true, I didn't want it to be true. She's so sick Shannon, I don't know what I'm gonna do without her, she's been my rock." I sob profusely, and feel myself instantly engulfed in warm arms, I feel a kiss to my temple as she leans back, staring into my eyes. "I'm sorry that I let it affect us, Shannon.. I swear it will never ever happen again because.. It's hard losing my grandma but to lose you.. I don't think I could go on.. I'm so fucking sorry that I led you to wonder if I wanted to marry you still.. I did.. Heck I still do.. If.. If you'll take me back after being such a dick?"
"Of course I will baby.. Of course I will.. It's gonna take some time to work our way back to how we were though.. But you have to promise me you'll talk to me about these things in the future, Cam.. Because the result is this and honestly, it's been a day and look at me.. I'm a wreck without you.." We both gently giggle. Shan wipes away my tears and we fall back on the bed, still in each other's embrace. She softly kisses my lips. "Hey Shan.. My parents kinda told me that as soon as I make up with you, we have to go to the beach and find them.." Shan laughs at this.
"Sure lets go then" she says getting off the bed and changing into her bikini.
"Oh.."
"What?"
"My bikini is at home"
Shan's response to this was throwing a bikini at me.
"Thanks" I laughed and began to change with her. We both slipped on a pair of shorts and a top over our bikini's and began to leave the hotel. As we were walking down the stairs, Shannon grabbed my hand, and without warning I felt the oh so familiar butterflies stir in my stomach. I smiled at Shannon and she smiled back too. We were walking along the seafront when Shannon unexpectedly pulled me into a shop, I looked around and saw a whole bunch of phones.
"Shannon, are you delusional, this isn't the beach" I giggled.
"I know, silly, I'm buying you a new phone.. Since it's kinda my fault you're one got broken.."
"Woah no way, it was my fault Shannon don't you dare blame yourself."
"Well either way I'm buying you a phone." She kissed my nose and spoke to the cashier about my new phone. Within half an hour we were out of the shop and I was now the owner of a brand new iPhone 6s. Shannon got insurance and a case for it too. She's such a sweet girl, and beautiful, and funny, and kind.. And just.. Perfect. As we cross the road, Shannon runs over to an ice cream van and orders an ice cream, it looked super nice so when Shannon was least suspecting, I licked her ice cream. She looked at me with disgust but soon just cracked up laughing. We walked hand in hand to where my parents said they'd be, both of us licking the ice cream and chatting, just like the good old days. We finally found my parents and sat down with them.
"Woohoo look it's the happy couple" Lee shouted and everybody broke out in hysterics. Although it was extremely hot out, when Shannon and I had stripped ourselves down to our bikinis, I cuddled into her straight away, and she cuddled back. I didn't care how hot it was. I wanted to be close to her.
"I love you so much, fiancée" she whispered in my ear.
"I love you more, fiancée" I whispered back. With this she jumped up, pulling me with her, she put my on her shoulder and began walking towards the water.
"Shannon! No! I swear to god if you throw me in that water! Please don't! Shannon!" I squealed. The water was already up to her waist but she continued walking, the next thing I know, I'm deep underwater. She threw me in the bitch. I resurfaced and gave Shannon a look of despair..
"I can't believe you just threw me in the ocean against my will!" I exasperated.
She couldn't stop laughing.
"I'm.. Sorry.. But you should've.. Seen your face.." She says between laughter. Oh I'm gonna get you back, Shannon Beveridge.. I thought to myself. I walked up to her, wrapping my arms gently around her waist, I feel her lazily rest her arms upon my shoulders. I lean in and kiss her slowly and gently, but also making sure to reignite the passion and sparks between us. She let out a slight moan, and now was the perfect opportunity. I broke the kiss and straight away lifted Shannon from the ground, throwing her to the ocean beside me. She resurfaced and began laughing hysterically again.. Her laughter becoming contagious I join in. With this, she grabs my hands and pulls me down with her, and I land on top of her, both of us floating, we laughed and then she kissed me, with even more passion than before.
"Hey wanna try something crazy?"
"What's that, baby?"
"Wanna make love in the ocean?" She grins.. I slowly ponder on it, but the more I do.. I feel a grin appear on my face and find myself biting my lip, nodding in response.

-so another chapter, potential smut in the next, yes or no? Comment and vote :)