Only Mine

Chapter 19: I Can't Do It to You

I had to find you. Tell you I need you. Tell you I set you apart.~ The Scientist by Coldplay.
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I change into a t-shirt Blake gives me and climb into bed. He comes later and strips to only his black boxers. He lays beside me and wraps his arms around my waist. He rests his head on my stomach and I run my fingers through his hair. "My mom's been trying to push me marking you." He says. "She asked me why you haven't marked me," I reply and he looks up at me. "My dad thinks that you keep refusing me." He says. "Your mom thinks that you're just refusing to follow your pack's mating tradition." I say and he closes his eyes. "I just... I don't want to hurt you in any way. What if I bite down in the wrong spot and you bleed too much?" He says and I continue to play with his hair. "You won't. Your instincts will help you." I say softly and he sighs. "I don't know. It's my fear of hurting you that's stopping me." He says and I run my fingers through his hair. "You won't. I've been marked before." I say and he stiffens. "By Tyler?" He growls possessively and I look up at the ceiling. "No, not by him. I was marked by my dead mate Kyle." I answer and he looks at me. The anger he held in his eyes was fading to sorrow. "I'm sorry for your loss." He says and I blink back the tears that were threatening to spill. "But I was marked by him and it didn't hurt." I continue and he looks out the window. "I'm waiting until you're ready. I'm not going to mark you because everyone wants me to. I know now isn't a good time. We barely met three days ago, and I'm already sleeping with you." He starts rambling and I slowly move down until I am face to face with him. "Blake." I say and he looks at me. "If I didn't want you sleeping with me, you wouldn't be." I say and I lean closer. I rest my hand against his cheek and he leans into my touch. "I can't say I love you yet," I start and his face falls. "But you can make me fall in love with you." I say and he presses his forehead to mine. I feel my eyes beginning to close in expectation. I know what's going to come. The moment our lips make contact, I can feel it. Blake was putting everything he feels behind his kiss. I mold myself against him and he growls into the kiss. He nips my bottom lip and I pull away. I lean my forehead against his and give him a small smile. "Good night." He says and presses a kiss to my nose. I really wanted another kiss but I instead curl into him.

I wake up blinking against the shining sun. I stretch out and I hear a low groan. I try to sit up but an arm keeps me locked down. I just turn around and settle against his chest again and he wraps his other arm around my back. I press my nose into his neck and inhale his scent. My hands grip to his back and I press myself closer to him. He moves in his sleep and his knee comes up in between my legs. A sudden muscle clenching feeling from where his knee brushes against my hot and very sensitive center is an unfamiliar feeling and it scares me. Not even my past heats matched this feeling.
Before I realize it, I am grinding against his leg, trying to relieve the strange feeling from my body. I close my eyes and bite down on my lip while moving. I feel waves of ecstasy running throughout my body and I tremble. This doesn't feel like anything I've experienced before, and I kinda liked it.

My fingers make their way to my neck and I almost moan out loud when I touch the spot in the curve of my neck. I stop and meet Blake's open eyes. "Y-you marked me." I say and he instantly sits up. "I couldn't stop myself. My wolf took over last night and he demanded I mark you." He says hurriedly and I kiss him to shut him up. "Blake, I asked because I was confused as to why I was doing what I was doing." I say and I blush lightly. "You're going into your heat." He says after he sniffs. I nod and he sits me in his lap. His head goes straight to my neck where my mark is. He flicks his tongue against the mark and I move my head to allow him more access. I feel sharp teeth nip at the skin and I gasp. He runs his nose across the skin and it goose bumps at his touch.

A knock at the door makes his head snap up. "Blake, Alexa, breakfast is ready." Calla says. "We'll be right there, Mom." Blake answers and I hear Lily walk away. I look at Blake and he licks my mark once more before getting up. I go to my bag and take out black jeans that are ripped at the knee, and my white Black Sabbath tank top. I go into the bathroom and turn the water on. I undress and step under the cold water. I scrub myself clean and use a towel to clean around my mark. I yelp in pain when I touch the mark with the towel. Blake opens the shower door and turns the water off. He wraps a towel around me and he kisses the mark gently. I tremble at the pain and I see in his eyes he is also feeling the pain. "I'm so sorry, Alexa. I shouldn't have marked you." He says quietly and I look at him. "Don't be sorry. It's just that, when you get marked by your mate, it hurts for a couple of hours after the initial bite." I say and he kisses my cheek. "I'll be waiting right outside the door if you need me, okay?" He asks softly and I nod. He rises and goes into the bedroom. I dress slowly and add mascara and lipstick. I tie my shoes and walk out.
Blake sits up and holds his hand out. I place it in his and he leads me down the stairs and to the dining room.

Once we walk in, Calla stands up and presses her cheek to the both of us. "Good morning, Alexa, Blake." She says and I smile back. "Good morning Calla, David." I say with small nods. "Morning." David responds. "Sit, sit." Calla says and Blake sits me down. He sits next to me and I can feel his wolf is at the surface. I know the scent of his father was driving him nuts. We haven't finished our bonding yet and it still made me fair game to any male. And Blake was hating it.

A man and woman come and they place plates in front of us. Blake snaps at the man when he accidentally brushes against me. David snarls and Blake growls lowly. I place my hand over his and he slowly begins to relax. David and Calla look at each other then at me. "So I see it happened..." Calla says as she sips on her tea. "What?" Blake grumbles and I squeeze his hand. "You marked her." She says and I look down at my plate. "Yeah. I did." Blake says and David nods. "When will I be expecting grandchildren?" Calla asks and I almost choke on my coffee. "Not anytime soon, Mom." Blake answers and I nod vigorously. Blake's hand is rubbing my back as I try to catch my breath. "Lily, they're still young. Give them a few years to get used to each other. We're not that old, we can wait for grandchildren." David says and he runs his thumb over Calla's hand. I take sips from my coffee for the rest of breakfast. Blake and I do the dishes, despite the couple telling us not to.
"I think it would be best if we stay at my house while you ride out your heat." Blake says and I look down at my hands. "Is that okay?" He asks and I look at him. "I guess." I say and he runs his hand through his hair. "I'm doing it because we get a lot of unmated males coming here and I can't risk that..." he trails off and I know what he meant. "I know, Blake. I understand." I say and he pulls me into his arms.

I know that the possessive Alpha in him is beginning to show and it might result in the death of a few males.