A Moment Too Soon (Yaoi boyxboy)

Nowaki

I had gotten choked up when he smiled, and had to leave again...but this time I fought back my emotions with all the strength I had. I had succeeded, which made me feel a little better about today. I wasn't sure if I would be able to use that much strength all day, but I would fight as hard as I could. Maybe the more that I worked at it, the easier it would be.

Maybe I could start looking for differences instead of similarities between them. That would make it a whole lot easier if I could recognize him as an entirely different person. I would have to start working on that...otherwise I would struggle to be around him. I shoved my hands in my pockets as I ran over what he had said in my mind.

...I was worried about you...

He was worried? I just met this kid and he was already worried for me? Either I look much, much worse than I think, or he was just a caring person. Maybe it was a little bit of both. Either way, it did surprise me a bit. Most people would have just left my problems to me. Honestly, I didn't really want people in my business anyways, but he wasn't exactly up in my face about it. He was worried from a distance, I suppose.

It made me feel kind of nice that he was honest, and not in an irritating way like my friends or my Mom. I knew they were only trying to show me that they cared, but they were always pressing me for answers when I looked upset...he was gentle about it by just casually letting me know. I wished the others would do that rather than what they did all the time. When I entered the classroom, I headed straight for my desk.

It didn't take very long for my friends to surround me and start chittering about things I didn't want to listen to. I tried to stand it for a couple of minutes, but I realized that if I going to have the energy for the whole day, I would have to cut things like this out for a while first. I looked up at them, and tried my best to ask them to leave kindly.

"Hey guys? Could you maybe just let me have some space, please?" They looked down at me for a brief moment, but then smiled at me and nodded. They stepped away and talked on the other side of the room. I watched as Yuuichi entered the room and joined them. He gave me a small smile before joining them. He knew I didn't want to be bothered. He was pretty good at reading people.

At some point, class started, and about two hours in, I started to feel annoyed. I was trying my best to ignore the annoyance creeping up on me, but it was getting more and more difficult as the teacher droned on. I didn't want to just tune him out and go off in my own world, because then my thoughts would wander, and I didn't think letting them wander was a good idea. Then I came up with a brilliant idea.

I scanned the room and my eyes finally caught sight of Yuuichi. I stared at him for a long moment. To start, his hair was a lot darker than Kida's. His was a dark brown, and Kida's was just plain brown. Another thing I remembered was that Yuuichi had green eyes, where Kida's were blue. I must have been staring at him pretty intensely, because he glanced over at me with an odd look on his face.

I looked away from him as I continued to pick out their differences. While him and Kida both had an innocent look to them, Yuuichi's was more of a pure-heart type of innocence. Kida was like...like a child, in a way. Their height was similar, but I noticed while apologizing that he was actually a little taller than Kida was.

Their personalities were what set them apart the most. He was shy, but confident when he needed to be. That was obvious...but Kida was scared nearly one hundred percent of the time. Kida was afraid to speak, but Yuuichi could talk for his own reasons. I had realized that yesterday when he had broken the silence that was lingering in the air after everyone else left.

I wondered why he stayed behind...surely he would have been more comfortable going with Elisa and them...I wasn't exactly great company, especially yesterday. Was it possible that he didn't want me to feel left behind, even though I was the one who chose to stay? Strange...it was just like when he told me he had been worried...he was worrying about me, but not making it obvious to keep from annoying me.

I liked that. Maybe it wouldn't be too hard to get used to him after all.