A Moment Too Soon (Yaoi boyxboy)

Nowaki

I laughed. I laughed, and I kept laughing. I was laughing so much that Yuuichi looked confused, and worried. It only make me laugh more. I hadn't laughed in a long time. I wasn't sure why I was, but I just suddenly felt like I could. When I had told him, more weight had lifted from me with every word. I felt so much lighter.

Eventually, my laughter faded away, but I was by no means in a bad mood. I felt so much better right now than I had since Kida had passed. During our talk, I had gotten Kida's letter out and showed him. It was in my hands now, but I didn't open it. It stayed in the envelope. I looked down at it, and then up at Yuuichi. As I looked into his eyes, which were glossed with tears, I knew that I had to stop.

This kid was sitting on my floor, crying with me over something that had nothing to do with him. He was comforting me, listening to me...he was here for me. It was heart-lifting to see his face, and to be around him. For him, I decided, I was going to stop letting Kida's death take over my life. I wasn't sure what had brought me to that decision, but I knew it was a good one.

"Do you want to help me?" I asked Yuuichi. He gave me a confused look, and then nodded, despite not being sure of what I was talking about. I stood, taking his hand in mine and pulling him along. I grabbed a metal box, and then together him and I ran out the door. We ran, and ran, and ran all the way to my secret area where Kida and I had our first kiss.

When we got there, I chose a spot and started digging a deep hole with the garden shovel I grabbed on the way out. After some time and taking turns, Yuuichi and I had dug a deep hole. I took the letter from my pocket, and set the box on the ground, open. I took Kida's letter out of the envelope for what would be the last time, and I looked at his last few words.

Nowaki, don't forget me...but please don't remember me.

Love, Kida.

Don't worry, Kida...I would never forget you...but I won't remember you painfully anymore. I placed the letter in the box, and then started to close it. Yuuichi stopped me.

"Wait...I don't know if you want to put these in there but...here." He held out his hand and dropped it's contents into my palm. They were the two little cars Kida and I had used. I felt tears well in my eyes as I looked at them, but they weren't sad tears this time. This time, I was looking back and smiling. My tears were from remembering it as a happy memory. I nodded and placed them inside with the letter, then shut it. I locked it, then placed it into the hole.

We buried it up good, and then pressed the dirt down so that it wouldn't blow away. When we were finished, we both stood up, covered in dust and some grass. Neither of us minded though. I watched as Yuuichi put his hands together, and then said a little prayer in his head. It brought a smile to my face. When he opened his eyes, he saw me smiling and smiled back.

"Yuuichi..." I said his name, and he stood, waiting. I reached out to him, and grabbed his hand. He seemed a little surprised when I pulled him forward. I didn't know if he would accept it. I didn't know if he would hit me, or push me away, but I didn't try to stop myself. I placed one, simple kiss on his lips and then pulled away, smiling "Thank you."

There was a slight pause before I watched a smile spread across his own face happily. He nodded as tears welled in his eyes again. I let out another soft laugh, and he sniffed, wiping his tears away. I looked at the ground where they box lay beneath for a moment, and then turned my body away, still holding Yuuichi's hand.

"Let's go home."