The Other Half of Me (In major editing!)

CHAPTER 17

CHAPTER 17



***Marcel's POV***



I have been going through all the possible thinks John has to tell me. I hope its not that I'm going to steal your girlfriend and get her pregnant. I cringe at the thoughts and Kristen walks into my room.

"Hey baby. Are you ok?"

"Yeah. I'm just think about what John has to say to me. I mean its driving me crazy." I say and put my hands through my hair.

"Hey listen to me. Whatever it is can't be that bad. If he says he's going to steal me, I doubt that will happen. I mean 'I love you' I couldn't love another. You have stolen my heart and when your ready please return it." She says. I laugh at her little joke. She is sitting on my lap and has my face between her hands. I feel so safe in this position. Nothing can hurt either of us.

"I will keep it forever. I won't return it, I was thinking of getting a heart transplant and putting yours where mine is." We laugh at my corny little joke. I laid down and Kristen did the same.

"I'm glad he is going to jail."

"Me too, I thought we were going to get sued for all of it. I didn't want that to happen. I would have gone to jail Kristen, that doesn't look good on a college application. Plu-"

"Marcel breath. You can't keep going on like this, I understand you were nervous. God so was I,  I didn't want you or anyone to go to jail, that I loved. I do admit I did like him, I thought I loved him when we were dating. I found out once I ran into you that it was just a crush. I love you and only you, if you keep stressing like that you will lose all your hair by your thirties. You think I would want to marry a bald guy?"

We laugh at her little joke while consulting me. I'm glad she is trying to comfort me in the most sweetest way. I don't know where I would be if I didn't have her here with me.

" You will be getting beaten up by John and no one will care for you. Only your sister Gemma and your mother wouldn't know and you will be in here crying cause no one loves you. You will get sucidcal thoughts and probably do the worst damage and cut yourself yet again. Until you are tired of that and commit suicide." 

My self-consicous tells me. I hate it right now for reminding of all that. I hate that it tells me thinks like this.

"I love you Kristen so much."

"I love you Marcel more than you love me."

"I highly doubt that. No one could love you more than I love you. I love you to the moon and back infinity times."

"I love you so much that even infinity is not enough for saying how much I love you." We laugh and lay on my bed. I get under the covers and she does the same. We lay here in silence for a while. The peaceful silence that ensures everyone that everything is ok. This girl makes me crazy but, its a good crazy the one that shows that I'm crazy for a girl.

"What are you thinking about Marcel in that big head of yours?"

"I'm thinking of us. How wonderful we are. And how nothing coulf change that. I want to die with you by my side, I almost cried when I thought I didn't have you anymore, when you ran away. I cried when we were looking for you."

I sit up and look at her, she also sits up with me and looks at me. She has a gloss over her eyes, I know she is on the verge of tears. I don't want to make her cry I want to show her how much I love her. I wouldn't be here after she helped me and let me help her. I couldn't her walk away knowing she didn't love me.

"Marcel I love you, I ran away cause the food reminded me of my mother.The last time I had it was the day before she died. I stayed away from it cause it caused so much pain. My aunt tried to make me eat it. I put a small portion in my mouth and forced myself to throw it up. I loved it so much and we ate it cause we bothed loved it. I told myself it was poison for so long I believed it was. And than I came here and your mother made it for me. I knew what it was I didn't want to believe myself, I didn't want to know that I was eating that. I loved it I went to the park and tried to vomit. I wanted to I couldn't do anything but think it will kill me and I need to hurry up and vomit it up. I didn't cause Niall came and started to talk to me." 

She tells me full on crying. I pull her into me and she places her face in the crook of my neck and she continues to cries. I rub her back trying to sooth her. It works I feel her breathing starting to slow down and it steadies. 

"Are you feeling better?"

No response. Did she fall asleep.

"Kristen you awake?"

I look at her and I see she is asleep. I didn't know I could put her to sleep like that. I lay her down and pull the covers over her, I lay down myself and brings the covers up. I wrap my arm around her waist and pull her into my body. I soon fall asleep myself letting my slumber take over. I dream of us in a happy place and everything is perfect. She is perfect, and she is making me perfect but, I know I'll miss it by a long shot.

I wake up to my phone vibrating on my nightstand. Who in the world would be calling at 2 in the morning.

"Hello?" I say and my voice is raspy, god I really am not a morning person.

"Marcel? Are you alone?" Who is this. Their voice sounds weak and raspier than mine. Who ever it is has probably smokin' 3 packs of smokes.

"Who is this? And yes I'm alone." Why am I telling this stranger I'm alone probably so they could come and murder me in my sleep.

"Its me John. I was calling you to tell you what I wanted to tell you. Marcel I'm gay."

"John thats impossible, you have hooked up with so many girls and have had sex with everyone of them."

"I know but, that is protect myself from being made fun of. I haven't told anyone."

"Than why are you telling me?"

"I'm telling you cause I'm......in love with you."