The Other Half of Me (In major editing!)

CHAPTER 26

CHAPTER 26

***Kristen's POV***

I have been in this hospital bed for three days now. I am tired of it, my phone butt is killing me. I want really want to get out of here. I don't understand how people can be bed written. I couldn't handle it. I wish Marcel wouldn't send me to rehab, I mean yeah I would be with him but, I would rather go to school. People already think I'm crazy cause I cut, but going to rehab won't be the highlight of my week. I want to actually get somewhere with my life. Marcel for sure is going to go to college and get to be whatever he wanted. Me on the other hand, I have to work my butt off to get the grades for college, I couldn't be like Marcel. I couldn't focus so hard on one thing, I wish I could. I was never good at school.

"Baby, I'm back from school." I paste a fake smile on my face.

"Thats good. How was it? What did I miss? Again." I whisper the last part. He probably couldn't hear it. I hate this room, rehab actually sounds better than being in this bed.

"It was fine. Some people were asking about you. They wanted to make sure that you were ok. I told them that you are doing great. I didn't bring up rehab. Unless you want me too."

"No its fine. Thanks for telling them that I was doing great." Sadly your not. My self-consinuos tells me. I know she is right but, I want to know on the outside that I'm doing better. What is wrong with me. Am I bipolar. I doubt that, its feels like I'm missing something in this world. I don't know what but, it feels like I have been missing it for a while.

"Baby are you ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine. I just feel like I'm missing something I can't figure it out though."

"Oh. Do you think I could help you?"

"Yeah if you helped it would probably help me figure it out. I want you to ask me questions and I'll think if its that."

"Is it the hospital?"

"No."

"My house."

"No. I miss that place but, no."

"Um is it your........family."

"Um yeah it has something to do with them."

"Your dad."

"I doubt it. I lost all feelings with him. I don't care about him anymore."

"Your brother."

"I miss him so much. I wish I could find him. Thats not it though."

"Your um mum."

"Yes its.....its.....its......oh my I forgot that today is the day she died. I'm such a terrible daughter. I hate that I forgot, how could I be so stupid. I need to get out of here. Like now. I need to go home, I need a to get my picture of her. I can't forget her." I feel tears prick at my eyes. I can't believe I forgot.

"I don't think I could demand them to let you out. I could ask though."

"Please I need to go and say things to her. I can't just sit here and not say anything. I want the doctor to come over here this instant. I am being released if I'm better or not."

"Ok. I will go and get the doctor." Marcel walked out and I knew he didn't like me being so demanding but, I am about to miss the most important thing I could ever miss. I wedding day is ranked below this day.

"Hello Miss. Calim, I hear that you want to leave. Why so?"

"Today is the day my mother died. I have never missed it, I don't plan on missing it since I'm in the hospital. I am better, I don't feel sick in any way. I was promised from the nurse that I could leave when I please."

"Well you are right. I are better, today is the day we were going to clear you. I guess you are free to go. I will get papers for you to sign, so you may change and be on your way."

"Thank you."

I get out of the bed and head for a bag on the floor. I grab it and go to the restroom. I change from my clothes and put on the ones in the bag. Its my gray shirt with the band name ' My Chemical Romance' I change into my black jeans and put my half boots on. I come out of the bathroom and see Marcel signing some papers. I walk over to him and look at them. I see the titile of the paper.

It causes me to step back. I didn't think it would come to this. I am not ready to leave. I can't do it. I don't want to go just yet. I need to say good-bye to Anne. I can't just leave. I drop the bag and start to take off running. I can't go just yet.

"KRISTEN!!!!" I hear Marcel call my name multiple times. I can't do this. I can't just let him take me away now. I don't want to leave, I just told him I need to get a picture and see my mom.

"KRISTEN COME BACK!!!!" I don't stop. I keep running, I run all the way back to his house. Thank god I did track before I moved here. It was a liitle over a mile run. I went into the guest room and grabbed my bag. I opened it up and talk a photo album out. I turn to the sixth page. I don't plan on going back to America. I need to leave there. Too many things taunting me. I left for a good reason, I didn't think of this problem I can't go back and visit her. I need to except that. I take my picture out. I close my photo album and get back up and head out of the house once again.

I notice a car coming and I take off in the opposite direction. I don't plan on talking to Marcel at this point. I see a park that has almost no one at it. I run there and sit on the grass. I look at the picture. It has my mom and me in it. It used to have my dad and brother, but my dad blamed me, and my brother never bothered to look for me. I can't trust them. I am a independent girl. I don't need anyone, I look at the picture and cry. I cry so hard.

"I'm sorry mommy. Its my fault that you aren't with me. All of this crap is my fault. I never meant for that to happen. I have wanted to switch places with you once I finally understood everything. I don't want to miss you the way that I do. I wanted you to be at my wedding. I can't do that now, I wanted you to see your wonderful grand children, you can't do that. I wanted you to approve of my boyfriends to tell me what is right and wrong, I can't ever have the mother daughter relationship. I hate that I can't tell you I love you all the time, I don't want to miss you like this. I want to miss when I go to school and know your home waiting for me to return, I don't want to be like this. I want to sleep with you when I have a bad dream. I'm so sorry mommy."

"Baby, its ok. Its not your fault. Its your fathers. I will always be with you, even when you think I'm gone I'm not. I need you to listen to me though."

I look around to see if this a terrible prank. I don't see anyone there is no one in sight.

"What? Mommy is that really you?"

"Yes now listne to me. Please I need you to listen."

"Ok mommy what is it?"

"Your father and James are looking for you. Your dad sent him to kill you. He didn't do it right and now they are going to try and kill you together."

"Mommy I can't hide from them alone. I need your help. Please help me."

"I can't trust Marcel baby. He is the right boy for you, trust him. He is looking for Luke just stay with Marcel."

"No mommy he hurt me. I need you."

"Go with him. I love you baby. Bye."

"No mommy come back please. I love you mommy. I will always love you."

I sit there for a while longer. I don't get another comment from her. I need to know what she is talking about.

"Kristen." I hear a voice whisper into my ear and I freeze in terror.

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