She | Phan

T E N

Dan p.o.v

Phil didn't stop at just one night of getting drunk.

No. Not at all.

Now almost every night he comes home drunk sometimes bringing home some random slut he met at a bar.

I've had to make a video telling his subscribers he would be away for a while. I've had to film gaming videos by myself. Nothing is fine anymore.

Phil is not amazing Phil anymore. Hes not the sweet innocent beautiful man he used to be.

Now he dirty and always drunk or hungover. He doesn't care about me or anyone else. Both of our lives are falling apart.

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Phil p.o.v

One night I decided I would get my mind off of dan by going to a club and meeting new people and drinking and being happy for once. Now every night I decide to do that.

I feel as if my life is crumbling I feel so sad and afraid but the alcohol helps. I can get away from it all. When I'm drunk I can forget.

Me and Dan don't really even speak anymore. But that's good for me I cant fall in love with someone I have little contact with right. So that's where they come in.

They being the girls I bring home. Maybe I'll fall in love with one of them. I haven't yet. But I know someday I'll see that I dont need dan any more and I'll have a nice girl to love.

Dan p.o.v

He hasn't been speaking to me. When. He does he just yells. I'm so alone.

Chris and PJ have taken me in as more of a housemate than just a friend now. I go over to their flat all the time.

Tonight was a particularly bad night though.

Phil decided that just one girl wouldn't satisfy him. He decided to bring home 3. All clinging to his arms murmuring seductive things. I don't even want to know what they're gonna do. The thing that hurt me most though was that the moment Phil walked in i was sat on the couch and he yelled at me.

"Dan get out no one needs you here. Ill never need you just go away and leave us to it."

So I left. I took my prepacked bag that I had made for such a situation and left. I texted Chris and PJ and soon I was inside their flat drinking tea and sitting silently on the couch. They told me I needed to move away from Phil. They told me he was no longer Phil he was now a different person. I feel so alone without Phil. He doesn't care about me anymore I can't do it I'm so afraid.

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(1 week later)

I was leaving Chris and PJs and going back to the flat. Phil would probably be hung over or with a girl but I didn't care i needed to see him.

I arrived home and unlocked the door.
I walked upstairs and phil was putting his shoes on.

"Phil where are you going"

"Out. Why should you care?"

"Because you used to be my best friend now I don't even know you. Please stay and tell me why you keep going out and bringing people home. What's the point of it."

"Because I want to dan let me live a little."

"You've lived Phil. Almost every night you bring someone home. I'm sat in my room crying while you do things I don't even want to know about. Suddenly 'we' isn't even a word you use anymore. All you talk about is 'she'. She did this or she did that I'm going out with her. Why. When did you become this?"

Suddenly he burst into tears and ran off into his room. Oh great I've hurt him again. I hate myself so much why do I continue to hurt him.

I need a shower and I need sleep I'm exhausted.

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My shower didn't even help. I'm just covered in cuts now. Why am I such a horrible person. He looks at me like I disgust him and I hurt him all the time I hate myself. Cutting dosent even hurt anymore. I can't even feel the blade im so numb now. Pain isnt my biggest concern.

A/N this was a very short chapter but it included alot. I bet you weren't expecting most of that. And also I'm v excited because I'm getting the same duvet as Dan and I'm happy. Ok bye my crackers. 😘😘