She | Phan

S I X T E E N

A/N im sorry. That's all I'm gonna say.

Dans p.o.v

So he really doesn't love me at all. He never did and never will. I truly thought that maybe after all ive done for him he would care about me or at least stay. But he found somebody else.

Shes perfect

She's everything

Those were the only words that ran through my head as I laid on his bed staring at the wall.

I couldn't cry. I couldn't breathe or feel. I was numb.

This is not a movie with a stupid couple who breaks up and the boy cries then moves on. No. This is the end of a friendship that lasted years. Two people who saved each other so many times and cared for one another more than they had ever cared about anyone else. This hurts more than any broken relationship or friendship because I wouldn't be alive without Phil Lester.

Later I climbed out of bed and into the shower. This time I couldn't control myself anymore. Cuts ran up both my arms and each time I slid the blade across my skin I would say "he left he's found someone better."

I bandaged my cuts and put one of Phil's sweatshirts on and sat against the wall in his room.

Today was supposed to be the 5th anniversary of us living together. I'll have to tell all my subscribers he moved out. I already miss him I can't stand being without him anymore. I can't stand being the person everyone chooses second or dosent choose at all. I will never be the first choice or the love of anyone's life. I will never be truly happy with myself or my life.

This is probably the most selfish course of action but I have to do it. I can't live anymore.

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Phil p.o.v

Dan dosent need me at all. I always loved him as a friend but never more than that so I need to leave him alone.

I'm going over to Sarahs house to tell her and hopefully she will be my girlfriend. I love Sarah not Dan. Dan isn't even my friend anymore he hates me. I could never really hate him but I have to leave him.

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I arrived at Sarah's flat an hour later. I told her about dan and she was very supportive and caring. I do love her.

Sarah P.o.v

I feel really bad for Phil I hope him and dan can at least be friends again. They're amazing people.

Phil came over and asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend and of course I said yes cause he's the most attractive, kind, beautiful person I know.

Phil and I are going out tonight and hes going to stay at my place until he can find someplace of his own near me.

I'm so glad he truly loves me. I love him too he makes me very happy.

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Dans p.o.v

I stood on the ledge blood flowing down my arms I was getting dizzy I have to jump. Last time I was up here I was saving Phil now I can't even save myself. I'm so afraid. But I need to go. I need to die.

That's when someone grabbed my arm and yanked me down. Then I blacked out.

A/N who saved him? Was it Phil? Was it Timmy the snake? Was it Esteban Julio Ricardo Montoya de la Rosa Ramirez? You'll know soon my crackers.