She | Phan

F I F T E E N

A/N warning this chapter is very sad and I hated writing it. Just letting you know.

Phil p.o.v

I'll admit I do feel pretty bad about leaving Dan but he would never approve of me drinking. I need a release I've been freaking out lately.

Sarah and I have been texting and meeting up. I haven't necessarily been cheating on dan ive just been talking to Sarah. She's very interesting and nice and pretty and makes me happy.

Dan dosent have to know and hasn't found out yet. I need a drink though. I can't get drunk or he will find out but I need something to take away these nerves and feelings for a bit. It can't do much harm can it?

Just one more.

Ok another won't hurt.

And another.

Just one more and then I'll stop.

Ok one more can't hurt anything.

I'll be ok with another.

Last one.

Before I knew it I was at some random girls house in her bed.

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I woke up in an unfamiliar room next to some random girl who I don't remember the name of.

What happened last night?

Ahhh my head hurts so much.

Well I know I got drunk but I can't remember anything else.

What even is her name?

I got up quietly and walked around picking up my clothes. I put them on and went into the kitchen.

Soon she woke up and walked awkwardly into the kitchen.

"I'm sorry but I don't remember your name. I bet you don't remember mine and I can't quite remember what happened last night either but I have a feeling we got drunk then rolled around the bed for a bit. Please just leave. I don't know who you are and I regret this and I know you do too. Please go."

"Yea I figured you'd want me to go. Listen I'm sorry. This was all my fault. We were drunk and didn't know what was going on I'm sorry."

I grabbed my stuff and walked out the door. I don't have a car and I have no idea how I got here. I'll have to either call dan or catch a bus. Bus it is.

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I caught a bus and soon I was at my apartment staring at the door not wanting to go in. Dans going to hate me. Well here goes nothing. I opened the door and walked up the stairs.

There sat dan on the couch with his head in his hands still wearing the clothes from yesterday. He just looked up at me with red eyes from crying.

He then ran up to me and hugged me so tightly I almost fell over.

"I want to be mad at you Phil. I really want to. In fact I'm so mad because I have no idea where you were and you just left me and didn't come back. I'm so angry but I love you too much to stay that way. What happened? Why did you leave me?"

I didn't have any excuse I couldn't say anything other than the truth.

"Dan. Please kiss me."

Without even questioning dan slammed his lips onto mine and we kissed for a while until we pulled apart for breath.

"So what was that for Phil?"

"Because i know you love me and after what I'm about to tell you, you won't love me any longer. Dan I left yesterday because I wanted to get a drink. I got a drink well like 10 and I left the bar with a girl. You probably know where that led. Im so sorry. I knew it was wrong. Also I've been talking to Sarah and I truly love her dan im sorry. I love her. I love you too but Sarah is perfect. She's everything I'm sorry but I have to go. I've hurt you too much to stay here I'm sorry dan."

He just stared at me wide eyed for a second then he spoke.

"Go. Get you're stuff and leave then. Get the fuck out of my apartment and never speak to me again. Yes I love you Phil but you don't give a shit about me. We're done. I never want to see you or talk to you again."

"Dan wait before you-"

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE DIDNT YOU HEAR ME GO AWAY."

I ran out of the lounge and into my room. I laid on my bed and sobbed. I can't stay here. I packed my stuff and ran out the door.

He hates me now. I can see why. But he's no longer my concern. I love Sarah. She loves me. Dan isn't mine anymore and it would have never worked anyway. I'm tired of him.

A/N I hated writing this chapter I'm sorry. This made me so sad. Phil would never act like that. Im sorry my crackers.