Rude - Grayson Dolan

12 - "touch me forever"

[a/n: please read the note at the end it is extremely important!]

Angela

"If you want to you sign here." He points to the end of the page which says Submissions Signature and I realise that he is the dominant, he has already signed it and listed the names he likes to be called, positions, his preferred kinks. My stomach my jittery as he passed me a pen and I looked up to him under my eyelashes, his jaw clenched and his long fingers laced between eachother. His suit adored every piece of him and I couldn't believe a man like him would want to commit such devilish acts.

"I want to read through it." My throat was dry when I said it and I soundly cowardly as if I was scared or nervous, I wasn't sure if I was.

"Of course, you can read in your bedroom. Shall I take you?" Grayson's lips turned into a smirk, he knows he has caught be off guard and he knows how much power he has over me.

"No. I'm sure I can make my way back." I stand, the thick pile of pages in my hand as I awkwardly pull down my dress. "Excuse me." I say before leaving him and I couldn't bare to turn around to look at him, to see that cocky face that I would love to press my lips agaisnt and stare at for days on end.

The walk back to the bedroom that I had changed in was long and I had made more than two miss turns before I have up and asked a maid to help me. I will refuse to leave this bedroom until I have sorted out was I was going to say, I'm sure my face was flushed the whole time after he had mentioned it.

Without changing I place the papers on the sinking bed and crawling to sit on it along side them. Before I open the booklet I inhale long breathe, not quite sure what I was going to get myself into if I say yes. When my thin fingers turn over the first page I see what Grayson had firstly shown me, where I must sign. I shudder at the thought of being held down the way Anastasia had been when I had gone to see the film in the cinema with friends. I didn't know if I liked the thought of it. Before I could mentally list the pros and cons of Grayson's offer the door opens and he stands tall in his suit, his tie undone and hangs loosely around his neck, a book in his hand.

"50 Shades Of Grey is bullshit and doesn't show the whole range of the BDSM community. I brought you SM 101 by Jay Wiseman, read it." He walks towards me as he grips the book in my hand and I nod understanding what he means, however I wonder if he can feel the same amount of tension that I am feeling right now.

"Thankyou." I take the book from him and as I watch him stalk away, his sleek body perfectly fitting his personality. I bit my cheeks to stop a smile from forming and I put the book down on the bed next to me, not bothering to read a single page. "I'll do it." I say in full confidence.

"Sorry?" Grayson asks, not hearing what I said properly as his hands often around the shiny doorknob even though the smirk that lingers on his face tells me he knows exactly what I said.

"I said I'll do it." I confirm and his tall self begins to walk towards me, his dark eyes looking down at me and I almost feel intimidated, however I stand up straight, keeping my head up and holding the gaze.

"Do what exactly, Angela?" He begins to tease and I feel embarssed, also slightly mortified as he starts to urge me to speak. "What do you want to do?" I didn't know whether he was talking about the contract or sexually, I know he meant sexually as his hands longer on the waist, his cheek now brushing agaisnt mine.

"Don't make me say it." I beg, giving in to defeat and I drop my head, my forehead pressing agaisnt his shoulder, my arms awkwardly hanging by my sides.

"I need you to tell me." Grayson rasps, his lips touching my neck and my skin forms goosebumps as his hands move lightly up and down my sides as I move my hands to hold his bicep. "Don't be shy, Angie." He whispers so quiet I can barely hear him as his breath tickles my neck.

I begin to think. I thought of all of the things I had dreamt of him doing to me. All of the things I had preteneded that I hadn't thought of them. They were dreams. I had never thought we could be reliving them as my eyes were open, mind concious and everything real.

"I can't." I pout, disappointed that I didn't have enough courage to tell a man what I wanted.

His hands leave my waist and I fear that he is as disappointed as myself however when his hands rest on my arms, his eyes now looking at mind. A single blonde hair falls from the messy pony tail which I had thrown it up in just before, had fallen out and he fixed it back into place. His fingertips brushing agaisnt my skin and I wanted him to touch me forever.

"We can work on that later." Grayson's voice is stern and I can imagine he would use this stern voice in meetings when a serious matter comes up.

I nod along with him, not liking the feeling of knowing that I have not made him happy. I wanted him to be happy. I didn't care if I had to be his doll or sexual object, I felt myself falling in love with the man who is cruel and hurts people mentally for his own entertainment.

"Now, I suggest that you read the book and fill in the contract." Is all he says before walking back towards the door, his hands twisting the doorknob to open the door and he waits in the doorway before turning back to look at me. My breathe catches in my breathe as I think he is about to say something however his lips curve into a smirk and I can already tell he's undressing me with his eyes, thinking of everything that he wants to do to him, everything that he isn't afraid to say. "I'll see you in the morning, Angela. Goodnight." He closes the door and I shyly smile before tucking the same strand of hair behind my ear.

I let out a breathe that I had been holding in as if I hadn't breathed a single time that he was in here with me. 

-

When the clock on the bedside table turns to 1am, my eyes stay as wide as they were throughout the day, possibly more awake. I hadn't been able to sleep with the thought of what Grayson had said on my mind and I had replayed the moment in my head from the way he delicately touched me to the way he took my breathe away, causing my heart to wildly thump in my chest everytime his eyes looked into mine. The way he called me Angie as if he had been calling me that in his head forever and I grin at the thought.

Sighing, I rise from my laying position to sit up, my head leaning against the headboard and I look down at the night gown that Grayson had provided me. It was sexy to say the least and I so desperately wanted him to see me in it, to peel the silky fabric from my body.

I looked at my reflection in the mirror in front of me before flattening out the skimpy gown, the fabric ending at mid thigh and the thin straps showed off my tan shoulders and the white lace stood out agaisnt the dark blue, the slit on the side showing my left leg. Feeling a boost of confidence as I look at my reflection, knowing that confidence is what he wants and I want to be want he wants. Pulling my hair out of the bun, it falls over my shoulders, the blonde waves adding the the sexy look and I look like a completely different person.

Walking towards the door quietly I begin to collect myself, wanting to show Grayson that I can not only tell him what he wants but show him.

[a/n: this chapter is short but I am happy with where it ended. I want to point out a few things before you exit out of this book.
- from this point of the book and onwards Grayson and Angela's relationship is abusive (not in a violent way), Grayson manipulates her to get what he wants and she seen as a 'toy' or 'sexual object'. Throughout the book you will see Angela changing both mentally and psychically as she thinks that is what he wants. She is so madly in love with her she is willing to change herself completely to fit what he wants
- however that does not mean Grayson does not return his feelings towards her, he loves her in his own way. Grayson finds his emotions through Angela who has taught him how to feel.
- you may still ship Grayson and Angela together despite the 'abuse' as they are FICTIONAL characters and this Grayson is not Grayson Dolan the YouTuber he is FICTIONAL.
- I am also not suggesting that I support relationship abuse. I do not. However I wanted to show people that as perfect a relationship may seem, they all have their flaws.
I hope you all understand (:
- El]