Rude - Grayson Dolan

27 - "heart break"

[a/n: I think Zara Larsson is the only person who I can imagine as Angela, who do you imagine her to look like?]

Angela

Landon's hand rested on the small of my back throughout the Fashion Show, the same way Ethan held Christina and I only wished that it was Grayson who was holding me like that. However, instead of being focussed on the way Landon's hand protectively would hold me, I was still thinking about Grayson. Thinking about the contract that I had signed only weeks ago and how the feeling of his single finger trailing along would make my toes curl in excitement and lust.

"That was amazing!" Landon says in amazement as we walk out of the building, his arm rubbing against my shoulder and I shiver at the cold weather.

"You liked it?" I laugh at his child like excitement and I try to hide my smile as he shrugs his coat off of his shoulders, the cloudy weather making the navy blue coat look black.

"I did, surprisingly. They moved so effortlessly and it was just - wow." He laughs with me as he places the coat over my shoulders to keep me warm as his stands in a long sleeved top, obviously also cold.

"Thank you." I say and pull the coat tightly over my chest to avoid the cold as we wait for the car to arrive back.

After looking at his leather watch that is strapped around his wrist, Landon turns to face me and his fingers reach out to tuck the loose strand of hair that blew across my face in the wind. The way he looked at me made me melt, I knew I was lucky to be looked at the way he looked at me. I knew every girl would love to be looked at in such a way, however I couldn't take it heart, it didn't belong to me.

"You know," Landon begins his eyes wondering my smiling face, his face brightening as he looks at me with his big brown eyes. "I had never believed in the word beautiful." His hand cups my jaw as his thumb draws faint circles on my cheeks causing goosebumps to rise upon my skin. "But my God are you beautiful."

Gulping, I watch as his face moves closer towards mine and my heart begins to race, my mind not being able to process what was happening until I could feel the warm feeling of his breathe fanning my face, his eyes looking deeply into mine and I felt sick. His eyes soon disappeared when he closed his eyes, his hand loosening on my cheek and I feel the softness of his lips against mine, my mind was telling me to kiss back but even harder however my heart was telling me to go back to Grayson.

Pushing my hand against his chest to push him away, his eyes look lost as though I had just ripped his heart out and let it splutter in front of him but he was still searching for it. My heavy breathes came out in pants as his lips part to say something however I knew he couldn't find the words because he thought I would kiss him back.

"I thought-" He panics, his hands pulling on his black quiffed hair and I look down to the floor, not wanting to show my face in shame. "I'm so sorry, Angela. I shouldn't have, please forg-"

"No, I'm sorry." I cut him off, his face looking pale in embarrassment and I almost wanted to cry for him. "I'm sorry that I don't love you the way you love me." His hands grip the end of his coat, not denying his love for me. "I wish I did - I really do. But my heart belongs to Grayson, it always has and it always will."

I couldn't bare it as I watched his eyes brim with tears, his teeth biting down on his bottom lip to keep them in and I hate to hurt him like this. Landon, the kindest person I know does not deserve this heart break.

"I know - I know." He repeats as his voice breaks, his head hanging low as I watch a single tear fall from his eyes before falling down his smooth cheeks and I quickly stepped forward to swipe it away with my finger.

Wrapping my arms tightly around him, attempting to pull him back together again and to mend him however I felt his shoulders shake as his arms wrap around my back, squeezing me gently as he buries his face in the crook of me neck. I squeezed my eyes shut tightly as I shake my head, I felt like a monster.

"I hope things work out with you and Grayson." Landon tells me although I know it is breaking him to say it and to even think of me with Grayson.

"Thank you." I pull away from the hug only to see his teary eyes and I lean back in to plant a swift kiss upon his warm cheek as he stuffs his hands into the pockets of his trousers. "I hope one day, someone will love you the way you love me."

Landon weakly smiles, his head turning to face the black car that had just pulled into the curb before turning back to face me. I knew I had hurt him and I hated that knowing it.

"The cars here." Landon tells me, his eyes not being able to look me straight in the face out of embarrassment. "You go, Grayson is probably at the hotel now."

I could hear the sadness in his voice and see it in his eyes.

"Are you sure?" I ask even though I knew he was too embarrassed and hurt to even look at me. "I can stay here, with you."

"No, go. It's ok." He replies, forcing a smile as his hand presses against my back again. I knew it wasn't ok and he knew it too.

"Ok, I'll see you tomorrow then." I whisper as the driver open the door to let me in, my legs trembling in sadness as Landon watches me leave him.

When the door closes behind me, I turn to face the window to watch Landon lift his large hand to wave goodbye to me and I feel my eyes begin to to pool with the blurry tears that blur my vision. I watched his heart break and it killed me.

"Are you ok, Miss Downing?" The male driver asks and I look up to meet his blue eyes in the rear view mirror before I quickly wipe away the tear that had escaped and fell down my cheek.

"Yes - yes, I'm fine thank you." I smile to him, my shoulders rising to my chin.

Before I could open my mouth to speak again, the ringing off my phone cut me off and I gasped in shock at the loud chiming noise. Reaching into my purse, I pick out my sleek phone to see that it was Christina who is calling me.

"Hello." I answer, forcing my voice to sound as happy as I wish I was.

"Ang." Christina breathes in relief as though I had just lifted a huge weight off of her shoulders just by picking up the phone. "Ethan and Grayson are here." I nod along however I realise she can't see me.

"Is everything ok?" I wonder what could be so bad if they were out of jail and I waited until she could catch her breath back before she spoke again.

"Grayson's asking for you." She tells me, her voice sounding tired yet a hint of happiness behind it as she had gotten Ethan back.

"He is?" I ask in surprise, my stomach swirling in excitement however my chest aches at the thoughts of him begging my name.

"He crying out for you, come quick."

Hanging up, I immediately ask for the driver to drive quicker and I give a useless and random excuse why as my knees bounce in anxiousness to see Grayson. I hoped he was ok.

[a/n: because it's a short chapter I might update tomorrow too (but I'm really ill atm which is why it's so short!)
But this book hit 200k reads and it means so much to me that people actually read the book and enjoy it! I love reading all of your comments, they make my day and I love how some of you get so into the book and feel the same emotions as the characters but it also sucks that the book is soon coming to an end ):
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