I'm falling (twenty one pilots fan fiction)

Chapter 12

We were a few months into the tour. I'd been to places I had only dreamed of going too but Tyler made it possible. The shows were going really well but Tyler wanted me to come on stage with him so he could officially announce us as a couple; I didn't want to do it. There was going to be too many people, I knew I'd probably do something stupid and everybody would laugh at me; I just couldn't risk it.
I did feel more relaxed and happier with Tyler but that didn't mean I was over my anxiety. It was still there. It was still slowly eating away at me; I just didn't notice it as much.
I still hadn't spoken to Sydney; she hadn't tried to contact me either. I spoke to my mum a lot though, I sent her at least two postcards from every country we went too. We were in Texas and in a couple of days we were going to New Mexico which I was sure would be a lot of fun.
"Are you ready for tonight?" Tyler asked.
"Um... Yeah I guess." I replied trying not to make it obvious I didn't want to go on stage because I was sure that would break Tyler's heart and make him think I didn't want people to know about us.
"Okay great! We will go through everything at the rehearsal."
"Okay." I didn't think I could have said that any less enthusiastically than I did. Thankfully Tyler didn't really notice and just walked off. I really wasn't excited for that night at all. Josh could see I was upset about it and came over.
"Hey is everything okay?"
"Not really." I sighed.
"Why's that?" He asked politely.
"Tyler wants me to go on stage with him but I can't; there is way too many people."
"You'll be fine when you get out there I promise." Josh gave me a reassuring look and squeezed my hand.
"Okay." That didn't help at all. Maybe I would be fine when I got out there; probably not though.

I wad standing in the wings waiting for Tyler to bring me onto the stage. I felt sick. My whole body was shaking and I could hardly breath; I felt cold but my skin was hot, like I had the flue or something.
Okay it was time...
Tyler walked over to me and took my hand gently. I looked at him hoping he would realise that I couldn't do this. I tried to resist but he got me out there. Everybody was staring at me. The bright, glaring spotlights beamed down on me. I started to hyperventilate; I couldn't even stand properly. Tyler looked at me frowning.
"Is everything okay?" He whispered.
I just looked at him tears streaming down my face. I had gone completely white I might as well have been a ghost. I tried to speak but nothing came out, my mouth just moved like a fishes. My eyes rolled to the back of my head, my legs gave out and I collapsed in front of everybody.

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It's a shorter one but very intense
-Jess