I'm falling (twenty one pilots fan fiction)

Chapter 13

When I finally woke up I was surrounded by people; that made me panic again. There was 2 paramedics trying to calm me down.
"Okay Miss Gregory calm down, breath." One of the paramedics said.
"Yes come on slowly in and out." Said the other.
I couldn't see Tyler, I could only see stage managers and paramedics through my blurred vision. I started to cry again. I felt so vulnerable just lying on the ground surrounded by strangers.
I couldn't completely remember what had happened so the paramedics took me off the stage and put me into the back of an ambulance. I still had no idea where Tyler was.
When I got to the hospital they did a series of tests on me; they took me for: x-rays, brain scans and checked my vitals. A few hours later I was put into a room by myself. I couldn't even think. I was angry at Tyler for making me go on stage when I obviously didn't want to.... But I didn't tell him that.
Tyler finally showed up after leaving me alone in that cold plain room for hours; I felt like I had been left in a mental hospital.
"What happened?" He asked breathlessly. I still couldn't speak and I didn't know why. I just laid there tears slowly rolling down my cheeks.
"Please don't be mad at me." He reached out for my hand and held it tight. "I'm sorry I didn't know." I turned my head and just looked at him with sad eyes. I could see he was starting to cry. "How could I be so stupid." He cried. He took the back of my hand and pressed it against his face then lightly kissed it. I could feel his warm tears on my cold hands.
"I love you." I said when I finally had the strength to speak. He looked up at me and gasped slightly.
"I love you too Aspen." We just longingly gazed into each others eyes. This wasn't how I thought this would happen. I imagined it being way more romantic; not me lying in a hospital bed because the love of my life dragged me on stage at one of his concerts.

I was let out the next day. Before I left the doctor pulled me into his office to talk to me about my scars; I lied and told him I was attacked by a dog as a child but it was never put on my record. He raised his eyebrows because he clearly didn't believe me.
"Well animal attacks can be very traumatic. If you ever need anybody to help you call this number." The doctor handed me the business card of a suicide hotline. I just smiled gratefully and left. As we were walking out Tyler took my hand and squeezed it tight.
"I am really sorry Aspen." He whispered.
"I am too." I whispered back. He put his arm around my shoulder and kissed my cheek softly.
When I got back on the tour bus everyone was looking at me; I just shrugged my shoulders and sat on the couch.
Tyler went for a shower and Josh came to sit next to me; he put his hand on my knee and It made me flinch.
"Hey I'm sorry I didn't take what you said more seriously yesterday." Josh said whilst removing his hand from my leg.
"You know I wish everybody would stop apologising!" I got up and stormed into the room at the back of the bus, it was mine and Tyler's room, I threw myself on to the bed and buried my head into the pillow.
I cried for what feels like hours but in reality it was only 15 minutes because Tyler came in from his shower and lied next to me. I turned on to my side and put my head on Tyler's bare chest, he had his favourite black sweatpants on, he put his arm round me and kissed the top of my head.
"You can't keep doing stuff like this Pen." He said smoothing down my hair.
"I can't help it." I sobbed wiping away my tears.
"We are all just trying to help you." I lifted my head off his chest and looked at him.
"Well I don't need your help." He sat up and looked at me confused.
"Why do you keep doing this Pen? We get close and you push me away."
"Just leave me alone Tyler."
"I don't want to leave you alone Pen." He said moving closer to me. I pushed him away and got off the bed.
"I'm just gonna stay in a hotel tonight." I said grabbing some clothes and shoving them into a bag. I started to walk out of the room and Tyler tried to come after me but I went too quickly.
I just left him standing in the middle of the tour bus alone.

I got a taxi to the closest hotel and checked in. I sat on the bed staring at my laptop. I didn't know why I did those things. I put my headphones in and fell asleep listening to music. When I woke up I had 23 texts and 7 missed calls from Tyler; this made me want to be further away from him. Another text popped up on the screen.
'Seriously Aspen answer you god damn phone! I need to talk to you!'
I chose to ignore the message.
I got out of bed and jumped into the shower. I knew I had to get back to the tour bus and Tyler before they left for New Mexico but I just didn't think I could deal with him right then. I didn't know what I was going to do.

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What is she going to do? Is she going to go to Mexico or go back home?
-Jess