"I really like you, Lucy." Aaron says looking away from me in the car. We've just arrived at my front porch when he offered to drive me home. I sit here immobile, chewing on the inside of my cheek. My stomach feels woozy from that kiss, and my mind is swarming with thoughts and feelings. I should say something, because the silence is slowly killing me.
"But... Why me?" I croak out. It sounded so much better in my head, like when you watch movies and the guy falls in love with the ugly girl, and she says something like, 'Why me?' But when I said it, I sounded like a dying pig. He finally looks at me, his blue eyes full of mischief.
"You're not like other girls." He says nonchalantly. "Besides, the girls who adore me have nothing to worry about." His blue eyes are glinting with amusement, and his voice full of sarcasm.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I demand. Because im pretty sure he meant that im ugly. Suddenly, I feel very insecure, and I want to make myself look extra pretty just for him. What the hell, Lucy? Who cares what he thinks, he's a jerk.
He laughs, and it's the most beautiful sound ever.
"Now I see why Adam calls you a hothead." He says, and when he catches my frown, his face softens. "I was kidding. Old habits die hard."
"Yeah." I mutter. I open the car door, "Well, I better get going." His strong hand grips my arm gently, holding me from getting out.
"Wait," He says. He leans in and kisses me softly on the cheek, causing my heart to collapse. "Goodnight." He whispers. I smile at him. He can be so sweet and so not-sweet when he wants to. It was only a few weeks ago where I hated him so much, and now... I'm beginning to like him a lot more.
Ironic. Out of words, I get out of the car and shut it firmly behind me. He drives away while I stand in my porch grinning like an idiot.
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Once inside, I text Jenny and Lisa that I got a ride home. When I receive their worried texts, i reassure them both that I'm fine and that we need to talk. I want to tell them everything about what happened with Aaron. My hair is sticky with sweat and my makeup feels dry on my skin, so I go take a long warm shower. When im done showering, I change into my jammies and cook myself some macaroni and cheese, Yum. It's still quite early, and my parents don't come home until 10 or something, so I kind of enjoy the silence. I decide to read a book, because I miss smelling the pages and that feeling where you're in your own world.
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The weekend flows past quickly, and on Sunday jenny, Lisa and I are in the local library studying. I've just finished telling them about what happened at the Party and when I reach the part of Aaron kissing me, Lisa squeals.
"Shhh." The librarian hisses at Lisa. Her wrinkly face is masked with a permanent scowl, so she looks mean to everyone. She continues piling her books into the bookshelf and walks away.
Jenny is wide eyed. "Holy shit, Luce. He's like... so fucking hot." She says it like she can't believe he kissed me.
Lisa is silently squealing, and her eyes are full of joy. "I totally shipped you guys from the beginning!"
"His lips were so immaculately soft; it felt like I was drowning in him. It felt so amazing, guys." I say wistfully, cupping my hand under my chin. Lisa sighs dreamily, and Jenny is still shocked.
"I just wow... Out of all girls, he's interested in you." Jenny says, her eyebrows raised and eyes wide. Lisa stares at her sceptically, and then looks at me.
I drop my hands on the table, and stare at her. "What do you mean? That he can do better?" I retort. My heart is beating rapidly for no reason. Is she saying im ugly and that he deserves someone pretty? I mean, I always knew I wasn't all that pretty; it's just that I never really cared to be honest. But hearing your best friend say that... that was just, awful. It made me feel awful and useless.
Jenny is shaking her head frantically, but I can tell from the look on her face that that is exactly what she meant. "No, of course not. It's just that..." She begins to say, "He's like popular, and obviously good looking. What im trying to say is..." she trails off.
"Is that im ugly and he deserves someone prettier." I finish for her. She looks at me with pity, and Lisa is glaring at her. My chest feels like a brick is against it, and im trying hard to breathe. I can't.
"What the hell, Jenny? Looks don't matter, and I can tell by the way Aaron looks at her that he doesn't care about how she looks, it's about who she is and how truly beautiful she is on the inside. And if you're implying that Lucy is ugly, she isn't. She's beautiful, really beautiful and one hundred times more beautiful on the inside. The only person who is ugly is you, on the inside!" Lisa says to Jenny, looking at her fiercely in the eye. It's the most heartfelt thing she has ever said, and not to mention the most reasonable.
Jenny looks hurt, but her eyes glint with with defiance. She closes her eyes and lets out a long sigh. "I was just being honest, and I guess it came out the wrong way. I'm sorry."
Lisa ignores her and hugs me. I'm still stunned at this whole thing. "It's okay, Luce. You're amazing, and you and Aaron are going to make cute babies together." She murmurs.
"You're the best, Lisa." I say when she lets go. I smile at her and face Jenny who still looks offended. Why is she offended when she's the one who practically called me ugly? "Jenny, I don't care what you have to say. It's not like I say anything about Matt deserving better than you, because honestly he deserves someone who isn't so impertinent. Alas, it's your opinion anyway." I stand up to leave. "I'm going now, and when you mature come talk to me." I face Lisa who's still glaring at jenny. "I'm going to leave now. Wanna go get some frozen yoghurt down the street?"
"Yes!" she jumps up happily, ignoring the scowls from the libarian and packs up her books into her bag. Jenny is looking at the table, dragging her finger and creating patterns. She doesn't look at us when we leave the library, but I genuinely don't care.
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*update* I may or may not update for a while, because I'm studying for yearlys exams! xxxxx
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