Waiting (a pernico fic)

Chapter 12

Whoa double update what? Props to me holla

Nico's POV

-4 weeks later-

Nico had to go to the infirmary to get his stitches taken out and the idea of going there made a lump form in his throat. He'd been back twice for the bandages to be changed and both times, he'd gone back to his cabin to hyperventilate. Even though he was being held in the Big House, and there was a new Apollo kid, a girl, as the general practitioner, he hated that place.
Percy was with him, this time not letting Nico out of his sight, and Nico was still uncomfortable.

He hadn't told Percy this, but the reason the stitches needed to come out was not because he was fully healed, but because he kept scrubbing at them in the shower and they were doing more harm than good. Not to mention that he had been the one to stitch him up. He still felt his hands on him and even Percy's presence couldn't help that. He took three showers a day, trying to scrub his fingerprints off of him. But they burned into his skin, red welts only he could see.

They got inside and the new Apollo girl set to work getting the stitches out. She could tell Nico didn't want to be here any longer than necessary and didn't waste time with idle chit-chat. She expertly snipped the fibers and pulled out the thread silently, trying to ignore the wince Nico gave at the unpleasant feeling of the filament being pulled from his skin. Percy was right next to him, squeezing his hand reassuringly.
Nico was glad Percy was there, even if his hand in his own made a twinge of unease rise in the back of his mind. He dismissed it, knowing it was only because of him that he was uneasy in the first place. He hated him for making him feel this way. He hated how terrified everything related to him made him feel. He hated him for warping the one thing that had always comforted him; Percy's presence.
Even Percy couldn't help the dreams anymore. Instead of Tartarus alone, which was terrifying enough, the eyes of the Titans were replaced with the eyes of him. That first night, Nico had screamed loud enough to wake the four cabins that sat on either side of his own. Percy had been there in moments, holding him, but even that wasn't enough to quell the fear that made him shake so violently, Percy had thought he was having a seizure.
"All done," the girl announced brightly, sounding too much like him and making Nico flinch. "Well, I'll expect you back in a week so I can see how you're healing without them, okay?" Nico nodded silently and Percy thanked the girl as he helped Nico put his shirt back on so it wouldn't snag on his scabs.
Nico hated being coddled but he appreciated everything Percy has been doing for him since it happened, even backing off on the affection Nico knew he wanted. It hurt Nico to do, because consciously he wanted to cuddle and kiss his boyfriend, but even the smallest hug could send Nico into a panic attack, and it hurt Nico to watch Percy freak out when that happened.

Nico hated the constant fear more than anything. He couldn't help it. He'd looked it up on the camp computer and read that many rape victims have paranoid fears and can't stand being touched for years after it happens, so at least he isn't alone. That same day, an Apollo kid who looked like him had tapped Nico's shoulder to get his attention, and Nico had almost cried he'd been so scared.
Nico forced it out of his mind and followed Percy back to his cabin so the boy could try to sleep.

Will's POV
(AN: I don't want to hear what Solace has to say rn but I must)

Will sat heavily against the stone wall, feeling himself start to cry. God, he was a monster. He'd been so caught up in the idea of Nico being his that even Nico's feelings hadn't mattered to him. He regretted what he'd done so much, he was tempted to ask the gods to kill him to get away from the guilt. Even the feeling of kissing Nico wasn't worth this. And it had been everything he'd imagined, even if it had been forced. He wanted to replay it over and over in his mind but the sound of Nico begging him to stop came with it and he couldn't bear to hear the fear in his voice.
What had he become?

AN: I fucking hate Will right now dot touch me this isn't okay what the fuck have I done?
Btw I'm fully aware he is extremely OOC but that's how the ship floats honey.
I told you guys there was going to be conflict and this is it.
Till next chapter loves
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