Now that they were in her bedroom nervousness eclipsed Chanel's confusion. She hadn't had much sexual experience before and of course none with a girl but she had always been shy about exposure of her body. Shanique was looking at her with an intense stare that they had never shared before, with this intense stare Shanique's eyes moved from being regular puppy brown to a molten brown like warm honey something else that was new to Chanel. Tired of the mental tip-toeing around each other, Chanel pulled her in for a rough kiss similar to the one they had first shared. Shanique's response was immediate and she felt herself melting into the kiss very much like her best friend's eyes and felt a very intense need to become one with her. If it were possible for two bodies to join and become one identity, one DNA such was the depth of her feelings in the heated kiss they shared. It was a slow kiss that took on it's own rhythm, followed a path of it's own like a newly formed river winding deep and handling sharp curves as their tongues melded. Like a fly to open flame she was drawn in. The only difference is that unlike that unsuspecting moth she knew once they reached the flame together they would both be burnt. The thought of it made Chanel hesitate for just a second but it was enough to have Shanique pulling from the kiss and turning away from her.
She was still very much horny for her BEST FRIEND and the thought in itself should have the effect of cold water but it didn't. The fact that they had known each other all their life only made the kisses more precious and the idea of a relationship with a girl, not just any girl – her best friend no longer seemed foreign. In fact, in that moment she experienced a revelation like no other, like she had found the seventh Dragon ball Chanel was complete.
She wasn't exactly sure when it was that she had begun craving cunt over cock but she knew she had made the change. She had tried to convince herself that it was anger at the betrayal that had caused her reaction to the pictures but she wasn't being honest . Ironic isn't it, how could she expect her best friend to be honest with her when she couldn't even be honest with herself? Deep down the reason she had reacted that strongly to the pictures is because white hot jealousy had been eating away at her.
"WOW. I'm sorry"
"I'm not" no time like the present to start being honest Chanel decided on the spot.
"I don't..."
"I think..." they both said at the same time. An awkward laugh was next.
"You go first" Chanel said since the awkward moment caused doubt to enter her mind. Supposed Shanique didn't like her like that? Supposed she had changed her mind? What if they ruined their friendship? Well more than they already had...
"I don't think you meant that. You're just confused and I don't want you to feel like I'm pressuring you. I haven't even apologized or explained the pictures. I'm sorry I disappointed you but let's forget that kiss happened". She blew out a breath and waited for Chanel to agree.
"You want me to forget what we just shared? You want me to pretend like it didn't happen? Is that it then? You don't feel the same about me because when we kissed just now I felt like I was finally where I needed to be and while you may want to forget it I can't guarantee you that I can. I'm sorry".
Getting the confession out in the air took all her effort and she turned away before she made a complete fool of herself and shed the tears brimming in her eyes. She had thought when Jay and her broke up 1 year ago she had known heart break but this was nothing compared to that. They say the truth hurts but rejection; that's what really causes excruciating pain. The type that breaks you as a person by starting in your brain with your self confidence and wielding it's way to wrap itself like a python around your heart, squeezing as it moved.
The tears were running freely now and she couldn't bear to be in the same room. She ran to the bathroom and locked herself in.
She never meant to hurt her best friend and standing around the room they had both grown up in Shanique never felt so bad about herself. Chanel had always called her the braver of the two but her decision proved she was nothing but a coward. She was thinking about going to her best friend but figured she had done enough damage as it was and slipped through the bedroom door closing it quietly behind her and out the house.
A/N:
Hey loves! Umm so I know they're just being petty right now and I'm actually very annoyed at them myself but it will get better. I promise! Shanique hasn't explained the pictures or her feelings. Chanel is having second thoughts.
BTW: If you can think of a title for the chapters lemme know cause I'm brain dead in that area.
Y'all listen Mary Lambert? She's like my current favorite. I don't know how many of you have actually struggled with the realization that you are gay or bi or bicurious and tbh I still have my days when I'm not sure where I stand but I think I've come a far way to understanding myself and my emotions. If you want to talk about it or share your experiences my DM is always open. *twerks*
Mary Lambert - She keeps me warm <3
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Lesbian Love
RomanceChanel and Shanique had been best friends since grade one and Chanel thought they knew each other better than they knew themselves. When Chanel finds out about a secret her best friend was hiding will it break the friendship or make it stronger?
