How Shanique is feeling. A POV
I've always the realist in my friend group. The no hypocrisy, no bullshit straightforward one. I've alway held that standard for myself and my friends. Chanel, my best friend, has been the same. I know I was wrong for keeping my secret so long but isn't everyone allowed at least one thing to keep to themselves? I wasn't sure how she would react and I didn't want to make our friendship awkward, especially not given the less than innocent feelings I have...had... have for her. She means the world to me and going without her friendship would have been the one thing to break me, to make me less than the tower of strength others seem to see me as. Now the roles have been reversed and I'm pissed! How could she not tell me? I thought we were besties! Friends to the end, pinky and the brain. She knows my secret and while I didn't tell her myself at least she knows. She was really quiet in Algebra class and wore makeup to school today without my coaxing so I knew she was keeping something from me, but with our friendship as fragile as it is I didn't want to push and I knew she would tell me when she was ready. We had always been this way. I was right behind her when we exited Matrix algebra class and when she saw the other girl, Kayliah I think her name is, it's like I became invisible.
She kissed her in public, my best friend who is afraid to present in front of a class because it brings too much attention, kissed a girl in front of hundreds of students who captured it on camera. She's going to be so devastated when she sees it all across the internet. I want to be there for her when this blows up but I'm still hurt... and a little jealous. Our kiss was like that - hot, explosive, alluring causing everything else to become minute particles in the shadows. It's never been like that with Christina- with anyone except Chanel. Now she has it with someone else. I'll probably have to leave Christina now, it's not fair to have her being stringed along when the only girl I'll ever truly love with all my heart is Chanel.
A/N: Hey loves! Yes I know I'm absolutely awful at this updating thing and these updates are too short 😩 but I'm trying. I have school full time and work full time too so I'm just like "what is sleep?" But my exams end early May and I promise I'll finish this book for you guys by the end of summer. Stick with me please and remember to vote comment and share. Love y'all! ❤💚💛
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Lesbian Love
RomanceChanel and Shanique had been best friends since grade one and Chanel thought they knew each other better than they knew themselves. When Chanel finds out about a secret her best friend was hiding will it break the friendship or make it stronger?
