Younower Imagines

10 | Zach Clayton

*TRIGGER WARNING*

IF ANYBODY NEEDS A PERSON TO LISTEN, MY DMS ARE OPEN 💓

THIS IS AN IMAGINE IN HONOR OF MY ONE YEAR CLEAN OF SELF HARM. IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE.

I stare at the hand full of pills,

Worthless

Shit

Ugly

Fat

Unwanted

All of the comments are racing through my mind as I dump them all into my mouth.

This is it, the end. Finally.

After swallowing all the pills I lay down on the cold, hard floor of the bathroom.

I hear the door close downstairs, followed by footsteps up the stairs.

"Hey Zach where's Y/N ?" I could tell it was Edwin.

"I don't know, the door wasn't locked so she must be home" he replies "Y/N you home ?".

With the no reply I close my eyes letting the darkness wrap around my life, a banging on the bathroom door interrupts the silence "baby you in there ?".

I gain the strength to croak out "I'm sorry Zach" I could hear them panicking outside "what's going on?" I could hear them playing with the lock on the door, trying to open it.

Only seconds later, the door comes flying down, the boys scramble towards me on the floor.

"oh, no no no. Y/N stay with me. You can't leave me! Edwin call 911" My eyes are slowly closing, the thing I see is Zach's face before I plunge into the darkness.

I open my eyes, blinded by a bright white light. I groan as I sit up, observing my surroundings. I see everyone asleep, Zach, Edwin,Kylee, Nick, Loren, Mark ect. Everyone is sitting around my hospital bed.

I go to move my hand but realize Zach has both his hands wrapped securely around my hand, I watch him stir awake "you're awake!" He whispers, I don't really want to talk to him. I feel so guilty.

"Baby why did you do it?" He asks "I hate my life Zach, your fans are so mean, I'm so fat and ugly-".

"Don't. Stop. I hate when you do this, you think you're worthless but you are my everything y/n I have been in here every single day since you were admitted to see if you would wake up" I hang my head in embarrassment and shame "Everyone travelled to see if you were ok ; Ariel, Mario, Weston, Arii and everyone else but they had to go back on tour"

I smile, everyone else had woken up by now "guys I'm sorry, I was being selfish trying to take my own life" they all just give an awkward look.

It's been a week since I was let out of the hospital and Zach's supporters kept asking questions, because Zach dropped out of the TLG tour.

Nobody has said anything about my 'incident' because they said it wasn't their place to explain.

I was sitting on the bed next to Zach as he just went live on YouNow.

"Hey guys so I know I haven't been live for a while and I do have a very good reason for it, but first wanna talk to you guys about something. As a lot of you guys know I recently dropped out of the TLG tour and I did that so I could stay at home and take care of Y/N. Now if you guys don't know what happened I'm gonna tell you, last week Y/N tried to take her own life because of the hate comments and rude stuff Some of you guys have been saying to her now I know it's not all of you. But I want you all to understand I love y/n with all of my heart and I want you all to love her too"

I smile at him, he grabs my arm and slightly tugs me off the bed until I'm straddling him.

"I love you"

"I think I love you more"