Dear E,
I read something on Wattpad just a few minutes ago.
I hated you.
'Cause I loved you.
And I hated love.
I still hate love.
And I still hate you.
But
I'll always love you anyways.
It's from Quotote by TheLastPoetess. It reminds me of you, and Joe. I hate you both, and yet I still have to love you guys. He called me fat,and ugly and a bitch. Even though he tried to take it back, and all my friends say he's a stupid ass. He's an idiot. I still defend him. I know you're not the brightest cookie in the jar, but do you think I should still defend him? I just don't even know anymore.
To be honest, I don't defend you. Mainly because I do love you, but I openly hate you as well. A lot of people "know" I hate you. But I don't want anyone to think I hate Joe. I just........ I don't know. Seriously I finally realized that to love someone, you need to be friends first, otherwise it can never last. So Kid, I want to be friends. Me and you, no one else even has to know. We can pretend we don't even know each other at school, if that's what you want. But I seriously want us to be something, anything.
Maybe during the summer? Or after school and on weekends, by my house so none of your friends see. I really want us to be friends bubbie. With me and Joe, we both loved each other, but we didn't know each other. That's what the problem was, and is. I think. I'm positive if you knew the real me, the cooler, more relaxed me, you would really like me. All my friends say that they can't believe the guys I like don't like me back, well I can. At school I'm awful. Sometimes when I'm at home i'm awful too, but If you just tried to get to know me I could show you that that isn't the real me, at all.
Please,
Give me a chance to show you a side of me you've never seen.
