Dear E,
Wow, you looked just as great as I had imagined in a tux. Now I pray to see the day you wear one next to a priest, and I'm the one your looking at, walking down the aisle.
She tries to say she doesn't care, that she suddenly realizes how much she's been taking for granted, but I know she still cares about you. I know that Alyson still does too. I don't care. I'm not saying that I'll give up my dear friends for you, but I love you. And if they don't learn that, then I just may have to give them up.
You talked to me today, in advisory. Being a perv, as usual, but it was kinda cute today. She said that you picked her up trying to get her attention. Well whoopdie fucking doo! Does that mean that you care about her?
You had said that if I were to ask you out, you would say yes. But now the story has changed, once again. Now you would say no if I asked you out because you like this mystery girl more than me. I don't care, you still like me to a certain extent.
I just want you to know, that I will always care about him. I won't ever stop caring about him, because I think he's the first guy I ever really liked, ever really loved. I know he's got a girlfriend, and now she seems to think she can treat him right, but......... I'll always know that I would be able to treat him better. But if you and I were going out he would not have a chance against you. While your still fawning over that other girl I'll still care about him. I'll still laugh when it's not funny, I'll still defend him (like she never does), I'll still love him.
Here are just some things that reminded me of you today.
“The course of true love never did run smooth.”
― William Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night's Dream
“He's not your prince charming if he doesn't make sure you know that you're his princess.”
― Demi Lovato (Then maybe you aren't my prince charming.)
“Love is not a maybe thing, you know when you love someone.”
― Lauren Conrad
“I wish I knew how to quit you.”
― Annie Proulx, Brokeback Mountain
“Under loves heavy burden do I sink.
--Romeo”
― William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet
“To measure the man, measure his heart.”
― Malcolm S. Forbes
“The real ordeal is not leaving those you love but learning to live without those who don't love you.”
― Muriel Barbery, Gourmet Rhapsody
“Maybe it's what we don't say/that saves us.”
― Dorianne Laux, What We Carry
