Love, Cancer, and Me // Book 1 // Brendon Urie

Chapter 37: Lay Us Down We're In Love

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~Brendon's POV~

   Today I was going to go over to visit Addilyn and talk to her, but first I need to call her mom. I dial up the number and Angelica picks up right away.

   "Hi, Miss Rose."

   "Brendon? What do you want?"

   "How's Addilyn?"

   "Why you need to know?"

   "What happened that day isn't exactly what really happened. Sarah tried to force herself on me. I don't love Sarah."

   "Shouldn't you be telling Addilyn this?"

   "I will today. I just want to gain your trust."

    "Oh Brendon, I do trust you. I know you are a good man and wouldn't actually do that, but thank you for telling me."

   "Thank you for trusting me. Am I allowed to come over and talk to Addy?"

   "Of course! I won't let her know you're coming."

   "Okay, thank you Miss Rose."

   "Please, call me Angelica."

   "Alright, thank you Angelica. Soon you soon." And with that I hung up the phone. Well, that was a success. Now, I just have to sort everything out with Addilyn. I hop into my car and head to her house.

   I unlock the door and I am greeted by Angelica.

   "Hi Brendon."

   "Hello Angelica. Is she in her room?"

   Angelica nods and as I walk towards the stairs, she stops me, "I just want to let you know she is very upset, so do what you do best and her cheer her up."

   "Will do." She gives me a polite smile and I walk up the stairs.

~Addilyn's POV~

   Usually when I'm sad, I go on Spotify and listen to my sad playlist. I put it on shuffle and of course the first song is "Impossible Year". Here come the tears rolling down my face. Why is it everytime I turn on the radio or something one of his songs pop up?! There's a knock on my door and I just ignore it, assuming it's my mom. The door opens and I don't even look up. I'm sitting in front of my bed, leaning against it for support. The person walks up to me and squats. I look out of the corner of my eye and see combat boots. Fuck. He's here. I've been thinking about this if he ever came to visit me, I had to act like I didn't care and I was happy. Even though I'm not. "Hey," he says.

   I wipe my eyes quickly and stand up, Oh hey! What's up?" I say, trying to sound thrilled to see him.

   "Were you crying?"

   "Um, no. Why you ask?" I plaster a fake smile on my face.

   "Your face is red and your eyes are puffy." Shit. I didn't realize that a tear rolled down my face until Brendon used his thumb to wipe it off.

   I backed up a bit, "Okay, maybe. I've just been thinking about my dad and all."

~Brendon's POV~

   She's not good at lying at all. "Why are you listening to sad music?"

   Addy scoffs, "I'm not! This is my happy music."

   I look at her computer that's sitting on her desk, "Addy, the title is "My Sad Playlist".

   She laughs nervously, "Oops, I guess I played the wrong one." "Impossible Year" ended and the next song was "Northern Downpour". At this point, Addilyn looked like she going to burst out in tears. I give her the are-you-serious look. "Why are you asking so many questions?"

   "Addilyn, can we please talk."

   "Aren't we now?"

   I frown, "Addy, please."She sits on the bed and I sit next to her. "What you saw wasn't actually what was happening. Sarah-"

   "Brendon, I don't care if you and Sarah got back together. I'm happy for you guys!"

   "No, Add-"

   "Bren, it's okay. Really."

   "Wait, Addil-"

   "It's fine-"

   Before she continues, I interrupt up her and hug her. She lets out a gasp. "Addilyn, just please shut up this one time and let me talk." She's silent and I feel her nod. "Okay, so, I'm going to start from the beginning, I woke up like at noon and I went and fed my dogs and all. I was about to text you until someone knocked on my door. Assuming it was you I opened it, but the person outside was Sarah. Anyway,I didn't have a shirt when I answered the door cause I just woke up. She asked me if we could talk and I didn't really want her inside, but I let her in. She sat on the couch and I told her I was going to get cleaned up and all. Once I grabbed out a shirt, Sarah pushed me on the bed and started taking off her clothes and got on top of me. Then you came and when you left, Sarah focused back onto me and tried to kiss me and pull my pants down. I pushed her off and yelled at her and she left." Now, it was super silent. Addilyn started shaking and I pulled back and she was crying.

   "I'm so sorry for not trusting you. I'm so stupid."

   I pulled her onto my lap and just rocked her, "There's no need to apologize. Please, don't cry. I hate seeing tears roll down your pretty face." She blushes. "Just remember, Addilyn I love you and wouldn't even dare try to hurt you." Addy looks at me.

   "I-I love you to Brendon with all my heart and I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner." I was so fucking happy that I just leaned down and kissed her. This kiss wasn't like the first one we had, this one even longer.