Trees

Stay alive

~Josh~
I haven't left Tyler's side in hours. I'm not going to leave his side until I know he's ok for sure. "Josh, get some sleep please" mom said and I shook my head "not until I know he's ok" I told her "ok. Well do you want coffee?" She asked so I nodded. She walked away and I looked back at Tyler.

After another hour of sitting with Tyler I saw his eyes open. "Tyler?" I asked and he coughed a little. I immediately stood up and kissed him. This was the best kiss ever.

I pulled back and held his hand. "Tyler I'm so sorry for everything. I was scared. I had an out burst where I panicked and I immediately regretted everything I said about breaking up with you. I love you" I told him so he smiled "I love you too" he replied weakly. "Does this mean that you will still marry me?" I smiled so he nodded. "Yes" he told me so I kissed him again.

The doctor walked in and looked at Tyler. "Ok. You swallowed a lot of pills that were really strong. We pumped out your stomach and got the medication out of your system. Now you need to go home and stay in bed and just get some rest" he told me so I nodded. "Can I still go on my morning runs?" Tyler asked and I smiled at him. "Yeah, just take it slow" he told me so I smiled. "Can I go home now?" Josh asked "yeah. Just stay away from medicines" the doctor told him so he smiled. "Everyone but Josh. Out so I can change" Tyler commanded so everyone else left.

I helped Tyler up and he dropped the hospital gown. I looked down and bit my lip. He doesn't have underwear on. "Josh" Tyler said so I looked at his face. "What?" I asked so he pointed to his underwear and pants. I handed him his stuff and he put them on. He's shirtless right now. "It's cold outside. Take my shirt" I told him then took my shirt off. He shrugged and put my shirt on. He smiled then I noticed his lack of shoes. "I'll just carry you" I chuckled before we walked out of the room.

"Tyler where are you staying? My house or your house?" Laura asked so I looked at Josh "my house has the lack of Zack so let's go there" I told him so he nodded. I picked Tyler up bridal style and carried him to the car. I wasn't wrong. It's cold outside in Ohio this time of year.

I carried Tyler upstairs and set him on my bed. I took off my shoes and joined him in bed. I faced him and took a deep breath. "Tybaby, I'm so sorry" I told him so he just kissed me "stop saying sorry. I get it. We are both under a lot of pressure and you were stressed" he told me so I smiled at him. He kissed me and I held him close to my chest. "Tyler I love you more than anything" I told him so he smiled. "I love you to Joshua" he replied. I laid there with him silently listening to our steady breathing as we both fell asleep.

I woke up and Tyler was still asleep. I smiled and just laid here while he slept. He moved a little bit then looked up at me. "Morning beautiful" I smiled and he hid his face in my chest. I smiled and kissed his temple. "Let's go downstairs and get som coffee" I told him so he groaned. "I don't wanna get up" he mumbled "then I will carry you" I told him so he shrugged. I stood up then picked up Tyler bridal style.

I set him down on the couch and kissed him before going to the kitchen. I made two cups of coffee and took them to the living room.

I sat next to Tyler and he smiled at me. "I love you" he told me causing me to smile "I love you too" I replied then Tyler checked his phone. He groaned causing me to be confused.

~Tyler~
Mom- therapy appointment in two hours. I'll send you the address

I groaned at the text and Josh looked at me. "What's wrong?" He asked concerned "I have to go to fucking therapy" I told him so he frowned. "It'll be ok. Your mom just wants you to have help" he told me so I shrugged.

I finished my coffee then went upstairs to get ready. I went through my closet and found some black jeans, a white shirt and Josh's black hoodie. I put on my black vans then went to the bathroom to fix my hair.

I stared in the mirror and saw my reflection. Only it wasn't me. It was a pale, tired looking depressed teen boy with messy hair and sloppy posture. I combed my hair but that didn't seem to help. I stared at myself and wanted to cry. This is what I've become. This isn't me. What have I done to myself.

Look at you Tyler. You're worthless and ugly. Do it. You know where the knife is.

The voice was right. I opened the drawer by my sink and grabbed my knife that I hid amongst my hair products. I rolled up my sleeve and pressed the knife to my skin.

"Tyler" I heard Josh say in a disappointed tone. I looked at him with tears in my eyes and dropped the knife. "I'm sorry" I whispered. He walked over and cleaned up my arm with out saying anything.

"Josh are you mad at me?" I asked shyly and he looked me in the eye. "No, Tyler. Of course not. I can't be mad at you for this. I love you. It just hurts me seeing you in pain" he explained then placed his hands on my hips before kissing me. "Tyler, stay alive. For me" he told me so I nodded before hugging him.