Jonathan X Reader

Reading

"I can't belive I found it." You jumped with excitement. "This journal holds all the answers I've been looking for!"

"Wow I've never heard you squeal like a little girl before." Jonathan laughed and leaned up against the tree. "Can I let go of this swing now?"

"Yeah Yeah whatever," You were too distracted by looking at the book To realize that if he let go it would hit you and it almost did. Until you looked up and moved out of the way. "Trying to kill me again I see." You mumbled to Jonathan.

"Awww one time Y/N." He groaned. "That was one time!"

You laughed and picked up the book and the picture. "Come on let's go back to the house so that I can read this."

You used the shovel to push the dirt back into the hole before sprinting back to the house. Jonathan however was a little behind because he had to carry the shovel.

Once in the house you took the picture up to your room and put it next to your bag so that you could take it to your apartment when you leave tomorrow. Then you grabbed the book and ran back downstairs where Jonathan stood there with the shovel.

"Take it to the shed where we got it earlier please." You told Jonathan and sat down. Now you are going to read your mom's journal.

***

Today I met a man. He seemed different than all other shadowhunters or mundanes. Just more mature I guess.

His hair isn't long to where he looks like a girl. That has never been my taste. But it's long enough to where it blows in the wind. His orange eyes seemed to look right through me. As if they were full of fire.

I'm meeting him again tomorrow. Wish me luck.

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Today I learned his name. He's called Cane, I guess it's short for something. He must not like his real name.

He took me around Paris and up the eiffel tower. The date seems mundane first but it really wasn't. It was amazing we had a picnic in the park and talked for hours.

Well tomorrow I have to go to Alicante to visit my parents. I'll tell them all about him. Let's hope they like him.

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Oh it was terrible, they haven't even met him and they hate him. All because he isn't a shadowhunter. They heard that and instantly they were done. Hated him.

They have arranged a marriage for me and another man. His name is F/N (Father's name) I havent met him but I don't want to marry him. I've only known Cane for a few short days but I think I am in love with him.

My parents allow me one day to go back to Paris and collect my things.

I will speak to him and tell him how I feel and then I will tell him how I have to marry someone else. He has to understand.

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I made it back to Paris today and I will pack my things. Tonight I will be with cane.

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Cane and I were together that night. I shared something with him that I have never shared with anyone else. We said our good byes and I traveled back to Idris.

Tonight I will be married and I will have to share my only bond with Cane with F/N. It's sad to think of how much I love him when I have to be with another man.

He will always be my first though. And nothing will change that.

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It's been a few weeks since my wedding night and I am with child. Me and F/N are very excited and we are moving to Paris to raise our child. Oh how I hope it is a girl. I will name her Sarina but F/N really likes the name Y/N. I guess we'll see who wins when the time comes.

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Today something wonderfully terrible happened. I saw Cane. I was in the store looking at baby items when I saw him outside the store. I went out side to speak with him but he only said one thing to me. He said that his real name was Canicus. And then he left.

So I looked through some old books and I found the name but it belonged to a greater demon. He could control and create fire.

And that's when I realized that I had made love to a greater demon. If any one in the clave ever found out I would be sentence straight to death. I just pray that my child is F/N's because if not. She will die too.

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Well today I found out who's child it was. It is Canes child. I hiccuped and fire came out of my mouth. FIRE!

I told F/N about my predicament and he understood. He said that we can hide the child and he will still raise her as his own.

I have enlisted the help of a warlock to shield her from Canicus. He has given me potions to give her once every year starting right after she is born. It will hide whatever powers she posseses from her and she will never know. And Canicus will never find her.

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Today I gave birth to a healthy baby girl. I decided to name her Y/N because F/N liked it so much. The first thing she drank was that potion. I have more to give her as she grows up. I have hid them in a box in the attic so she will never find them.

Oh she looks just like me. Not one trace of Canicus. Except for what lies inside of her.

She will live a happy life hidden from the clave and no one will hurt her. This will be my last journal entry because I do not want Y/N to stumble upon it.

You have been a good friend and an even better keeper of secrets.

***

You jumped off of the couch and ran out side.

Finding out that your father isn't really your father is terrible. It's even worse to find out that your father is a greater demon.

You screamed and screamed as your fire poured out of you. Your long hair turned white again as you lost control and you kept screaming until you collapsed on the ground. Your fire came back to you and your eyes closed.