We Found Love In A Hopeless Place (Zayn-AU)
Their lips were locked, passion flowing through both their veins. The temperature was shooting through the roof with her bare back pushed against the wall, his arms effortlessly cupping her thighs that were wrapped around his torso. She threw her head back and moaned with pleasure as he kissed her right under her ear. Any third person would say that these two were madly in love, but neither of them would accept it. The fear of falling in love made them believe that they were strong enough for a friends-with-benefits relationship. But they weren’t. At least he wasn’t.
Tell her Zayn. Tell her damn it! For once in your life, take the risk. Take the jump. He wanted to tell her. The fact is that even if you have a fear of falling in love, that’s all in your head. And unfortunately, the hearts cares two shits about asking the brain before falling in love. How else could you explain falling in love with people who love someone else? How else could you explain Romeo and Juliet? They knew very well that being in love with each other came with its consequences. They still went ahead and fell in love though, didn’t they? The heart has a mind of its own, and making that mind see logic, is impossible.
Similarly, he knew he loved her. He was so sure of it. He even knew that she loved him back. Even if they had both vowed to never fall in love. No falling in love, no calling each other loving names, no pet names, no breakfast in bed, in fact, no waking up in the same bed. Be gone before the sun rises was their found upon rule. And up until now, they both were fine with it. But Zayn wanted more. He wanted to wake up to her sleepy face, he wanted to be able to call her ‘babe’ and ‘darling’ and ‘love’. He wanted to be able to call her Becky without having to apologize about it to not make it awkward. He wanted to show her off as his girlfriend. He wanted to tell her he loved her. He wanted to be loved.
So many thoughts were rushing through his minds and his lips gently massaged hers.
I’m gonna do it. I’m gonna tell her. He decided it was time.
He slowly pulled away from the kiss to look deep into her eyes. In them, he saw love, scared love, but love nonetheless. But on her face, there was confusion.
“What’s going on?” she asked in her husky voice, confusion dripping form every word that left her mouth.
“Becky…” he said softly. She raised an eyebrow, trying to remind him of their pact. No pet names.
“Becky.” He said more firmly this time. “I love you.” he continued but in a much softer tone.
She was shocked. Her eyes shot wide open and she let her feet drop from around his torso. Suddenly realising her hands were still around his neck, she dropped them too.
He was looking at her with hopeful eyes. Slowly sensing that he wasn’t going to get the response he wanted, he took a step back, moving out of her personal space.
She looked at him gobsmacked. She said nothing for a few seconds, hoping Zayn would undo what he just did.
“You don’t.” she said, her voice shaky.
“I do.” He said confidently, surprising even himself.
“Zayn… we don’t fall in love. We…” she tried to reason with him. “You and me… we’re hopeless at this love thing ok? Which is why we find this better!” she said, gesturing between them. “No strings attached. No responsibilities.” She went on.
“Yeah I thought so too.” He said, holding her shoulders. “But even with all that, I still fell in love Becky. And I know you love me too.” He continued talking, his gaze so strong on hers.
