Secretly in Love with a Gangster

Chapter 36

Well umi-english ako ngayon.. mali-mali nga lang yung grammar hahahaha. But no seriously, magugulo utak niyo .. magiging kasing gulo ng utak ko it might end up " flash back sa isang flash back ? gets?mapupunta kase ako sa ibang timeline while narrating etc ganun so nandito ako sa current time then mapupunta sa past then middle of past and current :)) well.. that's life. Lol... malilito kayo sa mga POV ni lhyne ,just analyze then you'll see.. remember this words of mine it might help you understand my next chapters :D and the story as well..

[Lhyne's POV]

Totoo nga, ang oras ay mabilis talagang lumipas. I can prove it myself. Well, after all this time I thought he changed, I thought I'm gonna live a life of happiness, but no, I'm not. I know the truth and all of his lies but still, I try to live the life I wanted to be.. the life where I'm with him even though I know exactly that I'll regret it.

And here I am, trying to remember the stupid decision I made for the last 4 years.. But I promised to myself that I'm not going to regret that decision, ask me why, because that decision molds me to become a better person, the person who's living today until the end of her life. Nasa bokabularyo ko na yan, " kapag may desisyon kang gagawin panindigan mo.. ginusto mo yan eh. Di mo dapat pagsisihan, kundi, gumawa ka ng paraan para maging masaya para sa huli, di ka magsisisi. At least may natutunan ka, masaya ka pa. "

I keep telling that statement to myself even though I'm the one who created it and said it a million times to my friends and family. I guess, I can't help it lalo na kapag ikaw na yung nasa sitwasyon.

Sana dito na lang magtapos yung lahat.. at sana mapanindigan ko nga at sana di ko pagsisihan.

**

" Congratulations! Proud kami sa inyo mga graduates! I just hope that you'll find your suited course and job in the near future of your lives."

" Congratulations Ms. Lhyne, College Graduate ka na.. soon to be a teacher. Your students in the near future will be so lucky to have you.. "

" We are so pleased with your skills and ability but not only that, we are so impressed, the way you teach your students as well as your behavior and the way you socialize with your co-teachers.. I just want you to know that we want to give you a promotion...."

All of this was part of my past. And by the way, it's been a lot of disaster. I can still remember the day we graduated in highschool and in college, the day where I was so nervous but still happy standing with my beloved soon to be husband in front of the priest, well I guess it made us to be husband and wife now.

I got a job, I got promoted but still the problems keep coming into my life. There comes a time when I wake up and find myself in the hospital and sometimes, I find myself arguing with my husband... Well that's part of our life.. magtaka ka kung yung buhay mo ay puro pleasures, aba, di ka na buhay nasa heaven ka na... but still, we make up and the problem is solved.

Well maybe, you're still confused. What happened to james? What happened to steven? Who's this lucky guy to get hold of Lhyne's hand forever? I guess I'll go a little backwards..

*****

Silence. Silence is what we are hearing right now.

I don't know what to say. I'm afraid I'm going to hurt Steven but right now I know that it's already killing him. So I decided to tell him instead.

"Steven, I mean, tiffy I guess this is it..."

"..." he's not responding.

" I know that I might hurt you... "

" you already did." He said. His words striked me. I can't even swallow my own saliva, I can't even blink.

" It's hard for you to say it?" he asked, now looking in my direction. I nodded.

" don't worry. I get it and I understand. " I hugged him. That's the only thing that I can do. He did the same but before he released me, he whispered " we're done for. But I still love you, you know that..." I nodded even though I know that he won't see it. "... if he ever hurt you again, for this time, for the nth time, I'll surely take you back no matter what. But right now, I need to let you go, I need to set you free. Again. This is it.. Goodbye lhyne. G-Goodbye."

I kept my tears from falling but my eyes betrayed me. I can't help it. So I cried on his shoulder until there were no tears left.

I left Steven for James because this is what my parents want. OUR parents want. Fuck our feelings, their business comes first.

A lot of days and weeks and months had passed until I got over it.

****

" You may now kiss the bride."

I saw my mom crying then she wiped it immediately, afraid that I might see it. A lot of people congratulate me and James.

Pretty unlucky, am I? I end up marrying this gangster after all. But I guess its destiny. HAHAHA. Well destiny is a very dangerous enemy so you have to do what it says.

***

So that's it. ... That's how it went and ruined other people's lives.

James' Pov [ back to real and current time, you'll understand this story soon]

"Honey, natatandaan mo pa ba ung sinabi ko sayong may imemeet akong kaklase ko nung 4th year highschool ako? " tumango lang si Lhyne habang gumagawa ng lesson plan niya. " Aalis sana ako ngayon, ayos lang ba sayo? Kung hindi icacancel ko yung meeting naming magkaklase para sa ibang araw nalang."

She stood up then she put her arms around my neck, " it's okay Hon. It might be important. Who knows right? " then she kissed me on my lips, I returned the kiss. But then, nakarinig kami ng footsteps so we immediately released each other.

Kumatok si Stacie at pumasok sa kwarto namin, "ate, labas tayo, Gusto mo ?"

Before she could answer, I pushed her lightly towards her sister, "go ahead. Hang out with your friends too. Baka maistress ka hon. Ayoko pa namang nagkakasakit ka..."

Know what? Naging mas sweet ako sakanya after graduating high school.. ewan ko pero I found myself doing special things for her. Pero may guilt pa rin akong nararamdaman. Ewan. Sira ulo kasi ako... hanggang ngayon.

I parked my car immediately then ran towards the ticket booth.

" James ! Dito ! " she waved her hand..nang makalapit ako sa kanya, before avoiding it to happen, I found myself in her arms, she's kissing me torridly.

"It's been a while.... Ara."