Kisses on her Scars

Seeing is believing

Owen didn't let me go and I'm thankful for that. My one friend...one that I could call a friend, I finally had a friend that obviously cared for me. He took a bullet for me and watched over me at some of my weakest months of my life...now he is gone. I only knew him for two months but those two months showed that memories can be made instantly. It showed you can go through so much and it can all be turned in seconds. My thoughts were interrupted by a small knock on the door and the door opening slightly. "Dr, Mr. Gaven is ok to be seen now." the sound of his name made me cringe, but I desperately needed to see him with my own eyes to see if it was true. Owen helped me up and I crossed my arms over my stomach. I felt the urge to puke but fought against it. I followed the doctor to the operation room. I slowly walked in. There he was lying on the bed. The guy that risked his life for my own because he said I was to beautiful to die. His pale lifeless face scared me the most. His flippy blonde hair was now a mess and the thought of his grey eyes made tear slide slowly down my face. I walked closer to him and sat beside his bed. "I told you I wouldn't leave you..." I said, my voice barely over a whisper. My head sunk into my hands and his voice came to mind when I remembered the day he helped me for the first time. That day when he stopped Tony from hurting me more. That was the first time that I truly knew I could trust him. 

~~~Jace turned towards me. Tears were already falling down my face. He gently grabbed my hand and pulled me to the bathroom. I was motioned to sit on the edge of the bathtub and he grabbed a cloth. I watched as he got it wet from the tap water, the water steaming as it poured from the sink.  He walked over and slowly brought it to my face. I backed off and he looked at me in the eyes. "I wont hurt you".  ~~~

Then the day I woke up after being raped by Tony. When Jace and I made up our deal to escape. We created a friendship, a bond, a goal to succeed. That day was literally a day I was wiling to die. I wanted to die. I didn't want to suffer anymore. He gave me hope. He was my hope. Before the boss came back within those 3-4 weeks Jace and I got really close. We would play board games, listen to music, watch stupid movies when Tony was out. Then there was that night I will never forget. 

~~Tony was out at the clubs and told Jace he wouldn't be back till the next night. It was about one in the morning, Jace had fallen asleep at about 9. I was in the room laying on the bed humming to one of the songs Jace and I listened to yesterday, Miss Jackson. As I got to the middle of the song the door unlocked, and opened. I quickly looked over to see a messy haired blonde standing in the doorway. "Can I lay with you?" He asked in a sleepy yet alert voice. "Umm. Sure?" I asked more like a question than answering him. He flipped his hair out of his eyes and looked at me then down at the ground rocking back and fourth on his heels. "I...uh...had a nightmare..and cant sleep now." I smiled and his face looked so embarrassed. "Yea you can" he walked over and laid down on the bed. I sat with my legs crisscrossed facing him. "Wanna talk about it?" I asked quietly. He shook his head no and I left it at that because I could tell in his eyes he didn't like it and I wasn't going to push him to tell me. "Well what you wanna do then." I asked awkwardly. He shrugged and his eyes closed for a moment. I smiled to myself and rested my head in my palm of my hand as my elbow rested on my thigh. I closed my eyes and sat in silence, the only sound of wind outside was present. The sudden swift in the bed made me open my eyes and lift my head. Jace was now sitting up and staring into my eyes. "I want to try something." I was confused at first then everything escaped my mind when his lips connected with mine. I kissed him back and I felt him smile within it. When he pulled away I looked down and smiled. I looked up and he was looking at me with a smile tugging at his lips. I laughed at him trying not to smile and he laid down pulling me with him. Kissing me again~~

I pulled my head from my hands and stared at his lifeless body. I would never be able to share anymore memories with this boy. Like finishing high school, getting a job, getting married to someone someday...then the last thought made me think about what my doctor told me earlier and I burst into tears again. He wouldn't be here to see the one inside me grow and develop into a great human. He would have loved it. But they ruined it for him. Tony ruined his whole life that he had ahead of him. Jace told me that someday he wanted to be a fireman, and get married on the beach. He wanted to have 3 kids and he didn't care what gender as long as they were healthy. He wanted to get a house in California anywhere in California as long as he could be next to the water. He loved to surf, he said he use to surf with his friends before he got all mixed up in the work he did with the boss. But now he was here. In a hospital. In those nasty gowns, on a stupid hospital bed, and died... all because Tony. The thought of his name brought chills to my spine. He would never have a future, ever. He died too young. 

After awhile Owen contacted his parents and told them where we were and why. He walked out of the room and said he would be back as he was on the phone. I just simply nodded not caring about anything at the moment. The doctor came in and said that he contacted people and they were on there way up. I was allowed to stay of course. There was a knock on the door about 3 minutes after the doctor left and I turned to see a woman with grey hair, a man along side her. Then behind them was a guy and girl about 15 and 20. The guy was the older one and they walked in slowly. I just turned back around trying not to cry. I wiped the tears from my eyes and looked into my hands.

The older couple walked forward and stopped at the edge of his bed. I could see the breaking inside the woman's eyes. The man stood there silently and wrapped his arm around her waist. She then burst into tears and covered her mouth. The girl around the age of 15 walked forward and hugged the lady. I couldnt watch so I closed my eyes and tried to tune out her cry so I wouldnt cry myself. I didnt even notice the guy walk up until he touched the chair I was sitting in. "He was my cousin....Jace...We basically grew up together you know...How did you know him?" His voice was soft. "I...I um..he saved me, I was kidnapped for awhile and he saved me..." My voice cracked. "Are you Miah West?" The guy asked in shock. I nodded. "Wow he helped you? That's amazing." I sighed and nodded staring over at my hero. "Did you know him any other way?" I shrugged. "He was basically my best friend...my only true friend." He nodded. "Yea. My grandparents raised us. Us three." He said looking at his sister I was guessing. After that we were silent. 
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As 8:30 arrived. I talked to Jace's grandparents and we decided his funeral would be in 3 days so they could get his friends and family to come to California.  Owen's parents stayed home and told Owen to come home soon because it was late and we had school. Mrs. Gaven gave me her number and told me if I needed anything to call her. I told her everything earlier and she accepted me as one of her own grandchildren.  I was grateful for that. 

As Owen and I drove home. We stopped at McDonalds and grabbed something to eat. When we got home I was embraced in hugs. Jamie hugged me the longest. I decided I was tired so I walked up to my room, checked the babies, and laid in bed with a happy Daisy to see me. I was happy to be in my own bed and fell asleep almost as soon as my eyes shut.