Criminal -Neil Westfall-

Chapter Thirty Six

It was about one in the morning and I just finished my essay for my history class. I was all drained out from my school work. I knew I shouldn't send in my essay till tomorrow morning so I could read over it once more. So I saved it as a draft and shut my computer. I rub my forehead with my hands and let out a big yawn. The next thing I did is stand. 

I picked up all my books and put them in a stack before leaving the kitchen. I yawn once again. I slowly make my way down the hallway and then hear sniffing. I stop before I get to pass Jackson's room. Then I hear Neil's voice come from his room and I snail my way to be in front of his door way. I saw Neil on his knees in front of JackJack's empty twin bed. One of his hands were on his lap an the other was gently placed on the comforter that made his bed. Every once in awhile he would rub his hand back an more.

"I'm sorry this happened to you Jackson. I should've gotten out before we left. But all I knew was the club." He sniffed again. "All I had to do was make a deal and you would've still been running around and playing like the happy kid you were. Maybe it was best if you didn't know your big brother. Jail is where criminal's like me and the club belong. Yeah, maybe I would've died in there but I should've taken that chance for you buddy. I-" He quickly moved his free hand to cover his eyes as he cried more. "M-mom loved you kiddo. And I'm sorry I wasn't there to protect you or her from that awful man. I should've kick him out of mom's life a long time ago. He was a smart man, made it look like I did it all of it. He could've killed you Jackson and I'm sorry. I needed to protect you and mom, but I was too busy with the club's shit. I love you kid."

I didn't understand half of what Neil said but I needed to know. If he was confessing all of this to Jackson after he was gone instead of before, I really needed to know what he was talking about. 

I walk up behind him and slowly rest my hand on the top of his head. He turned his head a little to the left and then sat down on the floor completely. He cried softly while trying to pull me down for another night of comforting. I get down on my knees and he leans to his side placing his head on my chest. I didn't know if I needed to ask now but he wouldn't open up to me.

"Neil.. You need to tell me baby so I can help you get past this." I stroked his head as he kept softly crying on me. He shook his head and rubbed my leg getting higher and higher, kissing my neck a few times. I started to notice the only time he wanted to open up, he tries to have sex with so I wouldn't ask anymore questions. I push his hand off. "Neil, I mean it this time." 

"There is nothing to talk about. What I said to Jackson was something you shouldn't have heard. It was going to him only." I nod understanding.

"I know, but I want to help you. You won't talk to the club and you barely open up to me so I need to know. You won't even talk to Trevor anymore. I'm worried baby. "

"I'm fine, Kat. I just lost my brother because of myself. How would you feel?" He stood up and left the room without another word. I sigh starting to get frustrated. 

I get up fast and chase after him. He was in the his bedroom, I pushed him a little rough. "Don't you see I'm trying to fucking help you?!" Everything happened so fast. He slammed me hard against the wall, pinning me there.

"Touch me again! See what the hell happens Kat!" He yelling in my face.

"Or what! You'll kill me like you killed Kyle and how you will do it to Andy once you find him, right?! You probably killed other's!"

"I'm so sick and tired of you trying to get all this information out of me!-" He stopped starting to think of something. I looked at him fearless. "Kat, where were you after I cheated on you?" 

"What's that have to do with this?" He slammed his fist on the wall, having it make a loud noise. I jump in fright now. 

"I asked you a damn question." Did I bring this out of him?

"I was with someone." His eyes pierced down at him waiting for more. I didn't answer, honestly I didn't know if I should tell him I was with Andy. After all he was the one who killed Jackson.

"KAT! WHO THE HELL-"

"Jeremy!" He took a deep breath and started to relax. He put his hand on my cheek and I teased up. 

"Babe, plea-" 

"Neil. I don't want to hear it." I gently push him away so he wouldn't get mad again. Once he was moved I start walking away.

"I love you and I'm sorry. I'll tell you everything!" I stop and turn around to look at Neil. "I will. Just please stay." I saw the guilt in his eyes. I nod, ready to listen. He walks up to me and put both of his hands on my cheeks. I place my hands on his waist.

"Tomorrow morning okay? I just want to sleep right now. And you rest too." I close my eyes just giving in.

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Neil took me to the table ready to tell me the truth after all this time. I sat next to him, I didn't want to wait anymore. He sighed and I started to ask my questions.

"Why wasn't your mom and dad at Jackson's funeral?" He sighs again. The pain in his eyes seeped through. 

"Jackson's dad died when he was only two. He was in the military." I nod.

"You don't have the same dad?" He shook his head. "Where is your dad?"

"Dead." 

"Your mom?"

"Dead." I was starting to get lost.

"How did she die?" I take his hand in mine so he doesn't feel alone. 

"My dad killed her. After Jackson's father passed, a few years later our mom got back together with my dad." He squeezed my hand.

"How did your dad die?"

Before he could even answer there was a knock on the door. I stand looking at Neil. He was looking back at me. I go to get the door and it was Jeremy. Neil walks up behind me and had this look on him. Like he knew he was coming at this time. Is that why Neil said to talk about this in the morning? Because he knew?