Criminal -Neil Westfall-

Chapter Forty One

"H-how did this happen? How could you let that happen?" Trevor asked with his hands on his head. No one went off to comfort Josh which made me feel even worse then I do now. I sigh, not knowing how to answer the questions they threw at me. "Neil!"

"I don't know, okay! I let my guard down! And for that we lost one of the best brothers we've ever had. I can't say sorry anymore.." It went dead silent. It was driving me insane. I scratch my head roughly while growling. I couldn't take the silence.

"Where's his body?" Kellin looked at me starting to tear up. I did the same. It was too hard for me to open up to them, I kept thinking of Josh and everyone else. They loved Tyler, he was probably everyone's favorite.

"At hi-his house." A tear fell from his face and his hand flies to cover up his pain on his face. I take a deep breathe trying not to cry.

"I can't believe you Neil."

"Trevor, I know. I can't bare to look at myself, I hate myself. Tyler never killed. He did nothing bad. Ever. I screwed his life up by having join the club, I should've told him to scram." I looked at everyone, half of their heads were hanging down and the others have looked at me heartless or in pain.

"Does Kat know what you did? Why you are here?" Another brother asked.

I shook my head then whispered, "She knows a member died but she doesn't know anything else." I rub the bridge of my nose.

"I'm going to find Josh." Trevor stood up and walks away slowly. He didn't look at me once he passed. They all gave me glares and judgments. I would've done the same.

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Trevor

I go into every room looking for Josh. I found him in the room Tyler was in the most, the tech room. Josh and Tyler have been friends since the longest I can remember. Even before the club. I sat next to him in the empty chair. He wasn't even crying, I shed a tear for losing Tyler. Why wasn't he?

"I can't forgive him Trevor." I nodded understanding.

"I know you can't . I don't think many of us can." I sit back listening to him spill his feelings out on the table.

"He didn't deserve it, none of us deserve this life Trevor. You don't, I don't. We are just waiting around here to die. Anyone of our enemies can kill us, today, tomorrow. I want out brother." My head shot up, I shook my head.

"You know you can't do that son." He took his hat off his head and ran his fingers threw his hair. "You know we love you and we love Tyler, but we all die in life. Some sooner then others. Tyler knew what he was getting himself into once joining, son." I pat his shoulder then stand.

"I guess, but I can't be in the club."

"You have no choice kid. You're in this for the long hall." I walk out of the tech room knowing he needed more time. He needed to get the thought of leaving the club out of his brain. For now I would keep this a secret from the others.

I walk into the room and everyone was quiet. Neil was drinking straight Vodka out of the bottle. I take it away from him knowing he drank too much already. He let out a grunt and I rolled my eyes. "Enough, Tyler is dead. We had other's die before. We made it through that and we will make it through this death. He isn't here but he isn't forgotten. Remember that. Now we will get Jim to go get the body and put it in a casket then bring it too us for a funeral in a few days." I took charge this time instead of Josh.

It was nearly 10 and everyone was heading to bed after the tragic day we had. I stayed awake, Neil was drinking his guilt away out back. It was too dark for anyone to notice who he was nor see who he was. I grab a beer for myself and head out to where he was. I crash next to him, he stayed staring straight.

"Don't do this to yourself Neil. We need you to be a leader. We need you to stay strong. We-"

"No one needs me here. I fucked over the club so much. I killed Tyler and you guys have police tailing your asses everyday." I shook my head.

"Neil, you didn't kill Tyler and it wasn't your fault about your family. It was that crazy fucking dad of yours. He fucked us over." He chugged the rest of his beer then opened a new one. He had about four or five bottles of unopened beer next to him. And two he had already drunk on the other side.

"I can't."

"You can. And you will. I believe in you." He gave the weakest smile.

"Kat hasn't-" As he started talking he got a phone call. He gave a better smile and answered it. I couldn't hear her but the way Neil was talking, it wasn't so good. I run my fingers through my hair. Neil shot up and yelled over the phone.

"What the fuck Kat!!" He walked away to talk in private and I check my phone. Josh texted me.

Josh- "I'm sorry brother but I can't. Not without Tyler. I can't stay anymore. You are always family to me. I left hours ago after we talked. Please forgive me. Please don't find me. It was an honor having all of you as a family. I love you and all my brother's"

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The picture is of Trevor by the way.

I also realized that I made Trevor call Josh Kid and son, but in real life Trevor is 23 and Josh is 28.

~XOXO~