Treat You Better

Chapter 26

Chapter 26

My heart is beating so fast right now I think I'm going to be sick. I feels like something is about to come up my throat it was probably my bitchiness telling me that I was being a bitch to everyone after I found out about Aaron. Still resting my head on my knees with my eyes closed I heard several people coming into the room.

'You got this. All you have to do is apologize and hope that they don't hate you for ignoring them' I thought to myself

Looking up I said the first thing that came to mind. "Hi guys."

'Really Monique that's all you could think of ' I said mentally scolding myself

"Hey there my caramel cappuccino" Briana said nervously smiling at me. "Listen Moni we wanted to come and apologize for what we did. It wasn't right for us to keep something like that from you. We feel really bad about it so can you please please please forgive us"

"You guys have nothing to apologize about if anything I owe you guys more of an apology" I said

"But you didn't do anything" she said shaking her head

"Yes I did. I'm uhh I'm sorry for everything that's happened over the past two days. I shouldn't have left the way I did not should I have ignored you guys. I was being dumb and it wasn't right for me to be that way towards you guys."

"Moni you have nothing to apologize for its everyone's fault but yours" Chris said

"But it's my fault everything happened if I wasn't there to make Aaron upset then you guys would still have a guitarist and Shawn wouldn't have gotten all bruised up from getting into two fights with him. I'm so sorry Shawn" I said averting my eyes to the floor

"You have nothing to apologize for do you understand? It's my fault" he said. His voice was just as raspy and drained out as mine was. I grew nervous when he got up and walked over towards me and bent down so that he was at eye level with me.

"None of this is anyone else's fault but mines and None of this is your fault especially. None of it is okay. I was the one who promised everyone to stay quiet about Aaron cheating on you. Why did I do it? because I didn't wanna see you get hurt. Trust me I regretted making that promise seconds after. Everyday that I spent with you I regretted it. Every time I thought about you I regretted it. Every time I looked at you I regretted it. I wanted to tell you so bad but I couldn't because I didn't know how to without hurting you. Ive regretted a lot when I'm with you. I regret not protecting you from him after you told me he was abusing you. I regret not going after you when you left. I regret hurting you. I regret making you tear up right now because I never want to see you cry especially its over something I did all I want is for you to be happy all the time because I love seeing you smile and hearing you laugh.But my biggest regret is making you feel like this is your fault when it's not." He said staring at me in the eyes. I have a wave of emotions going through me right now. These past couple of days have been hell for me all I wanted was to be able to talk to him but I was to stubborn to. Looking at him I realized how he had not only sounded exhausted but in his physical appearance he also looked tired and worn out. Listening to everything he said I began to cry because I realized how much I need him. I just hope he still needs me like he said he did yesterday.

"I understand if you don't want to talk to me anymore after this but can you please say something!?" He said nervously

Not knowing what to say I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him as close as he could be to me. Resting my head on his shoulder I said