Treat You Better

Chapter 31

Chapter 31

Moni's POV

Why the hell does this keep happening to me? Why do I go for guys who will eventually hurt me. This hurts a lot it  more then it did after Bobbi it hurts a million times more then Aaron. The worst part about it is that Shawn and I weren't even dating.  'Who the hell is this girl that Shawn likes?' I kept asking myself as everyone crowded into the room to talk about some adventure time in Florida. I was holding back so many tears my heart felt like it was swelling up in the most painful way possible. I hate this so much. I hate this feeling of jealously that I feel over a girl who has the attention of the guy who has all of my attention. He has my attention so much that I didn't even notice that he was interested in a girl. But that's nobody's fault but mine.

No longer wanting to be in the room I excused my self and walked out avoiding looking up because I knew that if I had my eyes would've went straight to Shawn and I wouldn't have been able to hold back my tears any longer. I wasn't really paying attention to anything they were saying anyways.

"Oh alright. Well I'm gonna take a shower and you can all talk it over. Anything you guys choose is fine with me" I said trying to hide the sadness in my voice. Shitting the door behind me I took a few steps before I heard the door swing open. Next thing I know I was face to face with the person I wanted to avoid the most. I couldn't help the anger and sadness that had built up inside me only minutes ago

"Hey" Shawn said

"Hi"

"Are you okay"

"Yup, are you?" I said giving him to quickest answer I could because I knew I was bound to pop off any second now

"Mm... yea. It's just you seem ups-"

"I'm fine okay. Don't you have something better to do?" I said as I rolled my eyes. How can he be so calm right now I just found out he likes someone after we've been cuddling and getting extremely close for the past few weeks. We even almost kissed a few times. And I'm glad we didn't because I would feel even more like a piece of shit

"No, what could I possibly have to do right now?" He asked as he furrowed his perfect eyebrows.

Avoiding making eye contact with him until now I felt myself closer on edge I could feel the tears threatening to come out and it pissed me off. I hate crying because it shows weakness.?But most importantly I hated crying because of a guy. The thought alone pissed me off more and I was no longer sad but I was pissed off. I felt my whole body starting to heat up. No longer wanting to be around him at the moment I looked him dead in his eyes and coldly said "The same thing you do when we would watch a movie"

Walking to my bunk I got my clothes and practically ran into the bathroom. The second I closed the door I felt tears pouring down my face. After a few minutes I decided it was time to stop so I stripped my clothes off and got into the shower where not even seconds later I was crying again. All I wanted to do was go to my bunk and go to sleep. Why the hell am I being like this? We weren't even dating and here I am crying like we just broke up or something. Damn I hate this feeling.

I prayed that no one was anywhere near my bunk so that I'd be able to quickly sneak into it and knock out. After I put on a hoodie and some pajama shorts I Opened the door cautiously and poked my head out to check if the coast was clear. Lucky for it was so I took off in a quick fast walk and jump directly into my bunk. I layed there looking at nothing for about 5 minutes until I heard people talking so I turned to my side and acted as if I were sleep. Unfortunately for me I felt my eye lids get heavy and I began to feel myself fall asleep that was until I heard my curtain open and I felt a body moving closer to mine.