The Perfect Guy Lost

Wonderland

We was at the recording studio as the guys was recording a few songs they had already made. Danny and I was sharing a few lines along with a few of old songs the guys sung with Deuce. "Goodnight, sleep tight, don't let the dead bite. Wrap a rope around your head and watch as you take flight." Danny finished as I sat there smiling. Matt was sitting next to me, nudging me. We was in the booth but we was REALLY quiet. They continued a few other songs and they soon took a break.

Matt and I continued to sit there as he laughed. "So what is it like Wonderland?" "It's.." I got up and started to smile looking at everything. "Wonderful." I looked at the old lyrics and smiled. "How about.. We do this song." I held up the lyrics as he sat down and grabbed his drumsticks.

Matt started it as I grabbed a spare guitar and started to sing the song.

I'm holding on so tightly now,
My insides scream so loud
They keep watching,
Watching me drowned,
How did it come to this
How did it come to this?
How did I know it was you?
It was a bad dream?
Asphyxiated and watch me bleed
The life support was cut,
The knot was too tight,
They push and pull me but
They know they'll never win

Throw it all away throw it all away
I keep on screaming but
There's really nothing left to say

So get away, just get away
I keep on fighting but
I can't keep going on this way
I can't keep going,
Can't keep going on like this,
They make me sick,
And I get so sick of it,
Cause they won't let me,
They won't let me breath,
Why can't they let me be?

I smiled as Matt nodded. We continued to sing and play.

Why can't they let me be?
Why don't I know what I am?
I force this hate into my heart
Cause it's my only friend,
My lips are sewn shut,
I watch my self bleed,
They push and pull me
And it's killing me within
Throw it all away throw it all away
I keep on screaming but
There's really nothing left to say
So get away, just get away
I keep on fighting but
I can't keep going on this way
I can't keep going,
Can't keep going on this way
I can't keep going,
Can't keep going on this way

My heart beat stumbles and
My back bone crumbles
I feel is it real as
The lynch mob doubles?
They want blood and they'll kill for it,
Drain me and they'll kneel for it
Burn me at the stake met
The devil made the deal for it.
Guillotine dreams, yeah,
They're guillotine gleams,
The blood of they're enemies
Watching while they sense me.
Sentencing ceased, sentence
Diseased and watch them bask
In the glory of their holy disease
Throw it all away throw it all away
I keep on screaming but
There's really nothing left to say
So get away, just get away
I keep on fighting but
I can't keep going on this way

I keep on running,
I keep on running
I keep on running
But I can't keep
Going on this way
I keep on running
I keep on running
But I can't keep
Going on this way

I finished, panting for air. Matthew cheered as I looked back at the booth to see everyone. George, Dylan and Jordan with their mouths open; Danny sipping on his drink and Jorel dropping something he was about to eat.

I sat back down, still catching my air. "You did amazing Alice!" Matt picked me up and spun me around. I giggled, "It was nothing.." I coughed. "How did you get your voice low for George's part?" He asks. "It hurts but I can change the pitch." I started talking like a guy, coughing again.

"Don't do that or your voice will end up like my voice." I nodded. "Back to songs?" I giggled. When we finished with the album we had to name it. "Charlie is da best!!" Jordan laughs. "About underworld?" Jorel spoke up. "Let Wonderland decide." Matt smiled and Danny nodded. "Um.. How about. Notes from the Underground?" I whisper spoke. "That's good." George smiled.

Everyone nodded and that was the name of the album. We put all the tracks in order we wanted and made a few copies for ourselves and whoever we wanted to give. I got three albums for Ry, Lee and Victoria. I didn't like Lee and Victoria a whole bunch, and neither did they like me. I sent them to Florida and they should be there after two days.

I sat on the couch as everyone smoked and drunk. I wasn't someone who did any of that and Danny was a little on it. Matt smiled and had goggly eyed me. I rolled my eyes knowing he was drunk. "Hey Alice, how about you join me!" He smiled holding a glass of whiskey. I looked at how much it was, took it and sipped it. The taste was bitter, and was gone after. I shook my head handing it back to Matt. "Why not join?" Dylan passed me a blunt.

I took it, tried it, not a big fan of it so i passed it back to him. Jordan starting to sing Everywhere I go as people started to join it. It became all muffled and soon no words as everyone slowly passed out but Danny, Matt and I. "I'm gonna go get a drink." I got up and walked out to the machine getting me a bottled water.

"You sung nice back there." I heard a quiet but yet happy voice.