My Beta Mates

Chapter 4:Survival

Waking up took a lot of work. My whole soul was hurting. I didn't want anything from anyone, all I wanted was to be left alone. Feelings of rejection and unwantedness were rolling around in my head. But Ares fueled me to go further, and not let such matters get to me. Ares had this sense of pride that I could not quite place and it was unsettling especially for someone who does not remember who they are. Finally dragging myself out of bed, I went into the bathroom to do all the necessary morning duties and prepared myself for an eventful day. Ares took over and I looked in the mirror and saw my blank uncaring expression. Well it seems he is super good at this. I picked out a black outfit to fit my mood and because it seems it suits me well, I would do myself in this outfit. That's what those mates of mine need to see, me being very very hot and not giving a f*ck what they think. I walked out into the fresh cooling morning air and made my way to the alpha's house. Along the way I got looks from people mostly because they don't know me, but some from interested women. If only I didn't have two mates who were men.
Once I got to the house the Alpha assigned me a guard of some sorts, some guys who is in line to be third in command. Luca was his name and man if I didn't have two very hot mates I would totally tap him. Luca and I have the same classes the whole day and it seems he will be stuck by my side for a very long time. "So where are you from? " Asked Luca, his voice sounding rough yet smooth. I don't want to give him any ideas but I couldn't help myself he is super hot. Not as hot as my mates but hot non the less,maybe he could be my second chance at this mate business I mean I could fuck him well into tomorrow if he asked. "I don't know where I'm from you know with the memory loss and stuff" I whispered slowly. He looked away this time finally I got him to shut up and leave me alone. My mates chose that time to walk in, they looked in my direction and continued like they didn't even know me. A sharp pain hit me in my chest but I just gritted my teeth, I didn't want anyone to know that I'm in pain especially them. "Good morning father" Their voices sounding like smooth velvety chocolate rolling off their tongues and of course I got hot and bothered but this time I won't let them break me. I kept repeating it in my head that I didn't even notice that it was time to go to school. "Hey man you've been somewhere else come back now" Luca was snapping his fingers in my face. "I'm cool I'm cool let's go" "They are your mates right" Luca said dejected. I just nodded not wanting to talk about it and Luca saw that and just left me to my woes. Its okay Raphael I will be strong for you. Ares said in my head, I knew that moment that no matter what my wolf was with me. Luca led me out to his car and it was beautiful. A black mustang with two gray line through the center, it was a beast and man was it a machine to ride in. I could do with a car like this. When we got to school I slipped on my glasses and the act was just beginning. The school building was beautiful and old fashioned bit in a way that showed that the building had history. I walked beside Luca and man I got looks from everyone some were fearful others lustful and so even hateful but I chose to pay them no mind at all. Luca took me to the secretary's office to collect my schedule. "looks like we have only one class together but don't worry I'm sure you will enjoy school" And that's what I did for the most part because avoiding my mates was becoming harder every day. I knew that I would have to get over them how? That's what I don't know.