It's Not So Easy

chapter 11

"I can't believe you would do this! you were never my friend, ever! no friend would ever dream of doing something like that."

I can't believe what Axl is saying. he's really pissed. I finally gave up and told him about my relationship with Alicia. it's getting really serious and I just want everyone to know now.

all the guys knew, except for Axl and Izzy, so it wasn't really that much of a surprise.

"Get out!" He says as he points his finger to the door.

"I don't understand why you're acting like this. it's not like you've never done this to one of us, because you have! hypocrite!"

"yeah, but I dated her. there's a hugeeee difference! I really didn't expect this from you Duff. maybe Slash or Steven, but not you!"

"Hey!" Slash and Steven say at the same time.

"don't bring them into this!" I say. "this problem is no ones business but mine, and yours."

"whatever dude I just don't want to kill you, so please, GET THE FUCK OUT!"

I walk into my room, grab some of my things and "get the fuck out!" just like he said. after all, I really don't feel like dying.

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"Duff, I thought we talked about this. we said we'd tell him together." Alicia says while looking at me with her mean face.

"I know babe, I know. but Axl and Steven were talking about how they each had girlfriends and how happy they were, and how Izzy was really starting to get into this one chick Rachel that he's talking to. they even called me and Slash pathetic because we can't get girlfriends!"

"and I'm sorry too, I'm sorry that you had to do it alone Duff. I love you. I wish I was there to help you defend yourself."

Alicia's POV

i know that when Axl is mad, you cannot talk to him. it's like talking to a brick wall. and of course his way is the only way. so I feel so bad for Duff, trying to stand up to Axl all by himself. that's a frightening thought. I tried it myself once, and that did not work out.

I love Duff so much, I want to spend the rest of my life with him. But, I don't want him to loose his friends or his band. They are really taking off too. Appetite releases in a few weeks, and i would hate to see Duff out of the band before their first record comes out.

I really need to come up with something. maybe I can talk to Slash, and make him get through to Axl. they're pretty close anyway.

All I want more than anything is to see Duff happy, and I know without his friends, he would never be happy.

Duffs POV

I guess I'll be crashing at Allies for a few days, or at least until Axl wants to work things out. if he even does. once you make Axl mad, there's really no going back. i fucked up. but I just love her so much. she changed me, my life, everything about me. I couldn't imagine my life without her. if I didn't have her, I really don't know what I'd do.

we're setting on the couch, and it's around 2:30am now. Alicia is laying on my lap, while I'm setting up watching a movie she picked out. I'm not really paying attention, I'm too busy lost in my own thoughts. I love my friends. even Axl, even though he's the biggest pain in the ass I've ever met. he's my brother. I really should apologize, but I don't even know if he would accept my apology.

"Duff, are you there? are you listening?" Alicia says as her hands wave in my face. "oh yeah, sorry I was just thinking."

"anyway, I'm really tired. I'm gonna go to bed." she says while getting up off of the couch, walking towards her bedroom.

"wait up!" I say as I run after her.

we lay on the bed looking at each other.

"you know, I love the guys, and I love you too. but if this means loosing you, then fuck them. I can find another band, other friends, but I can't find another the one." i say as I stroke my fingers through Allies hair. "I love you with all my heart, and no one will ever change that."

"I love you, Michael Andrew Mckagan. more than I've ever loved anyone in my 18 years of life, soon to be 19!" she says with a grin. her birthday is the same day that we're gonna release our first record. July 21st.

"I want this, I want you, I want every part of you." she whispers into my ear. "I'm ready."

"ready for what?" even though I know what she means.

"I'm ready to make love to you." she says with a kiss on my cheek. we've been dating for about 7 months now, and I respect that she's a virgin and wanted to wait until the right time.

"okay baby, then let's make love!" I say as I roll over on top of her.

she takes my shirt off and throws it on to the ground, I do the same to her. we then start to kiss, and then I make my way down to her neck.

Alicia's POV

im so happy, I'm so happy this is with him. I'm so happy that we waited until now to do it. the night everyone found out that were a true couple, the night he stood up for our love. it couldn't be more perfect.

he un snaps my bra, revealing my breasts. he kissed them gently. he stands up to go get a condom. "hurry back, can't leave me waiting all night!" I say with a laugh. "oh you can bet that I definitely won't be making you wait all night!" he says as he takes off his pants.

he jumps onto the bed, making me bounce, and gets right back on top of me. he takes my my shorts off, revealing my black lacy thong. "Damn baby, you know I love it when you wear these. but for tonight, they're gonna have to go." he says has he pulls them of with his teeth. Duff Mckagan is a literal sexgod.

a few seconds later, I feel him inside me. it hurts, but that's to be expected. my older sister Elizabeth said that it hurts the first few times. but the pain is gone. see what I mean? he is a sexgod.

"oh duff!" I say as I begin to reach my climax, and I'm pretty sure he is too. "fuck Alicia, you're so fucking tight baby, this is amazing." I let out the loudest scream I think I ever have in my life. "OH MY GOD, that was amazing!" I say. Duff plops over beside me, and our sweaty bodies lay beside each other.

"I love you so much Allie bug." he says. that's a new name. "I know I tell you that so often, but it feels like I can't say it enough."

"I love you too Duffy bug!" I say back as I peck his lips.

after I know it, Duff is snoring. I'm so lucky to have him. I kiss his cheek and whisper "goodnight baby, I love you." even though he can't hear me. Then I lay my head on his chest, and go to sleep.