It's Not So Easy

chapter 13

we released Appetite a few weeks ago. it's doing okay, kinda how we expected it to be going. we just need some patience, and hopefully we'll be selling copies left and right in no time.

im beyond happy that Axl got past the whole deal with Alicia and I dating, even though we're fighting. but anyway, I would have been fucked if he didn't. Axl seems to be really happy with Erin, I mean I've never seen him act that way. maybe he's even in love.

Alicia has been acting so weird lately, like she doesn't even wanna talk to me, which hurts a lot because all I wanna do is talk to her. yeah, I've been busy with Appetite and all but nothing comes before her. she's my main priority. I haven't even stayed at her place in a week. just sharing a bed with Slash every night at the apartment.

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Alicia's POV

I miss duff so fucking much. he hasn't stayed at my place in a week, he probably thinks I'm pissed off, or that I don't love him anymore. it's just, I can't tell him. I really can't. I want to, but I know he will be angry. especially since Appetite just came out, and they'll be playing gigs every night. I know as soon as they get the least bit of fame, he'll leave me, and I'm not prepared for that. I'm just so stressed, I really don't know what to do at this point.

Duffs POV

we have a gig tonight at The Roxy, but I think I'm gonna go to Alicia's and check up on her. I've been worried lately.

"Alicia, are you here?!" I shout as I walk through the door.

"yeah, in here."

that's strange, she's in bed. it's like 6:00 pm, what the fuck??

"baby, why are you in bed? do you feel bad or something?"

"I haven't been able to keep anything down all day, but I'm so hungry." she says in a sleepy voice.

"awh baby, that makes me so sad." I say as I kiss her forehead.

"I'm sorry I've been acting so weird lately Duff. I love you."

"I love you too baby, and no need to apologize." I say as I run my fingers through her long, brown hair.

"will you please, please stay with me tonight? I miss you baby."

"of course, you know I will. I have to go get ready for the show tonight, but before I do, is there anything I can do for you?"

"can you get me some ice cream please?" she says with a smile.

"yes baby. oh and try and keep this down, for me." I say as I press a kiss against her cheek.

now the guys and I are off to the show.

"Holy shit guys! look at all these people here!! are you guys positive they're here for us?" Steven says as he spins his drumsticks between his fingers.

"I'm 100% positive, considering we're the only band playing tonight, Stevie." Slash says as he rubs stevens head, messing his fluffy hair up.

the crowd was awesome, I think it's because we released appetite and now people could buy the record and listen to it, which I guess made them like us even more.

more people seemed to know the lyrics, you should've seen the crowd when we did "Welcome To The Jungle," it was so crazy!

after the show, the guys and I have a few drinks, but nothing to get me hammered because I get to stay with my baby tonight, and I want to remember every second of it.

I go to the apartment to take a quick shower so I don't smell like straight up ass when I go to Alicia's. I don't need to make her more sick than she is.

I get to Alicia's only to find her still in her bed. I'm really worried, she's pretty much been in bed all day.

"baby, im here. how're you feeling?" I say as I set on the edge of the bed.

"not good at all." she says as she rolls over to face me.

I hate seeing my baby like this, it makes me want to cry.

"I need to shower, but I can't make myself get out of bed." she says as she sets up.

"come on baby." I say taking her hand.

"where are we going?"

"to give you a bath."

Alicia's POV

I feel so bad for not telling him. he takes such good care of me. he's seriously giving me a bath. he's too good to me actually.

Duff reaches over the bathtub to fix the temperature just right.

"come on baby." he says as he takes my clothes off and helps me into the bathtub.

I don't know how much longer I can keep this in. he deserves to know.

Duffs POV

"so what hurts baby? when did you start feeling bad?"

"I keep throwing everything up Duff, and like almost a week ago." she says as I wash her hair.

"what!?! why didn't you tell me! I could have took care of you!"

"duff, I don't know how else to tell you so I'm just gonna say it, and please don't be mad."

oh gosh, I hate when people say stuff like that.

"Im late."

"what do you mean, you're late?" I say confused.

"my period duff, it's late."

holy fuck. I'm no expert on female stuff, but I do know when a girl says she's late it could possibly mean she's pregnant.

"okay, why would I be mad?" I say as I rinse the shampoo out of her hair.

"because Duff, this obviously wasn't expected, I'm only 19, and you're gonna be a big rockstar in a band." Alicia says as she puts her head into her knees and starts to cry.

"why would you think that? of course this wasn't expected, but that doesn't mean I'm mad baby. do you even know if you're pregnant?"

"no, but I have a feeling. I've been throwing up nonstop. I mean maybe it's because of stress or something but I highly doubt that."

"then we'll go to the doctor first thing tomorrow and see, okay?" I say as I squeeze her hair to let the water drip out, and help her out of the bathtub.

"oh yeah and as for me being some rockstar, we don't even know that yet. you're my first priority and always will be baby." then I give her a kiss.

"I love you, Duff. thank you for all you do for me."

"I love you too baby, and I'm just doing my job."