Lost

How could no one tell? How can I be breaking inside and no one notices? 

I don't want to feel like this. I don't want to wake up every morning knowing that any minute I could break down. I don't want to go to sleep thinking about how stupid and pointless the world is. 

How does no one see around my fake smile? I'm downing in my own thoughts and no one gives a damn. Because I don't matter. 

I float around  the world until I die. That is how life works. You are born, you live you die.

There is nothing special about me. I'm not going to change the world. I'm not going to save a life. I might as well not even be here. I mean what am I supposed to do? I disappoint my parents every time I do anything. My friends look at me with such pity I know that they just don't drop me because they feel bad for me. My brother is getting sick of me and i just don't know what to do. 

That is until he came. He showed me what it is like to really live. To breath free for once. To be happy. To be found. 

Hey guys, 

So I got this idea, it is sort of based on me (well apart from the meeting Harry Styles... that won't ever happen), or more based on my feelings. 

I have anxiety and I'm pretty sure I have depression and sometimes just writting helps me cope. 

So I won't be updating like every day, just when I;m feeling particularily lost (which is most of the time). 

So if you are sesitive to depression or anxiety I wouldn't read this. 

Thank you guys so much for reading, I know this is mostly for me to let out some stress but your reads and votes are greatly appriciated. 

And don't be afraid to comment! I love talking to you guys! <3 

I can never thank you guys enough. So thank you for everything you do. I don't know what I would do without the Wattpad community I have grown to love and depend on. 

Thank you for being awesome. 

I love you <3 

- E