Unraveling Who We Are

11: Not Pool Time

Emery's view

Last night was fun. It was something I desperately needed to get my mind in a better place. I'm pretty sure Gracen wasn't that scared when watching horror movies, but I liked having her close to me. However, truth or Dare took a weird turn at the end. When Gracen said she had her eye on someone and Clare suggested Kai, I got sad. Why does Kai get the one girl I like? He gets girls every week and uses them, I don't want that for Gracen.

Then later Clare gave Gracen and I her bed to sleep in which sucked. Not that I didn't want to be in the same bed as her, it's just a problem for me. I either can't sleep and move too much or get night terrors. I don't want to prevent Gracen from getting sleep and I'm scared of having a night terror in front of her. I don't want Gracen to be afraid of me or pity me.

Later that night I just couldn't go to sleep. I was so afraid of the nightmares. After starring up at the ceiling, I just had to get up and go somewhere else. The silence was just too much and if I would have stayed there any longer I would have gone insane. I ended up sitting near the counter in the kitchen and heard movement behind me. When I turned I saw it was Gracen I calmed down a little. She asked if I was okay and I told her I just had trouble sleeping. Which wasn't far from the truth. We sat there for a while and I kept trying to tell her what was on my mind, but I couldn't form the words to explain it to her.

There are so many thoughts flying around in my head at the second and I can't focus on one at all, but that's what it's like with ADHD. It's a whirlwind of going from one thought to the next and next until you completely get off task and are constantly frustrated and disappointed in yourself in the end. I just couldn't keep it to myself. I had to tell someone before I felt like I was going to explode, so I blurted it out to Gracen. I told her it all and it felt nice for once to not keep it in.

She didn't say anything, and I liked that. I liked that she didn't ask or pressure me to say more. All she did was grab my hand. It felt reassuring and in a way made me felt safe without having to say anything.

After a while we went back to bed. It took me a while longer to sleep, but it helped that Gracen moved closer and held on to my arm. I finally fell asleep and it was peaceful.

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Gracen's view

The next morning, I woke up and felt so refreshed. I noticed that my hands were wrapped around someone though. I had Emery sleeping in my arms, and it was the best thing to wake up to. She looked adorable, but then I remembered we aren't together, we are just friends and I tried to softly and quietly remove my arms from around her and get out of bed.

A few minutes later both Clare and Emery woke up. And let me tell you one thing, Emery looked cute as fuck. I didn't think someone could look that good when they woke up, but Emery could. Her hair was messy, but wavy and she was rubbing her eyes to get them used to the sunlight coming through the window.

"Good morning," I said smiling at them.

"Morning," Emery croaked out in a sleepy voice. If Claire wasn't here, I would have probably run over to kiss Emery because her morning voice was sexy as hell, but I contained myself.

We went to have breakfast and who knew Emery could make some fricking delicious pancakes. Which made up for burning the eggs. Don't ask, because I have no idea how she did that. Since it was so hot, Clare asked,

"Hey, do you guys want to go in the pool,"

Since I was dying from the heat, I immediately said yes. I went to go change into this cute bikini I bought a week ago and jumped in the water. At first it was freezing, but I got better after a few minutes. Then Clare came running out in her bikini and jumped in as well. Emery finally came out, but with a light shirt where the sleeves were at her elbows and all she did was put on a pair of jeggings that she rolled up a little. She sat down on the edge to put her feet in only.

"Ughh, its hot Em. Come in the water. No one here cares about the scars, okay. Tell her, Gracen," said Clare.

I was taken aback for a second. Scars? What scars? From the car accident? I realized I didn't answer right away and said,

"Yeah. Scars make you look badass," I replied, giving Emery a reassuring smile.

"Plus, you got tattoos covering the scars. The tattoos look so beautiful, it's a shame to hide those, Emery," added Clare.

Wait.... hold up. Tattoos? Oh my God, the thought of Emery with tattoos popped into my head and I like it. Emery just got like 100 times hotter now. Yup, I have a think for girls with tattoos.

"What! You have tattoos and I had no idea? You have to show me!" I said.

Emery laughed and looked directly at me and said,

"Maybe one day if you're lucky,"

"Wow, such a tease, Emery," I replied.

"Only to you," she replied. I don't know why, but the moment she said that I got goosebumps. It sounded sexy coming from her. Wow, I think she might be flirting just a tiny bit. I really hope so. God, can this girl not get any more beautiful?

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