Blue//LRH

4) Things Never Change

   I'm running faster then I ever ran before. My dad didn't want to drive me to the hospital because he said there wasn't a point, they weren't gonna let me see him. I will make them let me. The only thing running faster then me are my thoughts in my head. What if he doesn't make it? What if he makes it but doesn't remember me? Why does this stuff happen to me? After my Birth mom, we would figure things would settle down or that that would be the saddest point of my life but of course not. Things just never change. Regardless their isn't even a point of living. Without Luke, I have no friends, no family, it's all gone. I finally make it to the doors and open them up so fast I almost hit a lady in a wheelchair, didn't bother to say sorry though, Luke is more important. I got to the front desk and asked where Hemmings is. She said No one was registered.

"What do you mean no one is registered?" I say with anger running through my veins.

"Was it very urgent?" The nice lady replies referring to the causes of his presence,trying not to push anymore buttons.

"Yes."

"Therefore he isn't in the system, but go in the waiting room on the emergency floor, maybe you will see family. Emergency floor is 4 and you are family correct?"

"Yes ma'am. Thank you"

Theoretically, I'm not lying, he is family.

    I hear the ding of the elevator button when I hit the 4th floor. First thing I see is his whole family. If this were me in this hospital bed, this exact family would be here, but Luke would be there too. Probably even before my blood relatives.

Ben runs to me and hugs me really tight.

"I am so sorry for what you have had to go through, you should be at home grieving not worrying about this too. Please I don't want what's worst for you, I want what Luke would want, go home Jess." Tears running through his blue eyes. The whole family had his damn eyes, lucky shît heads.

"Thank you. I am fine. Just please give me the scoop on Luke."

"He just finished the surgery but he's in a coma, who knows how long that will last."

"Can I see him?" I asked hopefully.

"Only if I could come too" a voice butted in. " I didn't go in yet" Jack told me. Probably didn't want face his little brother in such a bad state.

"Of course" I said already starting walking towards the door with Jack. Celeste already went so she stayed with Ben and Luke's parents.
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       I have been sitting for 15 minutes in this chair next to Jack. I feel helpless. I feel angry. I feel sad. I feel played and cheated. To some it all up, I feel like crap. My best friend and only person I really have left here, is in a coma and the worst part isn't the anticipation of him waking up. It's the fear of knowing he might not.

   "Why couldn't it be me" Jack sobs.

   "Don't you dare start that" I say slightly raising my voice. My throat feels all weird because of my tears and because I haven't spoken since we've gone into this room.

    "I've been through a lot of losses and things get better, so don't wish something upon yourself when it wasn't meant to be you. The man upstairs knew Luke could handle it, you couldn't have. So don't start with this ' it should've been me' crap, because if anything it should've been ME, I have people up there to actually see, be reunited with, you have a life here, I don't!" I sob ranting more to myself then Jack.

        Just when Jack was about to respond, two tall boys came in.

      "Is he ok?"One asks frantically, his curly locks in every direction.

       "He is in a coma, if you think this is his prime time then you're dumber then I expected" The other boy next to him states as he rolls his pretty green eyes.

       "Hey Ash, Hey Mikey" I try and say with enthusiasm. Jack just gives them a wave, then decides he has had enough of just staring at Luke, so he left softly shutting the door behind him.

      "Where's Cal?" I ask knowing they are insuperable so when one is missing, something is wrong.

   "He said he didn't want to face him because its his fault Luke is in this position" Ashton said, Michael being to overwhelmed to speak.

"Wait, who's fault was this?" I ask out loud wondering what really happened. But my thoughts were interrupted by beeps of the machine resting next to Luke. All I saw was the look on Michael and Ashton's faces before my vision went blurry of tears.