Blue//LRH

23) The talk 2.0

           We are both sitting on the couch looking awkwardly at my Dad. Can't he see through the tears and heartbroken expressions that we need some privacy?

"Want me to leave?" My Dad finally starts to catch on.

"NO SHIT" Jacklyn screams as she eavesdrops on us from the kitchen.

My Dad goes up stairs Jacklyn following close behind.

"What's up with you? Why can't you open up to me?" My voice breaks the silence.

"I guess I had to put up this strong demeanour for you because you we're dealing with so much. I didn't want you to have to deal with me because i would know you would put me before yourself."

"I mean before. Before all this stuff happened with my Mom. We were best friends before we were dating and before I knew about Jackie and before my sister came back in touch with me and before Alisha died. This has never came up before."

"It just didn't come up."

"IT JUST DIDN'T COME UP LUKE? SOMETHING THATS SLOWLY TEARING YOU APART DOESN'T NEED A CONVERSATION STARTER!" I yell standing up from the couch.

"Chill out."

Is he being serious? He Just spent 2 weeks lashing out at me for no reason. And now that I'm trying to protect him he is telling me to chill out.

"You can spend 2 weeks lashing out on me for no reason but I can't be hurt you hid something from me for over 2 years." I say feeling my boiling blood coming to a cooler state.

"I didn't lash out, I just avoided you so I didn't lash out. WHILE YOU WERE TO BUSY TRYING TO FIND SOME MAGICALLY THEROY BEHIND THE REASON MY EYES WERE BLUE."

I was a little taken back by his sudden shouting.

"GUESS WHAT? MY DAD HAS BLUE EYES. THEREFORE BECAUSE I HAVE MY DADS BLOOD BECAUSE ITS MY DNA, I HAVE BLUE EYES." His sarcasm was just cruel. I just for sure thought that something was up and I thought I could find it in his eyes and his own mother even said; what's up with him?

"I just thought I could find what I was looking for in there." My voice barely above a whisper.

"And why did you think that?"

"Because that's where I found everything. My safe place, my happiness, my getaway.' I stop because i need to clear the lump in my throat. 'What love feels like."

I press my lips together making them roll out pale. He just licks his lips, making them glisten like the tears in his eyes and turns his head clenching his jaw.

"Im sorry I can't give you what you want anymore." His voice shaky.

"Yes you can" I shake my head afraid of what's going to happen next.

"If I could give you what you want, you wouldn't be crying right now. I would be holding you telling you it's ok, but I can't even control myself right now so I can't protect you."

"You're not supposed to protect me. You're not my parents. You are supposed to love me and that's all. And that just comes naturally and the only way you are allowed to leave this is if you tell me you can't love me. That's a different story."

"I will never not love you. I just can't make you feel the same."

"Mission accomplished. I already do Luke, what are you trying to get across?"

"You won't once you find out."

"WHAT DID YOU DO SO BAD THAT WOULD BREAK ME MORE THAN WHAT I PUT UP WITH ALL THESE YEARS?"

My Dad came down stairs.

"Listen kids." Dear god. "I have had 2 wives, both of which left me tragically. That was even later in life. Right now, you guys are still so young if you are in this intoxicated relationship you need to give each other room to breathe." My Dad has never said something so wise.

Luke walks closer to me closing the gap between us. He leans in and kisses my head.

"I love you" he whispers as he rests his forehead on mine. "That will never change. I just need to find a way to show you properly."

And with that he walks out the door. Me crying onto my Dads shoulder.

A/N: things are coming together guys!!!!!!!! I know this was crap but bare with me 😬😬 when someone finally comes across this book I hope it is being enjoyed!!!!!!😂