Blue//LRH

32)Luke

I started packing back up as the tears fall from my eyes and banging on the locked door gets louder. I can't stay here. Not knowing that I'm going to have to leave while he stays back because thats starting to show him I'll always be here waiting for him. If I put in the effort he should give in his but he hasn't been showing me half. Even if I wanted to stay I can't. I can't physically handle seeing him everyday knowing he isn't the same Luke I fell in love with. He isn't the boy who kissed me on that autumn afternoon or in my kitchen. He isn't the boy who would stay up with me for hours until he knew I was done crying. He made it clear to me his priorities now.

I finally gave in and opened the door, didn't even bother to wipe the tears from my eyes.
"I'm not even important enough to you for you to call me and tell me or keep me updated whenever we talked! You waited to see if I came out here to tell me for what? To see if I would literally crawl to the end of earth for you? You're not even the one who told me it was the boys! And you just stood there like a coward knowing you didn't know me at 12 and I never broke your heart. It was Zoey and you just let them think it was me, that I was the vulnerable middle schooler who you gave a second chance and who came back to you in the end?"

"What was I supposed to do? Say 'sorry Ash it was actually your girlfriend that the endless love songs were about'? Think about it Jess!"

"If it doesn't mean anything anymore why should it matter?"

"Are you gonna let jealousy get in the week we have together before we might go months on end without seeing each other?" He should really stop switching topics.

"I can't be here anymore, you're looking at me straight in the eye and switching topics to avoid the questions."

"If you wanna leave I'm not stopping you but if it's because you are trying to get me out of your face it's a dumb move because you'll be hearing and seeing a lot me on the radio anyway."

"Why are you so confident that all this shit is gonna work out so well?"

"BECAUSE YOU AREN'T."

I told him that I believe in him and I meant it. If he didn't believe me, that's his problem.

"You are really in over your head. You can't even amount to anything else around you!"

I think his music is good but he has 2 EP's out already and the response wasn't huge.....

"Walk out of that door and see if I give a fuck." If this is some sick way of him trying to break down every last piece of me until I surrender, he isn't gonna win. If he wants this to be over, it comes out of his mouth. I thought it was gonna be a battle of who could stare you down the hardest but he proved me wrong when he decided he wasn't done and fired back again.

"And if I don't care then who will? And that's the fucking problem isn't it? I'm just a lonely call because no one else gave a damn about you but now you have friends and I'm just something that you can throw away? Do you fucking understand it's not the colour of my eyes now? It who I am. Zoey broke me; I won't let you break me. I felt lost; with music and the boys, I'll never be alone. I had no confidence in myself but now I have something that I'm good at and people know I'm good. And yes demons still circle my head but every bodies got their demons." He stares at me so cold I feel a shiver run through my spine. He picks up my hand. "Looks like your making progress too." He says referring to the one letter on my arm. His eyes don't leave mine though. Not for a second. "Just answer this. What is the L for?"

"Being Lost."

"And why's that?"

"If I knew it wouldn't be written on my arm." I say almost through gritted teeth.

"Let me spell it out for you." He goes across the hall into a room with a bunch of office supplies and comes back with a pen. My wrist currently looked like l. But after Luke left the room it looked like luke. Handwritten from the problem himself.

A/N:

I'm so evil I'm sorry