Blue//LRH

30)BACK TO........you?

3 months ago
Then there was Luke. He was standing there, awaiting my embrace which I will so gladly give him. Doesn't mean I'm still not upset. I walk up to hug him and he hugs back. A tight loving squeeze. He brings his head up more from the previous position of being buried in my neck. His lips close my ear, his cold lip ring sending a sudden shiver across my body and whispers; "I'm not mad you for being mad that I'm leaving." Luke manages to choke out through his silent tears. "Everyone is mad at me for leaving, but I thought that you would be different from everyone else when it came to believing in me."

I swear his broad shoulders looked free and less tense when he admitted to that. This whole time I was upset because i thought he was mad at me for 'not understanding' him and his reason to go and that I wasn't allowed to feel something. But this whole time. He wanted my approval, not of him leaving, but of what he's choosing to do. Not even the approval but for me to say 4 simple words. 'I believe in you.'

So I did. I whispered through my fresh tears. "I believe in you."

"I want you to mean it."

So I said it again.

"I believe in you."

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3 months. It's been 3 months. I lasted 3 freaking months without him. Without the boys, just school and my 2 sisters, 2 nephews and my Dad. Sorta. Within the last 3 months only typical things have happened. Alex is now 3 months and one week. His face when he sees Michael on FaceTime or Skype is hilarious. Isadora and Scott had their baby almost 2 weeks after the boys left, making him almost 3 months, but not quite yet. They named him Lucas. Mainly because Luke literally begged for them to name him Lucas so I won't call him Lucas anymore because my nephew would be a Lucas. Ugh. Such a Lucas.

     As for school there's 5 months left. I survived half of the school year in 11th grade meaning, I only have these 5 months and the 10 in grade 12 to be finished school. I'll be  out of this hell hole fast enough. Me and my sisters got my dad into a rehab centre. He has been drinking too much especially after the fight I had with him. He'll be coming home permanently in a couple weeks. Right now it's just 3 days a week. Me, Jacklyn and Alex have been staying with Isadora while he's away because we're 2 16 year olds and a baby. What the hell would we do at home alone for months?

      The boys being away really pushed me to meet new people. I've grown so close with Zoey that I can call her a second sister. I also met these 2 girls, Hilary and Michelle. Michelle's twin brother Mason is the reason I grew out of my shell. I've told Luke about him through text and FaceTime, and he's seen him in my endless snapchat story I have when he takes my phone and does stupid shit. What a guy. Luke respects that I can have guy friends so he really doesn't care. Even though I know he hates that he isn't here to be like 'she's still mine though', he still gets it.

Regardless, I still made it through 3 months. The boys come back in 4 days and I'm extremely happy to see Luke, Alex and Jacklyn can't wait to see Michael and Zoey can't wait to see Ashton and Calum's.......oh my gosh I need to chill. I need to contain my excitement. If not I will go into adrenaline over drive. As I'm trying to contain myself I get a FaceTime call from Luke. As I was about to say hello, he abruptly interrupts me.

"Go into my room. Well go into my house first, then go into my room. Go. Now!" Luke screams each word getting louder and louder. It wasn't harsh yelling. It was yelling with a smile while his dimple appears wanting to be seen like rays of sun through the curtains. Bright and beautiful.

"I'm at Izzy's. It's gonna take a while to get there." I say giggling as his face literally falls, dimples disappearing.

"You're sixteen, drive!" He says voice cracking towards the end, voice getting higher.

"IS IT HAPPENING?!?" Jacklyn comes in and gets really excited. She turns her head towards the stairs. "IZZY GET THE CAR, SCOTT WATCH THE KIDS" she says running up the stairs as if she's running from something. I hesitantly look at my screen where Luke's face appears, brighter than ever.

"Luke.........." I trail off. I jump and through the phone to the large sofa I'm seated upon and run up the stairs yelling my sisters names. Once I reach the top of the stairs I'm already out of breath. "Guys what the hell!"

"Get in the car!"

And with that. Off we are to Luke's. Where Luke isn't. WAIT A SECOND.

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I feel like I just did this. Run up so many stairs. Does anyone around here have a loft? Catching my breath as I turn the nob to open the door to Luke's bedroom. It looks to clean to be Luke's room but he hasn't been here for 3 months. Hasn't sleep in his own bed. Hasn't looked at his ceiling. His wall of guitars. He must miss this so much. I even missed it and it's not my room. Jacklyn interrupts me and hands me her phone with Luke on the screen yet again. My phone is sitting on the coach in Izzy's basement due to the sudden rush of excitement that trilled through my sisters.

"Ok we're here. What now?" I feel like I'm on the amazing race. Like what's my next clue Lucas?

"It's on my nightstand. My journal notebook thing. Look for the page with the key." He says referring to one of the keys he gave me on my birthday.

I open his notebook straight to the page with the key, seeing it there before. {Chapter 25}

"Today's that day."

It occurred to me after a couple seconds what he meant. He wrote beside it 'one day'. But what's today? And what happens one day?

"Luke what is going on?" I state while not looking back. Which was stupid. But I just focus on the screen where the boys faces soon appear. "See ya guys soon! Love ya! Stay safe." They all say, Michael and Luke giving a kissy face while Ashton and Calum blow us kisses with their grins behind it. They hung up. I'm still so confused. But then I turned around. Jacklyn and Izzy holding plane tickets.

Boys of 5 seconds of summer
From: Sydney, AUS
To: London, France Time of departure: 10:00pm// February 20th

That's today. London. LONDON. TODAY.

"The boys can't be home in 4 days like what was originally supposed to happen, but they got you guys tickets to fly out and see them. You guys have a break these couple days anyways from exams. I'm going to because there has to be an adult. Let's go to London."

I squeal in sheer excitement probably breaking one of Mrs Hemmings' vases. I run out the room to go home and start packing when Jacklyn calls me back.

"Aren't you gonna take the key?"

"Why?"

"How else are we gonna get into the boys' house?"

"THE BOYS' WHAT?"

Smiles just on everyone everywhere. We head back home to start packing and mentally preparing for seeing the boys again. Luke again. I can't believe he's coming back to me, or, I'm going back to him I guess. I was all cheery while packing when my over thinking got the better of me.

Why did the boys have a house in London instead of a hotel room?

And

Why can't they come home in 4 days?

A/N:

Next chapter is gonna be a huge kick in the butt. The next ones are gonna be really like..wow. I know the school schedule got messed up with how many months and stuff, but whatever I don't like math. Anyways, A lot of old bones being dug up (not in a bad way)!! Enjoy. At most there will be only 10 chapters until the book is over.