Blue//LRH

12)"My Reward"

After a night sleep I decided to call up Luke. It's so nice to wake up knowing you don't have to get ready for school. I love Saturdays. Thoughts being interrupted when Luke's voice is heard at the end of the line.

"Hey" his voice raspy. He probably just woke up.

"Yesterday, you said I was blue. Why?" I say getting right to the point.

"You were telling me stuff before and that's the adjective I used."

"Lucas"

"Broken, lost, Unassertive, engaged. BLUE." Ahh....as I suspected.

"How did you come up with that like 0.5 seconds after I said it. No one can put stuff together that fast." I spoke denial all over my voice.

"I've been broken lost Unassertive and engaged before too Jess, I remember the words coming out of my own mouth, that's all."

"Whatever. I still think it's too specific. When were you ever like that?"

"Look, I did feel that way, just totally opposite. I was broken, but it was by a lover. Lost but it was because i was alone. Unassertive because i had a lack of confidence. Not vulnerability. Engaged but not in amazement but In the dark thoughts in my head." And as if he were standing in front of me, I could feel his gaze slowly hitting the ground, jaw clenched as the memories of a feeling trying so hard to be forgotten coming back and hitting him like a brick.

"There was a time' he continues 'were there was no you or the boys. Now you're  all sad and Michael is gonna be a dad and Cal has a girlfriend and Ash also has a girlfriend and he's graduated already so I won't see him as often. I don't know it's too much. It's gonna happen again. That feeling."

"Wanna come over?"

"Sure, be there is like 5"

"K" I hang up.

    I had no idea Luke felt this way before. It sounds like he was in a worse place then I am in now after losing 2 parents, Dad so far gone, and having a mystery sister and another sister that expects all of us to be dandy. I'm handling it pretty well I guess. That's what I'm being told. I was always really strong so I guess it's like second nature to me that I don't even realize. Luke always tells me stay strong stay optimistic and stay with me. He has this fear that I will one day attempt suicide or I don't know, just do something stupid so everytime he leaves, he says that.

        The doorbell rings so I go and get it, passing my dad being passed out on the couch with a bottle of whiskey on the floor. I open the door to the sight of a hella good looking guy, about 6'4 dark blonde locks, mesmerizing dark blue eyes, perfectly shaped lips just in between thin and plump with a cupids bow built to perfection. Oh yeah, that's my best friend that could have been my boyfriend right now but I'm not ready. But I am ready wait, I think I'm not ready. I really want to be ready. Dear God. Can someone please tell me that I'm ready?

"You gonna come in?" I retort in a manor I had no intention of it coming to be.

    "You gonna stop fantasizing over me." he replies with as much sarcasm as I did attitude.
I just give him a fake smile and move my body slightly and make a hand motion to signal him to come into my house.

     I was getting a water from the fridge when I turn around to see him on the bar stool, swinging from left to right. He soon jumps off and comes towards me, we both stop in a position where there was still quite a gap to fill in, kinda like a meet me half way situation. He stares at me like I'm a rare jewel he has never seen before. So much emotion flooding through his eyes. Breaking the silence he decided to move his lips, the focus of my attention these past 30 seconds.

"Thanks for wanting to stay in my life. I will never know how to repay you for that."

"You do everyday, when you keep coming back" I reply honestly.

"Then give my reward." He states simply as he leans in and before I can question what he said, his lips attach to mine. He kissed me when we went on our 'date' but now he kissed me so delicately, as if I was ever so fragile. What I soon realized is that he kissed me as we both were.

AN:
CLIFFHANGER

anyway, if you guys were wondering, since it's October 2016, I picture Luke as he is right now, hair is not quiffed, not even blonde anymore 😂😂with those curls of his💕
So picture him as he is now. Just because he is 16 going on 17  I picture  him as he is present day. But I still picture the Lip ring because UGH THAT WAS LIFE