By The Grace Of Katy I'm Still Breathing (Katy Perry Fanfiction)

Chapter 6 (From The Bad To The Worst To The Perfect)

It has been two days since I have had any rest, I felt completely exhausted but I just couldn't fall asleep. Now Angela and Shan are staying with me, but it didn't make me feel any better. I needed Catcat now. I had decided that I am going to visit her place along with Angela and Shan. I didn't dare to call my baby because she hates me. I just felt desperate.

We got into my Audi and Angela drove. I sat at the back seat staring out the window. How am I supposed to start a conversation with Catcat? Why did I react so badly last time? It was complete silence in the car. Neither Angela or Shan talked at all, they were afraid and nervous. I am hurting everyone who loves me because of my stupid doings. We pulled into Catcat's driveway after a while. 

I placed my finger on the doorbell but couldn't bring myself to press it. Angela helped me and Catcat's mom answered.

'Oh it's you, what happened after we left? Catcat is very upset, she isn't talking, only crying all the time, well come in first, we need to talk.'

'Catcat is upset? Gosh! And thank you so much for letting us in, I am so sorry for all the trouble.'

'I will go and tell Catcat to come down, please wait,' With that, Mrs Foster went upstairs.'

(Catherina's POV)

I felt so bad and guilty for talking to Katy in such a mean way. I am scared that Katy hates me now, what should I do? This thought had been running again and again in my head, I couldn't think straight, luckily I had Lacy with me.

'Hey baby, your... um... mom has came to see you...'

'Mom, you are my one and only mommy and this won't ever change... Katy is here?'

'It will, baby, well it should. Yep, she wants to talk to you, are you coming down?'

I went down the stairs hesitantly. I walked into the kitchen where everyone was and I saw Katy standing in the corner sipping from a mug. Katy looked terrible, she looked like a zombie. I guess that she hadn't been sleeping and had been crying all the time. Her eyes were all red and puffy and she was so pale, I don't think that she had been eating because her cheekbones were showing more than it should. I looked at her, feeling super bad for making her like this, but when she looked at me, I looked away, I couldn't meet her eyes, I was scared and I panicked again.

'Baby, we are leaving the house and going to the mall for you guys to talk, call us if you need anything.' Dad said.

I nooded and walked over and hugged them tightly. I said I love them and Katy burst into tears. Great I did it again, idiot. Everyone left except me, Katy, Angela and Shan. I looked at Katy, then Angela, then Shannon.

'Why? Catcat why? Why did you have to do that to me? Do I mean anything to you? All you care about is your pathetic fake parents! I am your Mom! How could you?'

'Sis are you out of your mind? We are here to let Catcat accept you back to her life! Not to piss her off even more!'

'Yeah, Katy, apologize to Catcat. Sorry Cat, my best friend is very tired, she doesn't mean it!'

'What? Why do I have to apologize to her! She is the one who should be apologizing, not me! She pushed me out of her home because of some filthy fake parents! Catherina Hudson! You better apologize to me now. I am your mother! I can punish you young lady!'

'Shut up Katy Perry! You can be my biological mother but you will never be my mom! I am Catherina Foster and not Catherina Hudson! You don't have the right to punish me! You are just nobody!'

'Catherina Hudson apologize right now! How dare you talk to your mother like this!'

'I don't think that you are my mother! Katy Perry you are a bitch! Where were you all these years? You left me at a stranger's house when I was I don't know how fucking old! I hate you! I hate you to death! Never in a million years will I ever forgive you! You are the one who is pathetic! You are the filthy one! Not my extremely lovely parents! Leave me alone! I hate you! I don't want to ever see you again! Katy Perry you fuck off! Get out of my sight! I hate you!'

With that I turned away. I saw Katy slide down against the walls and got onto her hands and feet while crying really badly. I actually felt really bad, but I was so pissed off that I ignored the crying Katy and the shocked Shannon and Angela and stormed up the stairs and slammed my door shut. Tears kept streaming down my face. I was so harsh to Katy, now she is so upset and it is all my fault. I walked into my little paradise (My little Katy Perry Land) to calm myself down although I know it won't work.

(Katy's POV)

'Shut up Katy Perry! You can be my biological mother! but you will never be my mom! And I am Catherina Foster and not Catherina Hudson! You don't have the right to punish me! You are just nobody!' and 'I don't think that you are my mother! Katy Perry you are a bitch! Where were you all these years? You left me at a stranger's house when I was I don't know how fucking old! I hate you! I hate you to death! Never in a million years will I ever forgive you! You are the one who is pathetic! You are the filthy one! Not my extremely lovely parents! Leave me alone! I hate you! I don't want to ever see you again! Katy Perry you fuck off! Get out of my sight you bitch! I fucking hate you!'

What Catcat said kept on ringing through my head. I am jusy crying and crying right now. This was by far the most hurt time of my life. Even my divorce with Russell wasn't so bad. Now my sis and best friend are very worried about me and shocked. Why did I even go crazy on my baby? I was completely out of my mind but why didn't I stop when Angela stopped me? Why did I insult her parents who raised her for me? 

Catcat hates me even more now, I will never have a chance now...

'I... I am... such... a failure... I... want to... kill myself! I... don't wanna... live... anymore!'

'Shut up Katy! Together we are going to get through this! Come on baby sis!'

'Yeah girl! Cheer up! I'm sure that Catcat didn't mean it, maybe she is just stressed...'

'No! She hates me! I know that! I won't have a chance! I always mess up!'

(Catherina's POV)

It has been almost an hour now and I can still hear Katy crying downstairs. I have finally calmed down, so I have to go and apologize to Katy. I left my room and walked down the stairs quietly, seeing Katy burying her face into the ground, and Angela and Shannon putting their hands on her back, comforting her. I walked near Katy and knelt down, at this point, the two of them backed off.

'I am hopeless sis, I am rubbish, Catcat hates me, I don't want to live anymore!'

I wrapped my arms around her and placed my head on her back and cried real hard.

'Sis, get off me! Why are you even crying? I am the epic fail, not you...'

'Katy shut up! I'm so sorry, I don't hate you, I love you... I am so sorry, I didn't mean what I said, I am the messed up one.'

I moved and sat next to her. Katy sat up and looked at me. She hugged me really tight and I hugged back.

'I am so sorry baby, I didn't mean it too, I love you...'

'We are leaving you two now, enjoy yourselves,'

We kept on hugging while Angela and Shannon left, Gosh! This was our perfect moment, I love it.