By The Grace Of Katy I'm Still Breathing (Katy Perry Fanfiction)

Chapter 9 (Do I Really Have To Choose?)

(Catherina's POV)        

Alex and I went to the beach for a walk. I really wasn't feeling fine. We walked in silence, with her occasionally glancing at me.          

'Girl, this is stupid! Why are we even here when we are not talking at all?'        

'Will you just shut up? I just wanna walk in peace, don't I have enough troubles?'        

'What the hell?'        

'You know what? Just fuck off Al. You are not helping me at all. Give me some quiet time and get away from me.'

'What have I done to you bitch? You want me to leave? Fine! I leave! Don't come crying to me later when you need someone because I am the only one that you have! You pathetic Mother doesn't care about you! You have nothing! You'll take what you get!'          

'How dare you!'

I don't know why, but I slapped her on the face. I regret it so damn badly just a second later.

'Oh my god I hate you Catherina!I hate you!'

I sat sobbing while watching the sunset, it was simply gorgeous. I remembered coming here sitting with my parents and cuddling with Tammy and Lacy. It was the best time ever. I would play volleyball with my friends under the warm sun while Alexis's speaker boomed California Gurls. Life was perfect for me. Until the truth came in. Why did Katy have to come back? Won't it be perfect if she was just my idol, and not anything else? Won't it be even better if I never existed? I was consumed in my own thoughts when I felt a pair of arms wrap around me from behind...

'Arghhhhhhhhh! Get off me! Get off me you sick monster!'

'Oh sorry Cathy, didn't mean to scare you.'

It was Nathan. I turned to face him. He looked gorgeous, his crystal blue eyes sparked perfectly, how can I not love him?

'Nathan, I am so sorry that day...' I said awkwardly as I haven't seen him nor talked to him since that day when he kissed me in his car.

'No, I am sorry. Sorry for scaring you off by kissing you on the cheek.'

'I just didn't know how to react...'

'It was insensitive of me and I am so sorry. How are you feeling? You don't look too well. How is it with Katy?'

I told him everything that happened while he had his arms around me, just like we always did long ago. After I finished talking, he comforted me and then it was silence and staring.

'Do you have any feelings for me?'

'Nathan... I...'

He leaned closer to me. Our faces were just an inch apart. I could smell his cologne now, so refreshing, so deep. I could smell his minty warm breathe, he was so good looking. His peachy lips almost touched mine. My heart was beating... It happened. He kissed me. I was shocked again.

'You have feelings for me, Cathy, you do...'

'I... I don't know...' I stammered, backing away from him.

'What are you afraid of?'

'Nothing! I'm not afraid!'

'What is it? What is stopping us?'

'I don't know!'

I stood up and started to run. He was calling my name but I didn't care. I freaked out again. I knew he was running after me, but he was no match for me. I am fast. I got home, ran into my bathroom, and saw something I shouldn't have seen.