By The Grace Of Katy I'm Still Breathing (Katy Perry Fanfiction)

Chapter 19 (Homesick)

My eyes fluttered open and the first thing that I saw was three pairs of eyes digging right into my flesh. How long have Catcat been gone? I miss her so much. It felt like that she has left me for more than a month now. Tears were streaming down my cheeks, I opened my mouth but nothing came out. John took me into his arms and I buried myself into his chest.

'Shhhhh... calm down... it's over now...'

'How can it be? It is so unfair! I only had her back for a  few weeks! There are so many things that we haven't done together! I haven't even spend a Christmas with her! My parents haven't met her yet! This is so unfair!'

The three looked at me confusingly. I kept on crying and crying.

'Can I please go to Catcat's grave please? I miss her...'

'See her grave? Katy babe, what are you talking about?'

I gulped hard. I knew that Catcat was dead. My baby was dead. John told me that. I see myself attending my baby's funeral and seeing her lay in a coffin, then buried into the deep ground. I couldn't bring myself to say that my baby daughter is dead, I cannot accept the truth.

'You.... said....like... Catcat is... d...dead... we buried her like a month ago...'

'What? Oh baby, she is fine, just icy cold, Alex is with her, Alex is taking care of her, calm down. I never said anything like that, when Catcat's heart started beating and she is alive, Markus and I came down to see you on the floor fainted, while Shannon was fanning you. You must have had the worst scare ever, do you need anything?'

'Catcat is alright? Oh my god! I scared myself to death! I gotta go and see her!'

I was about to sprint up the stairs when John pulled me back.

'What the hell?' I snapped, showing that I was confused and annoyed with him.

'Babe, please take this easy... Catcat said... she doesn't want to see any of us, she just wants to be with Alexis.'

'What? She almost killed my baby! John! How could you leave Catcat with her! That sick monster is going to harm my baby!'

'No, Katy, Alex is her best friend, she won't harm Catcat. Alex is just like me to you, I am your best friend, let the kid have some space.'

Everyone nodded in unison. What? Why would she want to talk to her best friend instead of her mother? This is ridiculous!

'But I really want to know how she feels...'

'We can be nosey! We can listen through the door!'

'Shanny... should I?'

'Yeah if you are desperate!'

'Okay then...'

(Catherina's POV)

I woke up as air gushed into my lungs. John Mayer was so near to me. He was about to give me another mouth-to-mouth but I placed my hand on his mouth. Heck no! I realised that my biological mother's boyfriend has been basically kissing me.

'Honey you're back! Gosh you gave us a scare! We really thought that you were going to leave us!'

'Yeah, I am so sorry John...'

'I'll go and get Katy so that you two can have a chat alone? She's worried sick!'

'Um can we not? I want Alex, can we talk alone please?'

'Sure, if that is what you want I will go and get her, wait a minute.'

John turned around and I looked around me. I realised that I was on the ground still and dripping wet. I had a warm towel wrapped around me, but now it is also wet and soggy. John came out of the bathroom that was linked to the room that I was in and he apologised.