This Could All Be Yours

8

*One Month Later*

I stayed in the bedroom tonight.

I couldn't fall in love. Not with Gerard. I had Jay. Wasn't that enough?

I heard a knock on the bedroom door.

"Who is it?"

The door opened and Bob walked in.

"When someone asks "who is it?", you're suppose to say who you are, not barge in."

"Too late."

I rolled my eyes.

"So what's up? Why are you isolating yourself in the bedroom?"

"I'm not isolating myself."

"You haven't left the bedroom in a week."

I sighed.

He sat down on the bed. "What's up?"

"I should've listened to you. I shouldn't've seen Gerard. I should've stopped. I didn't mean to fall in love with him. It just happened."

"Frank,"

"And what about Jay? I can't just leave him! I love him!"

"Clearly you don't if you have these feelings for Gerard."

I fell back on the bed. "I don't want this."

"What don't you want?"

"I don't want - I don't know!" I felt upset with myself that I let Gerard in and began to cry. "Jay's gonna hate me!"

"He's not going to hate you."

"Yes he will and he'll kick me out and he won't ever love me again!"

"He can't hate you for something he knows nothing about. And you haven't cheated. I mean, have you and Gerard done anything?"

I shook my head no.

"Then what are you upset about?"

"I'm gonna fuck up. I'm falling for Gerard and I c-can't make it stop!"

Bob pulled me up and into his chest. "Frank, you don't love Jay."

"Yes I do."

"No, you don't. If you did, you wouldn't have fallen for Gerard."

"But," I sat up, "M-Maybe when Jay gets back, the feelings for Gerard will go away. That's possible, right?"

"Maybe."

He comforted me until I had fallen asleep.

***

The next morning when I woke up, I gasped and jolted awake due to Bob was sitting next to me and me not realizing it.

"Did I scare you?" He chuckled.

I nodded. "Why are you in here?"